{ nikuko } alan sondheim { jennifer }

2008-12-21T20:45:00.000-08:00

Exchange Rate

our eyes met. it was at that moment s/he knew s/he'd sign up. I leaned
over to clinch the deal. s/he looked me up and down I was swollen in all
the right places and then some. Chinatour gained another satisfied
customer, hir fantasy money in the bank. let's call this piece Exchange
Rate. geodesics make geodesy. I couldn't forget my future s/he said to no
one in particular. Chinatour will take care of that I said to no one in
particular. :leased hir body hir sheave-skin distended in all the right
places, for what, for Chinatour, the mountain says it all, hir body in the
foreground. I can't see clearly I said, I'm distracted. that's my job,
s/he said, I'm Chinatour, if you look at me I make money for them, you
can't help it, I can't help it, they pay me, they can't help it either.
where do they go I asked. who. Chinatour. s/he replied not to China that's
for sure. I don't know. but they use the Sung backdrop, Fan-Kuin, some-
thing like that, I don't speak the language. you can't see anything s/he
added, the fog's in the way. it's you not the fog I said and let it go at
that. Chinatour gains a point, maybe five. it's more than I'll ever see.
and these photos, incredible. almost like the real thing. there are no
real things around here. they're as real as they get, you just don't see
them. at least I see, s/he replied. at least I see as well I said not
catching the drift into body and fog, sheave-skin and mountain. our eyes
met.:leased hir body for that ad for Chinatour who knew what would come of
the foreground effacing tao-mudra w/ hermit in the distance well s/he
needed monie as s/he said and flight was easy it's our world s/he said,
there's no tao. there's no tao, nothing, not even emptiness, everything
stricture s/he said, you can't have a thing without a frame & a frame
without a thing. but I can fly s/he said & that's the tao of Chinatour you
can always have an image of the thing if you can't have the thing itself.
even emptiness I asked. even emptiness, if there's no way just turn the
screen off, I won't know, time stops when I'm gone, when I'm back it's
like I never left. even if things changed I asked. I begin where I begin
s/he replied. look at me. I'm ready for it. what's that I asked. movement,
process, s/he said, I can't go farther, Chinatour is looking for me:China-
tour, the velvet fog of the world:Chinatour satisfies your customer:China-
tour, the velvet fog of the world:Chinatour, when your day is done ours
ust begins :Chinatour, when there's smoke there's mountain

from ESP-Disk night performance at the Bowery Poetry Club (for Barnacled and my re-release of an ESP recording: http://www.alansondheim.org/esp2.mp3

2008-03-23T17:16:00.000-07:00

Apologies for not responding here; I've been working on things like the enclosed . The video contains two avatars; each is created with motion capture used simultaneously by two people (therefore four people in all); the stills are from head and body scans of dancers that are then attached to the avatars; in other words there is an entire community here invisible and visible; dancers are Kira Sedlock and Foofwa d'Imobilite; programmer is Gary Manes; production etc. myself; choreography mixed; technical Azure Carter; created at the Virtual Environments Lab, West Virginia University. For a more detailed rendering of the video try http://www.alansondheim.org/riddle.mov . This work consists of duals, as if the pre- or proto-linguistic self-constructed from oppositions that dissolve into the abject.

2008-02-03T16:30:00.001-08:00

outline of emanent research

(note while the notions of 'code,' 'coding,' 'decoding,' codework,
underlie almost everything below, they're not explicit - nor are the
actions of reading and writing. the actions can be considered emergent
phenomena, and the notions as primitives in the sense of members of a set,
etc. again, the analog and digital phenomenologies are implicit as well,
as are the (related) concepts of abjection and purification. the analyses
of these comes out through praxis, attention to detail, thinking through
mandalic structuring until the scaffolding leads, not to silence, but to
tending. this should be clearer as the work progresses.

i should note that the following is both a constitution of my usual/cur-
rent directions and most likely too ambitious. the trajectories circulate
around formal systems and their psychoanalytic/psychological receptivi-
ties, around emanents and 'true worlds,' around edge phenomena which turn
towards the uncanny and abject, around languages, bodies, sexualities,
communalities, and inhabitations. i have increasingly worked through
buddhist philosophies, the analogic and digital at the limits, notions of
'dis/eased' philosophies, deathing and uneasy worlds. now that i have a
clear time to think through these things, the outline below is useful as a
guide; for that matter, it's a guide to the past few years of the 'inter-
net text' as well.)

I. motion capture: this conjures up external behavioral characteristics
translated into internal processes (penetration, scale, displacement,
torsion, according to various geometries). think of mocap behaviors
operating within a constrained field with strange attractors / catas-
trophic jumps. continue to develop mocap with new multi-valent sensors
and software rewrites:

1. turning nodes on and off
2. combining nodes
3. mathesis such that node1 = f(node{n not = 1}), or such that
node1 = recursively f(node1)
4. multivalent sensors such that sensor(x) = sensor[{n}]

what are the emergent images here?

what is the possibility of constructing bvh files with additional nodes
determined mathematically from the hardware set? or mathematically from
extraneous data?

what is the possibility of other organic models (i.e. than human or
animal forms)?

IA. data remappings

entry of bvh files into blender:
1. modeled onto abstracted forms
2. modeled onto parent/child forms
3. modeled onto metaball forms

blender file outputs:

1. entry into cave environment: static or dynamic
2. video output
3. what is the possibility of gaming output here? (moving around emanent
environment)
3. second life output: static or dynamic/interactive

IB. interiors

1. standardized interiors: sheave-skin, sheave-organism
2. constructed 'model' interiors: solid, transparent, penetrable,
impenetrable
3. abject fluxed interiors: how should these be constructed?

IC. interior narratologies

1. abject/purified narratologies and emanent interactions
2. abjected/purified contents of dis/ease, dis/order, ecstasy, ekstasis,
catatonia, defuge, death/immobility, sexuality, speech/murmured/
whispered/cried/screamed, body formed/deformed
3. tantric/middleway theoretics

ID. choreographic mocap (see above)

1. additional issues of jump/leap, exhaustion, tether
2. video/photographic output as well as bvh

II. scan

phenomenology of scanning, causality across scanned lines

IIA. small scanner

1. head/speech phenomena dissected
2. schizophrenias and beam-splitters
3. reflections from coils, air condensers
4. static tantric buddha image: sutured, stitched-displaced, node
combinations and splits
5. wounds, scars, lips, genitals, ears

output into .obj files into blender/cave
output into video/still image files

within blender: solve the issue of disappearance/transparency

IIIB. large scanner

1. interior scans: rooms with bodies, reflections, dance-studio,
scan-choreographies
2. exterior scans at bretz coke ovens, persona rapid transit (in motion),
soccer fields
3. mobilized body scans in inert environments: reading 2d -> 3d, nature of
the inference.
3. environmental scans with mobilized and peripheral bodies
5. narratologies of such bodies: violence, chase, jump/fall, etc.
6. choreographic narratologies

III. access grid (open source internet 2 group messaging/environment)

1. distant interaction with emanents
2. readings of the corporate / corporate bodies: photographs/video
3. theory and discussion, levinas, leder, lingis, etc. at the distance
of telecommunications

IV. cave and second life

1. performance and documentation
2. working/running within emanent interiors
3. and so forth

V. goals of the above:

1. what does it mean to be in-carnated within the real/virtual/
true world?
2. what are the edge-phenomena/plastic and static limits of the body?
3. of the geopolitical body? of the political-economic body?
performance: abu-gharayb modeling in sl
performance: abu-gharayb modeling in choreography
4. what are the signifiers of bodily arousal/violence/meditation?
how are these constituted within the real/virtual?
5. readings: what does it mean to read the real body? the virtual body?
6. what are the ontologies and epistemologies involved here?
ontological status of the so-called virtual -
schrodinger's cat paradox and collapse of the wave function as model
for simultaneous analogic/digital readings -
seeing through microscopy (tunnel, scanning, optical, etc.):
are ontology and epistemology equivalent at the limit?
(are analogic and digital equivalent at a parallel limit?)

VI. medical model

1. internals and externals, static/dynamic. remnants of the visible
human project, gendering of the visual/internal
2. comfort, dis/comfort, ease, dis/ease, hysteria and abjection/fluid-
ity (laycock's 1840 essay on hysteria, kristeva, chasseguet-smirgel)
3. dis/ease, hysteria, and so forth of emanents
distorted emanent behavior and body image (gaz)
distorted surface textures and behavior-collisions (sondheim)
distorted worlding, 'bringing one out of the true world' (etc.)
4. medical model and technology
5. psychoanalytics and technology, psychoanalytics of emanents

VII. radio

1. vlf - very low frequency - body interferences with antenna
reception, phenomenology of body coupling with antenna
2. scanner - social, continuous socio-political landscape description.
3. sw - anomalous signals
4. long-wave - anomalous signals
5. crystal - the receptivity of inert materials, primordial radio and
primordial radio culture
6. phenomenology of the antenna/field: materiality of the world as
electromagnetic channeling

VIII. emanents within fieldings, choreographies, edge/boundary phenomena

VIIIA. praxis of edge/boundary phenomena

1. analogic and worn emanent boundaries
2. edge / boundary phenomena - physics and psychophysics of the game-
world edge in second life
3. phenomena of the sheave-skin and sheave-skin internals
4. phenomena of medical models in relation to edge/boundaries

VIIIB. praxis of edge/boundary phenomena with hardware/software

1. edge phenomena in literature, codework, mathesis of the text
(cramer's and reith's programs)
2. edge phenomena within the motion capture software, poser, blender,
calculations for example of sin(tan x) as tan x nears the
asymptote
3. generalization of edge phenomena into the dialectic between tacit
knowledge (polyani) and error (winograd/flores)

VIIIC. live choreographies:

1. foofwa and soccer (edge phenomena, dancesport, etc.)
2. foofwa with crystal radio, vlf radio, etc. in large field
3. sexuality of ballet (nude ballet, classical or genre figures),
gendering of roles, ballet as emanation
4. anita berber narratologies ('annihilation: to the limit!')
5. foofwa dancework at coke ovens
6. 'body-contouring' of dance/geography
the geography of dance, dance of geography, dance geography
7. 'body-contouring' of dance/technology: dance at the limits
of the machine

IX. world-constructions

1. what constitutes worlds? constructing?
world of the text, inhabitation/dwelling/building (heidegger,
dufrenne)
2. what constitutes the true world? worlding?
'true world' in which lines/angles are 'trued' (affine geometry),
'true world' in the sense of 'trued' phenomenologies within which
virtual, real, and ikonic are blurred and interpenetrating, somewhat
equivalent, and within which traditional epistemologies of symbol/
sign/signifier/signified/index/ikon etc. break down (kalachakra
tantra, jeffrey hopkins)
3. 'reading' underlying (substructural, configuration files, guides)
organization of mocap/scan through surface phenomena
(and the relationship of this reading to waddington's epigenetic
landscapes)
4. who is world? communality, consensuality?
the problem of other minds and the problem of consensual other minds
(group hallucinations, vijnanavada, dwarf sitings, ufos, etc.)

===

These images are produced from scanners, motion capture, anything that can analyze or transform the body in unexpected ways. For theory there are the pm.txt, pn.txt, po.txt going up and on at http://www.alansondheim.org/
- please check for details. Thanks

2008-01-03T05:53:00.001-08:00

From sondheim@panix.com Wed Jan 2 22:33:
Date: Wed, 2 Jan :33: (EST)
From: Alan Sondheim
To: Cyb , Wryting-L

Subject: Boojum

Boojum

Our cat, Boojum, had to be put to sleep today, in our arms, two days after
her 18th birthday. We were closer to her than most people. She meditated.
She taught patience. We're distraught; she was a good friend, a companion
who helped us through bleak times. She loved olives, asparagus, tomato
sauce. She was beginning to close down; her last purring was about ten
days ago. Losing a companion (Haraway's companion species) is as bad a
loss as any other (in spite of my father, who said, It's not like losing a
person you know). I can't do elegy after days of crying, running to emer-
gency rooms, trying different foods and medication. Below is her Internet
Index, within the crabbed space of my webpage.

her name, boojum, jean-paul, others
her name, boojum, jean-paul, others
her name, boojum, jean-paul, others
her name, boojum, jean-paul, others
name, boojum, jean-paul, others her name, boojum, jean-paul, others her
name, boojum, jean-paul, others her name, boojum, jean-paul, others hear
the despair among the carbon cacti, boojum trees, even in the midst of the
name, boojum, jean-paul, others her name, boojum, jean-paul, others her
name, boojum, jean-paul, others her name, boojum, jean-paul, others hear
the despair among the carbon cacti, boojum trees, even in the midst of the
Aditya A boggart bogle bonachus bonasus bonedevil bonnacon boobrie boojum
hear the despair among the carbon cacti, boojum trees, even in the midst
forgotten. Now, 2007, we are bringing our cat Boojum, this May 29, to Hope
2003 Boojum the cat who adopted me in 1990, developed breast cancer. She
The cat, Boojum, imagining her, the tenor of her fur, quality of her eyes,
:Boojum Carter
Comments by writer: Boojum is named after the Boojum tree in Baja
fury of cancer and creation. Azure and I are beside ourselves, and Boojum
Boojum, our cat, is checked now daily for a resurgence of cancer; we can't
cat, Boojum, imagining her, the tenor of her fur, quality of her eyes,
Boojum Carter Comments by writer: Boojum is named after the Boojum tree in
Boojum Boojum, our cat, is checked now daily for a resurgence of cancer;
cat, Boojum, imagining her, the tenor of her fur, quality of her eyes,
Boojum Carter Comments by writer: Boojum is named after the Boojum tree in
Boojum Boojum, our cat, is checked now daily for a resurgence of cancer;
partner, Azure Carter, and their cat, Boojum.

Boojum Carter (medical report four years ago)

feline, aged 13 1/2, four years after our mother's death, biopsy diagnosed
as follows:

Microscopic: MAMMARY MASS ONE - This mass is demarcated and has a well
localized appearance. It is comprised of a collection of neoplastic
epithelial cells that are forming tubules. The tubules are separated by
variably thick connective tissue septa. The neoplastic cells have ovoid
stippled nuclei and a scant amount of eosinophilic cytoplasm. Cytoplasmic
borders are distinct. The mitotic rate is low and ranges from 0-1 per
high-power field. Nonneoplastic tissue is forming margins. There are
scattered aggregates of lymphocytes and plasma cells surrounding the
growth MAMMARY MASS TWO - This is the larger of the growths evaluated.
There are several large cysts. There is a proliferating population of
neoplastic epithelial cells. The cells are organized in the lobules that
are forming occasional tubules. The central areas of the lobules are
degenerate. Neoplastic cells exhibit invasion. One or two layers of cells
line the tubules. The cells have large round vesicular nuclei with
multiple nucleoli. The cytoplasm is eosinophilic, scant and cytoplasmic
borders are distinct. The mitotic rate ranges up to six per high-power
field. Nonneoplastic tissue is forming margins.

DIAGNOSIS: MAMMARY MASS ONE- MAMMARY GLAD ADENOCARCINOMA, TUBULAR, LOW
GRADE MAMMARY MASS TWO - MAMMARY GLAND ADENOCARCINOMA, TUBULAR CYSTIC

PROGNOSIS: Guarded

COMMENTS: Feline mammary malignancies should be considered capable of
metastasis and warrant a guarded prognosis at best. The first smaller
growth evaluated is well localized and is not exhibiting invasion. This
appears to be a well-differentiated adenocarcinoma. The second growth is
exhibiting invasion and this growth should be considered as having
potential for metastasis. Lymphatic invasion is not identified with any of
the sections evaluated. These growths appear to be excised.

Comments by doctor: Guarded. Felines tend not to recover. She might live
six months, several years, or less. There is no way to tell. She needs
immune system fortification. The doctor wishes her news would have been
better. The question is whether or not the tubules remain within the body.
The cancer could spread rapidly or even go into remission.

Comments by writer: Boojum is named after the Boojum tree in Baja
California. She is thirteen and a half. She exhibits no signs of illness.
She has been my companion and is highly sociable and nervous, She has the
personality, if not the skills, of a brilliant writer. At the moment she
is sleeping, recovering from the removal of her stitches. She travelled
with us to Miami, where she encountered, even indoors, new and interesting
forms of flora and fauna. Azure and I pray that she will live forever.

Comments: That cancer is always the same, disordered, disorderly, a tough
go whose treatment is violent and invasive as well. The well-defined
structure of the body begins to collapse as tunnels are formed through
highly-organized tissue.

Every organism is a world of miracles, and every creature dissolves in the
fury of cancer and creation. Azure and I are beside ourselves, and Boojum
Carter dreams now, not of death.

From sondheim@panix.com Thu Jan 3 08:39:
Date: Thu, 3 Jan :39: (EST)
From: Alan Sondheim
To: arc.hive@anart.no
Subject: elegy for Boojum, our companion cat, we are all poor

elegy for Boojum, our companion cat, we are all poor,

'i can't do elegy' -
this is a poor and sleepless poem -
when something's at the limit there's nothing more to say -
for a moment i might have reversed the process
but heard nothing more than wailing or sounds like an animal -
nothing of crying, just tattered sound -
nothing of warning, fear, existence, trepidation -
nothing can be said on either side of death -
neither this one nor that one -
neither this nor the other -
death is an other -
(eighteen years, and death is an other) -
death is everywhere, death is not around -
(eighteen years, and death is everywhere,
death is poor, death is not around) -
always already other can't speak can't hear can't see -
double needles, of sedative, of anesthetic overdose -
doubled needles -
who are these people & their kindness -
(eighteen years and the kindness of strangers) -
i'm done with it, the other's never done with it -
always the last trip last day last night
last meal last touch last scent last sound -
(eighteen years and the last day and night,
last touch and meal, last scent and sound) -
in and out of the thick of it -
the thick of it never changed -
it stayed dry, viscous, substance and fissure -
it's uncomfortable, stains, sticks to everything -
lives on in us, exchanged, drops to the ground -
crawls out, walks to the sea, drops to the ground -
i can't drop to the ground, i drop to the ground -
there's an elegy on, everyone's there -
she says i think we're at the beginning of speech -
she says she's very sad and wants to go hone -
she stood dry, unattended -
(eighteen years and dry and unattended,
accompanied and unaccompanied, who can go
into and out of the world) -
the fire went out, into the world --
today someone counted elements,
earth, fire, water, wind, air, heat, dearth,
wood, & metal -
(eighteen years and the counting of elements) -
how was the air, the air was cold, bitter,
the wind harsh, we turned the carrier against
the wind, dearth of it all, harboring a flame
until the last, dying in our arms, the metal table,
off to a far wood of hunting -
the world is filled with secret coordinates -
impermanence of the metallic -
she says she thought of the limit -
in a small heaven somewhere -
& now we are silent in the night, existence is silent -
existence crawls, we heard her cries, the catheter
carefully inserted elsewhere in the building -
we held her heat against us, we exchanged heat -
the tablets - prayer wheel spinning above a slow flame -
we couldn't bear to empty her water, clean
her bowl of food, now despair reigns, & in our arms
nothing happened, everything seized --
'this is a poor and sleepless poem' -
without goodbyes, with ill-knowledge,
with infinite regret, with the world undone -
(eighteen years and the world undone) -
ah ah ah ah
ah ah ah ah
ah ah ah ah
ah ah ah ah

2007-12-28T21:54:00.001-08:00

2 images, Azure and samisen during packing, so many hidden instruments, count them all. but then a fan which (all but) disappears as all fans do, into the background (and the real, taking slightly more time). what more can I say but Queneau, stylistic exercises. in my life, I prepare for a continuous leavetaking - I realized I haven't had even the semblance of a 'steady job,' that is a situation that seemed as if it might continue, since 1985, which means 23 years of scurrying. so I will die most likely rather soon - I feel the increased stress constantly - for which purpose I suggest you download as much as possible, as quickly as possible, whatever you might like, just on the offchance that the site goes fallow, that I'm unable to keep up payments for pecuniary or health reasons. in the meantime do check out the current, December, issue of Signal to Noise, p. 44 for an excellent article on my work - I do say so myself - every so often someone seems to have gotten it 'right,' by which I mean of course, something I agree with, no more and no less. Also if you have the chance, check out, in whatever stage of progress, Barbara Caspar's film Acker, on Kathy Acker - again, a getting-it-right; I saw this at MOMA here in NY and was tremendously moved. (Most work I've seen on Kathy makes claims one way or another, 'claiming Kathy' - this film, as much as possible (disclaimer here), give her the presence of the fullness of her speech, not that of others.)

2007-12-24T05:49:00.001-08:00

a

fetal and fetal-field, more importations of human plasmatic neoplasm organism into programs of restructuration, retaining and amplifying abject deconstruction.

2007-12-23T00:05:00.001-08:00

experiments with human modeling through a variety of programs passing matrices, objects, structures, vectors, from one to another, programs include Second Life, mocap, Blender, CS, Poser, scanning softwares, etc.

2007-12-21T09:04:00.001-08:00

chirality, in this space

for 64 move upward 66
for 63 move rightward 63
for 62 move forward 62
for 61 move downward 61
for 60 move leftward 60
for 59 move backward 59
for 58 move upward 58
for 57 move rightward 57
for 56 move forward 56
for 55 move downward 55
for 54 move leftward 54
for 53 move backward 53
for 52 move upward 52
for 51 move rightward 51
for 50 move forward 50
for 49 move downward 49
for 48 move leftward 48

2007-12-19T20:51:00.001-08:00

Yamatantra debris / ex-caliber /

2007-12-19T11:49:00.001-08:00

identify with Yamantaka Vajrabhairava an occurrence from 1st thru 2nd life then identify with nothing at all when the space abandons itself

second life third life

begin by setting out directions, these are the five healthy directions,
the middle direction is one of exhaustion and ecstasy, then in the
direction opposite the middle direction set out the last direction, which
is one of wounding and suffering. if the middle direction is reception,
the last direction is penetration, if the last direction is reception, the
middle direction is penetration. set the house in order from the middle
direction outward, these are the spokes which narrow to the point of
intersection between the middle direction and last direction. now forget
the four directions, concentrate on the spokes, the point, the middle and
the last direction. then concentrate on the spokes, forget the point, the
middle and the last direction, the spokes come close to the point, forever
close to the point, but the point is absent, emptiness, emptiness radiates
outward between the spokes. now forget the spokes, emptiness radiates
among the ghosts of them, the spokes are hungry ghosts, they gnaw at
emptiness, they are wounded, they are defeated, they disappear. now think
of emptiness, think of nothing else, think of nothing. now you have laid
out the house and the world and the word, but you are in ignorance, you do
not know house or world or word, if you think house or world or word you
must begin again, laying out the five directions and so forth. now you
have come to an end and you are ready to begin, you have come to the
beginning, and you are ready to end. now continue.

you must imagine now yourself and house and world and word annihilated,
you must imagine annihilation of annihilation. you must imagine almost all
pleasure, among taste of delight and touch of exaltation, and among scent
of numinous being and sight of untold beauty and hearing of harmonious
sounds. now you must imagine another being joined to yourself and house
and world and word, you must imagine penetration reception and reception
penetration, you must imagine fullness and overflowing of delight. now you
will find you are creating and you are making sheave-woman and sheave-man,
you are sheave-woman and sheave-man, you have sheave-sight-and-sound, you
have sheave-touch-and-scent, you have sheave-taste-and-mind, you have
sheave-passion and sheave-ecstasy. now you will walk and remember, you
will remember everything, and you will speak and hear, see and taste, you
will forbid nothing, you will not be forbidden, you will rise above and
sink below, you will be among the direction of wounded and suffering. now
you will do this for a long time, for aeons.

now you will embrace emptiness, you are making sheave-other, you are
making sheave-emptiness, you are making wrath, are making creation, are
making annihilation. now you are making annihilation, now you are among
them, beneath them, above them, now you are beyond them. now you are no
longer imagining, you are no longer thinking among them, you are no longer
thinking, no longer sheave, no longer thought, now you are annihilation,
now you are making nothing, now you are annihilation, now you destroy
house and world and word, now you are destroyed, now you are annihilation,
you are free, you are emptiness, you are annihilation, you are emptiness,
now you are free.

Nikuko: Say everything.
Julu: Say nothing.
Nikuko: Say everything.
Julu: Say nothing.
Nikuko: Say everything.
Julu: Say nothing.
Nikuko: Say everything.
Julu: Say nothing.
Nikuko: Say everything.
Julu: Say nothing.
Nikuko: Say everything.
Julu: Say nothing.
Nikuko: Say everything.
Julu: Say nothing.
Nikuko: Say everything.
Julu: Say nothing.
Nikuko: Say everything.
Julu: Say nothing.
Nikuko: Say everything.
Julu: Say nothing.
Nikuko: Say everything.
Julu: Say nothing.
Nikuko: Say everything.
Julu: Say nothing.
Julu: Say Nikuko.
Nikuko: Say Everything.
Julu: Say Julu.
Julu: Say nothing.
Nikuko: Julu.

almost a sonnet -

Azure wakes up in the middle of the night, she says
she says, well I say, I'm getting up here in Denver,
there might be coyotes - I say, are you awake, feeling
a bit moronic with the possibility of an 'of course' -
she replies you have to get out of the way - I say, of
what - of the man with the cart - what man - the man
with the cart - I look, we're in a small room, surely,
if there were a man with a cart, I'd see him - well he
was behind the cart - but still - I look around, she's
awake now - I say where did he come from - she says
she says, from the closet - she says from the closet -
I can't sleep, it's 3am or 4am - I say, I'm getting up,
I rise like the dark sun of her dreams - she's sleeping
again, I dress in the dark, look out the window - no
coyotes to be seen, no man, no cart, no me, I walk down
the hall, open the laptop, write this, almost a sonnet -

2007-11-22T01:53:00.001-08:00

PLEASE NOTE:

My webpage is no longer http://www.asondheim.org but
http://www.alansondheim.org
Thank you.

2007-11-22T01:51:00.000-08:00

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Memory of a Walk

I walked last Wednesday night from the Modern Culture and Media building
at Brown University to the train station downtown. I took the 6:16 to New
York. It arrived around 9:50 at Penn Station. On the way I remembered the
walk. I followed myself step by step, reconstructing as I went along. This
was six days ago. Now again I remember.

What did you think you were doing?

Memory and reconstruction worries me. I wanted to follow myself. I didn't
think of this at the time, that is the time of the walk itself, but only
later. I conductor asked if I were a philosopher; I think I appeared deep
in thought. I wanted to remember as much as possible. Later, several times
in the past six days, I thought I would try and remember again, try to
write everything down. But I thought this would take too much effort; it
wasn't until now, Tuesday, that I've had the energy to proceed.

What did you take with you?

I'm clearing my belongings out of Leslie Thornton's office. This trip I
took, in addition to what I brought up, a Cambodian bowed instrument, a
pair of slippers, some extra toiletries, a white towel. The towel and a
plastic bag were wrapped around the instrument and inserted into a cloth
bag. It was damp out. I added a polka-dotted umbrella as well, in case I
needed it.

Where did you go?

I went down the stairs and out the front door. Susan and Ellen were in the
office talking. I didn't say anything to them. I walked out the door and
turned right.

What did you do then?

I walked to the corner. I thought about going straight down as usual, but
instead crossed the street. I began walking up a slight hill to the Brown
Quadrangle. I passed two people as I turned into the Quadrangle. I took a
diagonal left, which would leave me out between two libraries.

Wait, I remember crossing the first intersection. I think there was little
or no traffic.

Then?

Then I walked diagonally through the cold mist, almost but not quite a
rain. I went through the gates to the top of the street. I didn't notice
the sculpture on the left; usually I look at it. I crossed the street. I
was surprised there was no traffic. I thought that usually there was
traffic. I began the descent of the hill. I passed the location of the old
Brown Music Department, where I had played several times; I thought about
that. I didn't think about the arts building that replaced it. I went
straight down the hill. I arrived at Benefit Street.

At Benefit Street you had several choices. What did you decide here?

I crossed Benefit street; I believe there was some traffic, but I'm not
sure. I continued going down the hill. I passed a corner building and
looked in a window. I wondered whether the window was where my studio at
Rhode Island School of Design used to be. I thought again about the
accusation I had stolen equipment and wondered how S. could possibly think
that since I had no place to take it but the school itself. I looked in
other windows on the way down; they were studios. I think they might have
been drawing studios; I'm not sure. I reached the bottom of the hill.

Now you're into the city itself, or at least the outskirts of the city, by
Providence River. What did you do?

I crossed the intersection here. This one I remember being easy. I arrived
at the bank of the river, the bank nearest the hill. I thought that the
time before I had crossed and taken the other bank. I found that the river
split, and that I was thrown off-course, that I ended up guiding myself by
the Statehouse dome. This time I felt tired, and stayed on the nearer
bank. I looked into the water as I walked towards the train station; I
couldn't see anything. I reached the next corner.

Then there was traffic?

There was a lot of traffic. I ran across the street; I was almost hit. I
continued on the other side.

Did you press the button for the traffic signal?

I remember a button, but it might have been farther on. I didn't press it,
I think. Perhaps I did.

And then?

Then I continued walking. I think it was either this block or the next,
possibly the end of this block, still by the river, that I heard foot-
steps. Or possibly saw someone ahead of me. But I think it began with the
footsteps. At the next intersection.

We're then at another heavily trafficked one?

Yes, the footsteps belonged to a woman, I think possibly a student, carry-
ing a backpack or small suitcase of some sort. I didn't see her full-on; I
couldn't identify her, but thought she might be blond.

What happened?

She had crossed the street and I crossed as well, somewhat behind her.
This was the second time I was almost hit; I wanted to make the light,
since the signals were long.

And then?

The road curved up ahead. Wait, there was a four-way stop intersection.
She continued up the curve on the left. I walked part of the way across
the bridge, crossing the Providence River. I stopped and looked down in
the water. I was looking for the herring or shad family fish I had seen
there before, in large schools. It was dark out; I looked for ripples in
the water. The week before I was guided by ripples. This time there were
none. I couldn't remember the name of the fish, something like mulhagen; I
still can't remember. I was frustrated, worried that I couldn't remember.

After looking in the water for a while?

I crossed the street. There was hardly any traffic. I looked up ahead to
see if the student was heading to the train station. I thought I saw her;
I couldn't be sure. I stopped on the other side of the street, which was
the other side of the bridge. I looked again down at the black water; I
was looking for the fish on the other side. Most of the time I had seen
them on this, the other side. This time again there was nothing, no
ripples, at least none visible. But wait.

Wait?

On the first, left-hand side of the bridge, I saw a leaf in the water; it
was large, and looked like one of the fish on its side; I wondered if it
was in fact one that was dying. When I looked on the other, right-hand
side of the bridge, I saw several more, and it was clear that they were
leaves, slowly going down the river.

Which way were they going?

I'm not sure; the river flowed slowly, but I believe from the right-hand
side to the left-hand side and beyond.

And then?

Then I began walking up the hill towards the train station. I had again to
go out into the street because the sidewalk was partly closed due to
construction. I walked past a number of parked cars on the right, in this
fashion. I noticed the construction was coming along, and remembered
hearing that apartments were to be built here. As I walked up the hill I
walked over a recently-asphalted entrance to the construction site, or
near the entrance. I wondered why the asphalt had been poured; it could
only be temporary and didn't seem to serve any purpose. I continued up the
sidewalk.

Did you see any birds?

No, often in the daytime, particularly in the spring, I had seen birds
around the site and in the trees directly to the left of the train
station. But this time there was nothing. I looked down into the huge
excavation beyond the immediate construction and noticed for the second
time, the train platform, I think it was the platform for the number 1 and
2 tracks, jutting out into it. The platform looked oddly spacious and
beautiful in the dark. I continued walking past the trees.

This was near the taxicab stand?

This went directly past the taxi stand. I saw a number of drivers standing
around; they were speaking a language I didn't understand. At first I
thought, this might be Pakistani, but then I thought Italian; I couldn't
hear well enough. The drivers all seemed to know one another. I wondered
what would happen if a new driver came along, who didn't speak the
language - would he or she be accepted in the group? Would the group, on
occasion, speak English to him or her? Would the driver be ignored? This
went on only for an instant. I reached the station doors and went in.

Just went in?

I remember looking at my cellphone on the way, at least twice, checking on
the time. I was early as usual; I think I arrived at 5:34, for the 6:16,
but I'm not sure. I was hungry.

How long did the walk take?

I think it took about twenty-one minutes, but I couldn't be sure. If I had
gone directly, it would have taken between seventeen and eighteen.

You were hungry? Were you hungry the whole time?

I was hungry the whole time; I had only breakfast at Louie's, a #1 with
orange juice extra, I think, beforehand. I was going to drink some Red
Bull to keep me going through the day, but had a large coffee with skim
milk instead; the Red Bull is still in the office.

So what did you do?

I went to the small cafe inside the train station. The man who served me
wasn't there; the woman was. I had often wondered about their relation-
ship; they seemed tight. I ordered, I think, something with apricot; I'm
not sure. I do remember eating it without getting sticky; I didn't have to
wash my hands afterwards.

And this whole time you were carrying both your camera bag with various
things you had brought with you, as well as the cloth bag contraption with
the Cambodian instrument and other things?

Yes. I believe I also took back a copy of The Structure of Reality with me
on this trip. I had a copy of Claire's demo DVD, since I'm writing a
recommendation for her. I remember I didn't change clothes; the clean ones
were still in the bag. I had some trail mix left over from the ride up. I
didn't want to order anything on the train.

And you were reading?

Yes, I had books with me, but I'm not sure I remember them. I definitely
had Jane Austen's Northanger Abbey, which I had read; now I wanted to
finish Sanditon which was in the same Penguin volume, which of course I
did. And I had a copy of David Hume's Enquiry with me as well; I had been
reading about miracles. But I think there might have been a third book.
The week before I had carried a relatively medieval history of the tantric
schools of Tibet, but I don't think I had it with me this time.

What else were you carrying?

Other than the usual identifications, I had a small Olympus solid-state
recorder for notes. I didn't use it - I had been hoping to. The camera bag
was somewhat heavy of course. Another item - a small power supply for the
phone.

Do you remember going down the stairs from the office?

Not very well. I do remember having to negotiate the stairs because of the
awkwardness of the instrument package. Once outside, things were easy. I
had been afraid of rain; the skies were threatening all day. But as I
said, there was none, or rather just a light misting, slightly, nothing
more.

Money?

I had taken sixty dollars with me, but had spent very little. I spent
nothing on the train on the way up, so I had all of that. I spent little
there, and little on the train. I had walked down to Wickenden or
Wickendon street to go to an antique shop; I was hoping to find some
useful books, but nothing seemed promising. So I had most of the money
with me of course. I also had four rolls of unused Tri-X and Plus-X (the
new Plus-X) 16mm movie film to shoot in the winter and spring. And on the
way up I had brought a mini-DV tape for transferring the second roll I had
shot, but the roll wasn't back and the tape stayed in the office.

Anything else?

Some recommendation forms from Claire; I had to fill these out. I was
afraid they would get bent. I put them between the pages of something else
I was carrying back - I don't remember, a pamphlet of some sort.

Were you tired when you walked down to the train station?

I was extremely tired; I had hardly slept the night before - I coughed a
lot, there were sounds around, etc. I should add I sleep in the office to
save money; there's a futon. So I was glad that the air was bracing. I
went down to the train platform itself - #1 as usual - at 6:04 - I
remember looking at the clock - because it was open to the air and would
wake me up. I walked down; I haven't taken the elevator for a long time. I
noticed that the construction inside the station was down for the first
time - there were new escalators installed, but the one for track #1 only
went up.

Anything else?

Only that I remembered, as I approached the station, that I would be too
tired, and it would be too late, to go to the Border's bookshop in the
nearby mall. When I went into the station, I wouldn't come out again, at
least until the train I boarded left, which it did, two minutes late.

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The Muralist

The muralist has one good idea, something he repeats over and over again.
The muralist is an expert portraitist, avatartist.
It has been said (of him), He paints the same woman again and again.
It has been said, It is the result of an unhappy love affair.
Of the muralist: His pallet is limited, his technique sure.
Of the name of the woman: Jennifer.
Of her surname: Unknown.
The one good idea of the muralist is transcendent.
It is said (of him), Everything is contained in these portraits.
It is said, As with Being, so with the Portrait of the muralist.
The muralist paints the eyes mysteriously, they follow you.
The muralist uses techniques found in primordial drawings and caves.
No one possesses the woman of the Portrait.
It is said, the woman of the Portrait is Woman, is infinite.
(It is suggested she is a woman of the sheaves.)
(It is suggested she contains others, who contain her.)
The muralist is considered mad, obsessed, compulsive.
It has been said (of him) that his skill comes from bewitchment.
It has been said that Jennifer paints the Portrait over and over again.
Of the muralist: That he is a woman, that he is Jennifer.
Of the muralist: That he has no skill, that he is doomed to repetition.
It has been said: Jennifer is the result of an unhappy love affair.
(It is suggested she is his daughter.)
(It is suggested she is a daughter who died at birth.)
(It is suggested she is the mother of a daughter who died.)
Of the muralist: That he understands women, he understands Jennifer.
Of the Portrait: That Jennifer speaks, that Jennifer speaks through him.
The muralist repeats herself (it is whispered).
She has had one good idea (it is whispered and whispered).
That she paints and paints (the result of an unhappy love affair).
(It is whispered. It is murmured. It is said.)

http://www.alansondheim.org/Portrait.mov

2007-10-09T22:14:00.001-07:00

images by azure carter (most likely)

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digital. The great importance of 's writings is to treat the
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only in digital form. There are only analog-simulacra. 's
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these will not reduce the confusion. This is not to say that
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some level. More simply, writes from a belief in the world. The
Secondly, 's writing is syncopated in the way it differentiates
by explaining that ``by digital I mean discrete,'' ties thinking
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digital and analog. This is 's concern throughout, but it is most
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making sense. offers some clues or lures for the reader. Perhaps
super-ego, suggests, followed by the introduction of numbers and
libidinal. To say that 's writing exhausts the problematic of the
through.'' 's work on the analog and digital works on itself. What
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technologies. explains the digital as the result of setting up a
possibility of accumulation. Finally, 's raster and protocol are
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environment. For , the implication was subjectivity in relation to
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immense importance. The style and content of the work is radical.
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and virtual subjectivity. While interacting with 's ebook of
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Introduction: Codework

Weisses usually in Massachusetts. In contrast, the side of the
deep; I had felt close to the Weiss, not the , side of the family.
lives in another world, just like our own.
saw the world was his.
would listen to you speaking and would
listen to listening to you speaking.
knew that the world was doubled.
would watch it burst, but it would burst
was not joined at the horizon.
and then the world. would hardly hear
For my mother, Evelyn Weiss
: This is fascinating - I'm always curious how many of
:
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: But Im not in bold now -are you? There's no bold at
: Well, I've got the URL up - yes, it's difficult, you
: Why don't you start with questions and we'll see where
: It's odd because those seem like different operations
: Well, what gets rid of the "I self Me" - which is
: The protocols reference code and the breakdown of
: and it's between code and its breakdown that I'm
: which is partly interpretable in a classical sense
: She disappeared a while ago; I didn't want to write
: The space-between code - what underlies writing here
: I started calling this 'codework' which has taken on a
: So the subtext so to speak ruptures the text which
: As if the bones of the tomb of writing were made
: - as if the bones had some sort of presence in the
: So that the writing in a way is 'lurid' - cutting
: As in the 'Anita Berber' pieces that I've put up at
: Mistakes in print, and in the traditional Tanach, five
: There's the "skeleton" of a piece of writing - which
: which gives you a huge list of synonyms. The first
: Which is a kind of overflowing of synonyms, burying
: and there's a parallel with Berber's life here, at
: This isn't my 'best' tabla work, but I thought it
: I wonder what happened; I'm always afraid of clicking
: The first bit - the short bit - is a
: There are better tabla pieces here! I think something
: Think of the rest as both an expansion and a
: in so many directions that nothing
: It a strange interface with a mysterious life of its
: two bits in that sentence will get you a quarter (bad
: yes, but you might want to ask away here? When I enter
displayed the following
: There are so many terms - I mentioned 'codework'
: which just about close everything down in a classical
: If you think of say Lautreamont - what he was doing
: But if had to attent a conference on his own work,
: What I've put up here - and you do have to shuttle
: There's also a few code snippets (most of which I've
: I tend to write in Unix or Linux - I've been doing
: which allows me to use all sorts of sophisticated text
: Just briefly - the first is Normal, then 'Back" takes
: Punched Cards is another linux program that turns
: Eliminate which was written by Florian Cramer for me
: Elimx is one I wrote from Florian's that makes a mess
: Cramer made a program that eliminates duplicate
: The program is above. It counts different words for
: The "mathesis" program I love - Jim Reith wrote it for
: You can enter a mathematical function (the very first
: GoogleScrape - is just using the Google program (API
: It's just a more sophisticated way of using google
: Then there's the "Simple perl program results" - which
: Yes of course, that would be a lot better than this
: Yes to both, that was also a while ago. Shinto
: Not so much; I've been very moved by Red Pine's
: because I can't get myself "around it" - which is
: On the other hand, I could never 'submit' to Zen or to
: and am alienated by, say, Mishima, by whale-hunting,
: The one book that stays with me, now, is the Flower
: These are openings for me, and the sutra is
: By the way (while waiting) the Yipes! text is made
: And the "Using Chat" was made by recording one of
: Ah I see - for me in relation to D Turner's second
: about Youtube and so forth - the work skitters among
: I also work with dancers in Geneva, Switzerland, and
: Yes, the meaning shifts in each context, but the
: Edting in relation to suprlus - that depends on what
: but I prefer also to work on an idea, get through with
: Code and text interact for me; sometimes the structure
: When I'm working with software (I work at the Virtual
: to some sort of limit - seeing what happens at the
: Text-based work allows me to think the
: I write a great deal of theory, and it's so easy to
: Sometimes it matters, most of the time it doesn't - if
: whether or not one understands it fully. There are
: I did some work in visual basic (you can download the
: Exactly like lace, and just as
: It makes it seem as if the world is both obdurate,
: I think of Jacques Lacan in this regard - reading his
: There are also political concerns here - trying to
: Which effects in the films? And you should sometime
: There are avatars that are constructed from motion
: and images from laser scanning equipment (big
: I'm not sure which this is! I think that's the
: The Wolf piece - that's using motion capture and
: Yes, Bellmer fascinates me, but thenI worry - in my
: It's separate, it's faster than Max I think - the
: A lot of teen-age boys make 'ideal' girlfriends with
: I think my work walks an edge of being lurid and
: I do think at least in the US these images are the
: There was a book years ago which talked about Jewish
: culture as breaking down the 'etiquette' of middle or
: for example Freud scraping at the psyche, Marx at
: And these people were - again perhaps like codework
: partially-assimilated Jews, but not 'really'
: This is obviously a gross over-simplification but it
: You have the same thing, say, in the blues, with
: When I'm surprised by the result, it's a success, no
: when I know 'what I'm doing' - it may well be a
: I coined the term 'defuge' to reference those moments
: for example when you try to read a novel several
: The same thing happens with pornography, but that's
: - if pornography were 'ideal' - one image would do it
: In sports it's another related issue - one wants one's
: So there's a kind of disinvestment at work here, and
: I think it depends. I haven't been thrown out of
: I also cross-post a lot which bothers
: The sexual content of some of the work bothers
: And at my end I have little patience for what I think
: I don't know, some tame, some not tame - it depends on
: "don't I think" - I'm not sure where this typo was
: With my work? Just to be able to keep doing it. And
: I'm terrible at programming, okay with borrowing or
: I want to explore more 'body-avatar' issues in Second
: for me, at least the aesthetics of
: Well, she may return, but there are other things -
: I don't thin I need an editor but I might have
: In fact some of the work they do is imitating avatars
: When you getto something like the Wolf,
: I have no dance background, but I work with a dancer
: That's his choreography from the avatar tapes
: We tend to inspire each other. I can't do much
: I agree re: Butoh, I haven't, but would like to work
: Or I'm the material for the dancers; it's really back
: At times I'm not sure who is doing what with whom or
: I can stay for a few more minutes if there are any
: Oh someone asked why the webpage is a
: That's the simplest way I can present the materials;
: The Trace materials are different - they were done
: There are six left; before I leave, are there any
: I'll sign out then and thank you and thank you
: No problem; I'm about to sign out unless there's a
: I'll be on the discussion board later this
: Kate, please send the recording if you
: Thank you as well - I'm constantly worrying about the
, Written on some Body
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Pardon me for interrupting, but are you the on the Poetics
, lists, there is a certain consistency, there is a certain
ici, you are here, you are really here, trans. .
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: And because the worlds were beyond worlds, because of this,
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I think 4 aspects - psychoanalytics, avatar-skin, medical modeling, AI
communality/behavior/sociality - to be considered.

Well: Avatar-skin: surface of being human which is always a fiction; there
is no exacting boundary where body ends and environment begins (think of
breath, other processes). So this is splines, Bezier curves, NURBs, early
polygon work, etc. now automated by Poser etc. Avatar-skin also applies to
audio (later touch, scent, taste, etc.) - everything perceived from one
human or other organism to another.

Well: AI communality/behavior/sociality: the internally-automated behavior
of the avatar-skin; think of this as diachronic avatar, and avatar-skin as
synchronic; each moves through the other. With AI, avatar is somewhat
spread across the social; communication and communality extend the opaque
body (metaphorically) into the translucent.
Fundamental rules of the 'game' tending towards description.

Well: Medical modeling: Both diachronic and synchronic, the projected/
introjected organs of the avatar-skin, always on the level of a model,
i.e. a beating heart is fabricated on a subtextual level again from poly-
gons, curves, splines, etc. The ontology is different as long as one
remains within the realm of computational modeling. (One might say that
_inscription_ in the real is paralleled by _fissure_ in the virtual.)
Medical modeling is fundamental description tending towards explanation.

Well: Psychoanalytics: Here is where the following have to be taken into
account:
1. The abject: epistemological/ontological/inscriptive 'smears' across
domains. Corrosive and irreducible to the other categories.
2. Introjection/projection ('jectivity') - formation of internalized
images from virtual to real.
3. Obscenity and interjections: Breakdowns of communication within
communication.
Psychoanalytics are not susceptible to mathesis beyond topology.
(Level of the metaphoric: No verification procedures.)

But of course all of this is rough, not exactly accurate; ontology and
epistemology, various branches and techniques of mathematics, can be
thrown around heedlessly. Still I'd want to begin from the four aspects
described here: body/surface, psychoanalytics/'mind', AI/habitus, and
medical/observation-experimentation. One would have to further consider
the role of apparatus, observation, observer, in all of this.

One final note - the concern - that, with formal and informal modeling
systems of organisms/physics/mathematics: How is consciousness in
relation? In other words, _what are the effects on the reader/programmer/
experimenter? How do these relate to abjection and jectivity if at all?

Notes from the Structure of Reality

In my Structure of Reality (which is under review), there are three funda-
mental layers to what I call the 'topology of intention'; these are of
interest since they critique any structuring, conscious or unconscious,
'like a language.' The layers are the real, interpretation, and language;
there is a 'zone' between the real and interpretation, and mappings all
across the layers. The real is knowable through interpretation which does
not presuppose language (syntactics, sememe); the mappings are tight, how-
ever, between interpretation and language. One might think of this as a
pre-linguistic representation without the thwarting embodiment of lan-
guage. You can see this at work when the 'unnamed' of the real skews into
anomaly - in other words, when anomaly appears without the aegis of lang-
uage. Consider for example something falling without the presence of an
ostensible object; the 'something falling' might be construed as such by a
thud or less-interpretable sound. Repeat this enough and a name is gener-
ated; if it remains on the level of a singularity or the anecdote, it
might be quickly forgotten - except for the possibility of a marker of
some sort, for example, a recording.

Heinz von Foerster: "Since nothing in the environment corresponds to
negation, negation as well as all other 'logical particles' (inclusion,
alternation, implication, etc.) must arise within the organism as a
consequence of perceiving the relation of itself with respect to its
environment." (From "Thoughts and Notes on Cognition.") SoR p. 69

Cyclical chains sailing past O and I - maybe modeling through the tangent
function. Is the repetition assumed to be 'complete'? A cyclical chain is
a loop with any number of nodes; think of one as nul, O, and another or
the same as universal, I. Then circle. What happens? One moves from 0
through infinity perhaps then back again. The simplest equation here:
tangent. Each revolution is marked perhaps by sliding along the x-axis:
equivalent but not identical graphs. And so we're there. We can visit as
many times as we like.

Does distributivity really fail w gesture? (The old Land experiments in
color vision as well as a structural analysis of gesture seem to imply
that distributivity in Aristotelian logic fails in daily life - which
further implies the potential for superimposition as the basis for a logic
of gesture.)

The thinness of language - ontologically existing on the level of the
sheave - language carries no weight at all. From within the avatar, the
sheaves, surfaces, have zero-width, one-pixel width, nul-width, as 2d
mathematical manifolds embedded within 3d space; they've all got the same
measure as the continuum, but zero volume in the embedding space - like-
wise language has zero volume.

Language, speaking, is always frustrated, flustered. It can't get around
things. Meaning: One can't get around things through language, not even
through performatives (which indicate real-material embodiment elsewhere).

Meditation medication goes nowhere.

Aristotle's Problems - sexual problems related to fluidity, abjection, in
part iv - numbers pp 327-328, Loeb edition. The beginning of the fifteenth
book is of great interest - he describes number systems with different
bases which is fascinating given the apparent absence of zero.

Conservancy of the Problems, Bacon of all people working through them
almost two thousand years later; not that much had changed. The Problems
are on the level of the anecdote - curiosity cabinet, wonders - same as
any fundamentalist text - wonder upon wonder without internalized
structure or subtext - everything is new, raw, unrelated. Or causality is
pushed back into categories which are taken for granted, even though, like
heat or air, they're composite.

What is meant by modeling? Think of a 'world-particle' W whose scope is
anything, process, etc.: W( ... ). what does that tell us? What are the
processes of narrowing the scope, increasing the information - in other
words filtering?

Along these lines, modeling is always a filtering.

Four negations: annihilation, -x s.t. --x > x; 'chain negation' s.t. -x >
y; -y > z or whatever; combinations of these; negative of the 'set-aside'
- form of retrievable absence.

States and nodes of graphs represented/mapped into states and nodes of
graphs - this includes the possibility of 'foreign' graphs which are
disruptive. The whole becomes an excursion into description rather than
explanation, which is seen as a subset.

There should be limited copies of the Structure of Reality online/offline
- dates from 1977, I wasn't a child.

SL - theoretical approaches

Second Life behaviors come as animations which may eventually go down to
the frame, but are packages in any case. There is a relation with older
silent film and melodrama patterns - what have been dubbed histrionic
gestures. A good text here is Bharata's Natyasastra, which discusses,
among other things, rasa and pattern presentations. Patterns are used as
generators of audience psychological response. The text not only considers
patterns independently, but as group structures.

Second Life bodies touch on the abject, but don't 'enter' within it; there
are issues of purity and corruption. Buddhaghosa's Visuddhimagga, Path to
Purity, is extremely important in this regard, especially in relation to
illusion and suffering. There are also kasinas which are may be related to
landscape 'focal points' in SL. A second important text is the Hevajra-
tantra with its multiple bodies; it might be worth looking at the works of
Tsong Ka-Pa in this regard as well. (Again, Kristeva's Powers of Horror,
Lingis, Mary Douglas, all come to mind.)

In terms of ontology, Nagarjuna's Mulamadhyamakakarika, The Fundamental
Wisdom of the Middle Way, is critical, given its analysis of dependent
(co)-origination ad emptiness. This correlates almost too neatly with the
ontology and epistemology of protocols on one hand and the abject body on
the other. Dependent (co)-origination can also be related to Indra's Net
and the relation of the Net to the Internet as a collocation of nodes, at
least on an epistemological level.

One might ask what is the ontology of SL from _within_ protocols - and
whether such a question makes any sense at all.

To self-active an SL avatar - use the screen itself as vision, motion-
detection across the image - feed this into AI neural networks - output
back into SL through encoded behaviors. Note the ontological and epis-
temological shifts involved: from digital readout through analog screen
(2D) interpretation.

Finally there are the old MOOs - MUDs-object-oriented, where MUDs stood
for multi-user-dungeon (or some such - out of the old D&D gaming). MOOs
are text-only virtual realities, somewhat similar to SL. One of the
biggest differences: MOOs are open-source and can easily be set up on any
linux/unix box. Now MOOs (like SL) have a system of unique identification
tags for every object, player, etc., and this is hierarchical (much like
unix itself, with the root / ). Explore the earliest numbers (which re-
flect the sysadmins, wizards, MOO structure as a whole. Remap through
dependent (co)-origination. (It should be noted that the Sharp Zaurus,
which runs on embedded but easily terminal-accessible linux, has a file
structure which 'resonates' with itself - one can literally go in circles
through it. How can one think through these dependencies, proxies, etc.?)
This might be a way of clarifying the philosophical issues - for example,
one might think of both absolute and relative ontologies (much like URLs)
- and then how the former maps onto the latter, or how all of this dis-
appears. (Just as things disappear, mathematical objects appear to appear.
So problems related to SL and avatars: the mapping of protocols, networks
in relation to the visual; to mathesis and abstract ontologies; and to
hardware implementations: static (ROM or storage where configuration is
mapped thing that is read as virtual thing), and dynamic (where transmis-
sion dynamics, ontologies, and economies are paramount).

i'm sick of swallowing

in my own adulterated view, defuge is connected with the hunt as well,
with the ravishment and devouring of the other, with propitiation.

oh i'm so tired having taken you and reduced you to nothing, oh such tired
and you're nothing to me, not even flesh, not even a smear on the carpet,
once ravished, you're all over, what the fuck

i hunt and one of you is not enough; my cock hunts you down. lucky me i
got a gun. lucky me you don't.

kill me, i'm bored.

interest in, and may hunt at his pleasure; where besides the pleasure in
and as I hunt the world of storm, I fear for your safety and my own. In
in my own adulterated view, defuge is connected with the hunt as well,
through the message bases, in the form of a hunt or retrieval: recupera-
that it produced language, just as the hunt did. That the repetitive bab-
then i hunt for something stronger than pills
from the hunt and the preparation of ancient flesh.
constituted, constructed, as the humans on the hunt - no more or less. i
kill all priest. worry lama. hunt rabbi. kill shaman. kill all grand
my own adulterated view, defuge is connected with the hunt as well, (and
the man on the hunt for the rabbit. The man-dog is preyer; the rabbit is
while there's no stopping humans from the hunt -
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vinegar, the wine! Seize the hand, hunt with it, angle it upward! Mend
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bloody is is bloody now for weemails is should with machette. hunt that
now murder scream with scream them for murder with them hunt But just
bloody But with now play play machette. hunt for nowand approach murder
practice. i hunt on the internet. i shape ride on the internet. i speak
You can hunt anywhere, you can hunt online. Ghosts are here, their images

you can't smash them. i want to sleep. kill me, i'm bored.

identity self hunt economy dyad eat wife-force co-

o god ravish me isn't the same as oh god ravish me. i can't tell the
difference. eating flesh helps for a while. fuck you i'll code your flesh
i'll stamp it out. there's this odd calm after the hunt but then it turns
to slaughter. breathing heavy it's a sign. don't wait to breathe heavy.

To code is not to produce codework; it is to produce code on the level of
the code or interface. Bridged code, embedded code, is not codework; the
irreversible spew of cellular automata is codework, all the better if the
rules are noisy. The cultural production of codework abjures
intensifications, strange attractors, descriptions such as this (which is
the oldest game in the book). The hunt and reception of short-wave number
codes is codework. Writers on the edge are circumscribed by codework,
malfunctioned psychoanalytics, scatologies endlessly coded and decoded;
the codes are dissolute, partial, always already incomplete: the differend
is codework.

If I were a different species
I'd be me
I'd still be me

If I were a smelly goose-pickle
I'd be me
I'd still be me

If I were a protein shop
I'd be me
I'd still be me

If I were a blue kasina
I'd be me
I'd still be me

I'm am me
I'm still am me

I photographed these flying saucers (there seem to be two types??) over
Clarksburg, West Virginia, in the north-central sector of the state. A
slight amount of detail is visible. Clarksburg is known as the hometown of
Gray Barker, who was first visited by "the men in black" - he was also the
first to write about this top-secret government organization. The saucers
were silent, propelled by a new kind of drives which relies on elements
and physical principles unknown to modern science.

I photographed these wooden and plaster models (there were two types) as
they were thrown vertically in Clarksburg, West Virginia. These were made
by Barker himself and were a prototype for many of the flying saucer ima-
ges from the 1950s-60s. Barker created the concept of "the men in black,"
as well as secret letters purported to originate with the US government,
which encouraged the saucerian movement.

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ay summed other miracle of life

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flying saucers clearly visible over clarksburg west virginia, i saw these with my own eyes, some sort of magnetoroidal drive definitely visible

2007-09-01T00:39:00.000-07:00

days of wine and eclipse but something else was in the air
i keep getting caught in ontology

following from around 1994

DEATH ON THE NET

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no answer from jefferson.village.virginia.edu

Packets spew into the space, absent themselves past any conceivable
timeout. Traceroute exhausts itself flailing uselessly at the doorway to
eternal hell, damnation of black-hole event horizon where bytes transform
into noise, heat, the far side of the chaotic domain. The bell tolls for
Thomas Jefferson who, refusing enlightenment, does not accommodate this
dark date in Cyberspace, this December of Cybermurder,
tinymurder, which shall be forgotten forever and ever.

Beforehand, there was mail-collapse, waves of temp files, waves of
exiting processes, long languorous waves-becoming-membrane, almost the
fluidity of space itself, wash-down of the wires, supplement of the
signifier. But not quite, as the gag covered the mouth, the machine was
raped, stuffed with anonymity, empty dark messagings, the gristle showing
through. If you read this, if it arrives, you're shape-riding, riding the
gristle, going for it; if you read this, there hasn't been a
resurrection, you're just not part of the chaos, destruction, tinymurders
and o lucky you.

oh this is just the older stuff that appears every now and then
you can find it just about the same time you can find other things
at the a.txt when you look past the Net.txts of various sorts

How to take the damn video out, it wouldn't render over ten hours.

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b.c. a.d.

Analogical, used by way of analogy
Analogically, in an analogical manner
Analogicalness, the quality of being analogical
Analogize, to explain by way of analogy
Analogous, having analogy
Analogy, resemblance between things

Digit, three fourths of an inch, the twelfth part of the diameter
of the sun or moon; an number expressed by a single figure
Digitated, branched out into divisions like fingers

Electre, a mixed metal
Electrical, Electrick, attractive without magnetism
Electricity, a property in bodies, wherebye, when rubbed, they
draw substances, and emit fire

(Walker's Critical Pronouncing Dictionary, 1823)

Yes, yes, of course.

I am God and when I die God is dead.

(There's little time left to speak to Me.)
(I'm not leaving a forwarding address.)
(Come to think of it.)
(Offerings don't count.)
(Pretty much anything you have to say.)
(Thank you for listening.)

Our Wonderful Picture of the Month!

What happens when the image of a text becomes the archaeology of the text
itself? Let's find out in this wonderful image by Alan Sondheim. He says:
"I took this with a Canon 630 set on flash and automatic. The image is a
shelf in my local bookstore, full of works connected with "theory" and
other intellectual pursuits. But everyone knows that books like knowledge,
decay, and I thought, how can I hasten the process? I experimented with
many filters and pencil bandwidths, finally settling on an ideal transfor-
mation, in which a few of the titles like Doubt are just barely visible. I
hope to continue in this vein; the best thing about digital photography is
that no one needs to see your failures, and there are so many successes!
I'd advise anyone to just keep their eyes open, to shoot what they know,
and to shoot as many images as possible. You'll find that one golden one
in the mountain of dross, but it's always worth waiting for. And with
digital, you can just shoot and shoot and shoot! It costs almost nothing
to make mistakes, but takes a great deal of editing and creative energy to
find that one perfect image, the one that dreams are made of." We are sure
that Alan will continue to make these "perfect images," and we will all
enjoy them. This is a far cry from our Sunset Composition we began with,
just a few months ago! http://www.asondheim.org/thelatest.jpg

Subject: Stress Fracture

View

This is the view from my desk which is neither in Paris nor the Black
Forest; it faces nothing but bleak development, projects, urban wasteland
scheduled for drastic over-development, still opposed by Develop Don't
Destroy Brooklyn (DDDB) in what is increasingly appearing to be a losing
battle. How can one expect literature from such blight, nature pushed out
to the limit, pigeons with missing toes resulting from frostbite, squir-
rels huddled in backyards along with jays and almost invisible mourning
doves? Everything protects itself; humans are the dominant species and
everything, including other humans, is prey.

So don't can't expect literature, only theory crippled by screams and auto
accidents; you can't expect proper grammar and spelling - those literary
matters - in the face of screeching cars and sirens.

http://www.asondheim.org/windowview.jpg

Uselessness of Monoculture

I will call 'monoculture' anything before the advent of the Internet - in
particular artworks, literature, theater, dance, etc. etc. This culture is
characterized by the singular; even when dispersive anatomies are present,
they are always in opposition or subtext to traditional thought. The mono-
lith is always present and accounted-for. The monolith is either station-
ary or process- movement- oriented, always static or dynamic; its elements
cohere, separate, are born to die, to be reborn again. This is the culture
of the traditional university but it is also urban culture, street-corner
culture; it is the culture of history and historiography, of the encyclo-
pedia and the expert and think-tank. Monoculture resolves, whether towards
resolution or irresolution; it is possessed by narratological impulse, by
development and the compass. Monoculture is not necessarily unary; there
is multiplicity and the nomadic, beneath the stars, within it. Monoculture
blinds us to the world; it is the World that is all the case. It is the
culture of gas, liquid, solid, electrostatics, electrodynamics, special
and general relativity; it is the substance of quantum mechanics insofar
as action may be defined as action or verification at a distance. In sum,
it is our sum, our summation, our accountancy of the world and of our-
selves, and it is useless, as the result of an Internet that is neither
singular nor plural, neither present nor absent, neither coherent nor dis-
persed; I will call 'Internet' what has corrupted monoculture, tended
towards its demise. I am not implying that 'Internet' in fact or fiction
signifies anything, that the name means; it may, in fact or fiction, be
characterized imprecisely by insigification, spews, abjections, blurs,
avatars, nothing at all.

For the change that has come about within and without the tangled skein,
holarchy of networkings, is of the plasma or swarm; it is Wolfram's
science, not Hertz's. Thinking through social sites, collaborative facting
and fictioning, wikipediatry, avatars of avatars, bots and phishing, what
comes clear is lack of clarity, lack of clarity's epistemology. This is a
fundamental transform to the extent that anything is fundamental at this
point; it sweeps away, for example, plots and allegories, bureaucracies
and governments, minds and bodies. Think of pre-Internet novels - novels
of modernism or post-modernism, of constructed and conceptual weavings, of
characters or lack of them. And television, theater, cinema, follow suit;
one is locked into farther time, father time, to diegesis, to an unravel-
ing that characterizes experimental film as well. Neither film nor paint-
ing are linear, but both participate in a locking-down of perspective, no
matter what openings, contusions, are on the horizon.

Lacan, Gardner, even Bateson presaged multiplicities; in Wolfram the swarm
is simultaneously organized and disorganized. Lacan never went far enough;
there was that reliance on language, no matter how shifted. It comes down
to this: When I read a novel, I don't recognize myself, the 'times,' any-
thing. When I watch a show on television, there are actors, people, or
animated actors. They're moving through familiar antiquated monolithic
space, proscenium or deep space - it makes no difference; there's always a
perspective. Perspective invades novels, stories, the world of monolithic
writing - on the other hand, try assigning a vanishing-point to MySpace or
even Facebook. Even Second Life, which tends towards classical perspec-
tive, falls apart on the edges where the simulacrum of physics is turned,
churned upside-down. One doesn't recognize (oneself or others) in Second
Life because recognition is already a problem; everything moves within the
aegis of Bell's theorem.

Consider photographic apparatus: begin with camera obscura, that one-to-
one allegory of the real - through Daguerre, view cameras, stationary then
moving then Edgerton. Cameras dissolve into swarming components; now com-
ponents themselves disappear as cameras transform into light-sensitive
holarchies, networked or independent, under whose or what control? The
image ends up everywhere and nowhere at all; no longer is it allegory -
which has long since disappeared - but the stuttering of the fragment
which no longer is in need of suture or extension. You can watch family
trauma, physical and mental abuse, on the morning talk shows, but whose
families? whose abuse? whose perspective? It doesn't need to end up on
YouTube; YouTube provides its own violence, its own parameters of liter-
ally unfathomable streams. Videos are removed if found, if from copy-
righted material; everything gets through, leaks. But leaks from nothing -
the culture, non-monolithic, Internetted, leaks without transmitters,
receivers, leaks without channels, or leaks from traditional channels,
only to be churned back, lost in brackish protocol.

Code, programs, codes, protocols, reference one another, are increasingly
open-sourceless; scratch the surface and no one's there, nor beneath the
surface - all those dead-ending projects on SourceForge ending up maybe
somewhere else, maybe vaporware, the languor of the name. Languages embed
languages; soon they'll be without physical foundation for all intents and
purposes, perfectly floating signifiers shattering against subroutines and
useful or useless misuses. (The world doesn't end either with a bang or
with a whimper; there is no world to end.)

This confusion is on the ground as well - in some places, Harry Potter
really is a witch; children suffer as a result. It doesn't take electron-
ics; it takes nothing more than extinctions, overpopulation, global cli-
mate change, weapon distribution, religious fanaticisms, starvation,
desertification - the unsupportive world. Radiations swirl around the
farthest villages; there are unheard broadcasts, music, news, exhortations
to the perfect religious life, promises of vacated paradises. These places
or spaces are the future of the novel; language dissolves without signifi-
ers, without that place where the sememe holds, however tenuously. It's
here that home is found, in the bombing of the home, categorization of
flora and fauna, ethnic cleansing. Online real explosions transform into
hacking, thousands, millions, of MySpace friends, hundreds of millions of
blogs, billions of Wikipedia pages hardly ever under contestation. Yes,
it's all true. Yes, none of it is.

Monolithic culture prepared the battlefield inhabited only by the wounded.
Monolithic culture developed the technology of multiplicity and the plasma
- a multiplicity of multiplicities, never stationary enough for analysis,
never moving enough for a coherent dynamics to emerge. It's a memory to an
extent, to the extent that memory is encapsulated in fast-forward media
already forgetting what was loosened in the habitus.

This is all electronic, all colonial, all nanobot, this isn't your fath-
er's monoculture, your mother's multiplicity, your father's multiplicity,
your mother's monoculture. Capital seeps everywhere as do heat and water;
island nations are disappearing in the Pacific, Atlantic not far behind.
Think of this as the anxiety of diminishing power; surely, not only is the
world out of control, but control is as well. What happens to feedback in
chaotic domains? One likes to think fecundity, fractal, but in the real
this holds only so long before 'things' bottom out in rust and tumors.
Monoculture is always waiting in the wings; as networks decay and data-
bases turn useless, big iron will descend upon the world. But this is far
in the future, a future so defined that no one will see it, no one will
inhabit it. Instead of now, we are pre-sent, always in a state of arrival;
there are endless tracks, monorails, they go nowhere, sink in dust,
desiccation.

This is all electronic, and as technology miniaturizes, improves, perhaps
these skeins will continue, sheathed, to exist, transmit, transform, no
matter what. Then the scenario simply holds longer. Consider: There are no
species. There is no real life, no organic life, no artificial life, no
patented life, no constructed life. There is network life and one hopes
that the remnants of wilderness (which are not to be deconstructed) remain
that way, that enclaves succeed where management hasn't. Consider: There
are no persons; there are couplings, situations which grow increasingly
small and temporary, imminent decisions. Consider: Immanence has disap-
peared, if it were every anything more than mythos; it's replaced by the
Facebook contact, as enunciations are replaced and replicated by 'What I
am doing now.' Consider the usual: We are all audience; none of us are
watching; we are all watching; there is no 'we.' It's the latter Lacan has
missed; there is nothing to talk about. These essays themselves are thin
sheaves, interspersions; they carry the dim light of the dusk into the
dusk. 'Beyond' means absolutely nothing; time is indicated only by the
stoppage of death. What is a store if not a mouse-click or twitch? What is
a body if not blown to pieces by a car-bomb? On a certain undefined level,
these are identical. Perhaps an economic level. Perhaps in the poetics of
disappearance.

To be in pain, slaughtered, wounded, is two-fold, interior, exterior. The
former stops everything; it is unthinkable, unbearable. It is always other
even when ourselves. The color of time disappears without witness. But
exterior - this requires transmission, a receiver, political economy, some
means of noise control. The receiver must be receptive, must orient itself
towards the message; otherwise the message remains noise, death. The
receiver must have space place for reception, a moment off the network
which in the very real, idiotic inert real, may be what has brought her to
this moment. But the receiver is already dissolving and a hundred-thousand
new novels are being born, and they are not novels, nor histories, but
software biographies perhaps. Rather than monoculture, monolith, let us
say multlathe, uncontrolled or multiply-controlled lathes refashioning,
refiguring, configuring, what we are reading that was once literature.
There is great exhilaration, great promise; multilathing, in its bypassing
any and all absolutes, is always in process of permanent deconstruction.
Think of the school essay, modified, bought, sold, dated, outdated, online
and offline, assembled, reassembled, spell-checked, recreated, plagiar-
ized, written on demand, printed on demand, behind wikipediatry, related
to class, gender, sex, race, nation, religion, handedness, all or none.
Think of the essay reader, the recipient, following through with programs
designed to weed out the copy which is always already a copy, hacking his
way through the sememe looking for miscreants, passing results to and from
university and institutional databases, listening softly to the YouTube
song, exchange of draft letter on Gmail, or just listening to Ipod Itunes
with her Ii. The whole world is steganographic, embedded, uninterpretable,
piecemeal, exchanged.

So for better or worse monoculture is dead; it grew on foreign soil, is in
the process of recession. To what? To the corners of vulnerable data-bases
and technologies, conservationists, those disappearing from the present.
The future were there, pre-sent, and it's why novels and paintings and
just about anything before 1985, say - _not_ 1968 - is inconceivably
quaint, something for school credit, nothing more. We need an ethnography
of our own pasts presented as disappearing cultures or archaeologies
written in the unreadable, spoken in the unspeakable; it is here that our
bodies once reproduced and never reproduced in the continuing acceleration
of images - of someone or other or no one at all.

(I'm not good enough; I'm not smart enough: You may think this is tempora-
ry or not-me, not-I, that this is elsewhere, of an other, an other genera-
tion, place space, time, time before death. This is not the bicylist who
was injured on the corner of Fifth and Bergen three days ago, but this is
her/our interior, her/our political economy, what comes about in the midst
of architecture and physics. I want to talk about the pleasure of novel-
reading, Harry Potter and other accelerants, and their fan- and enclave-
existence. I want to talk about radiations and dusts and their dispersions
and what they carry from prions to nanogarbage to pollutions to sex to
early deaths from bullets and asthma. I want to talk about mash, I want to
perform djay vjay Vday vdday. I want to be you or someone. Rimbaud knew he
was splitting up. The last of the obscene has passed, the obscene is al-
ways passing: the ob-hack fractured and visible. The last of the discourse
too.)

Nagarjuna 1 2 3

You are singing no space, place, spatial distinctions cumber observation,
the annihilated self. How so. Speak no speech, to be spoken to, undisting-
uished distinction, in zazen in walking meditation, hearing is the space
of the heard. My bones are ornaments, my neck Buddha's, my eyes Nagarju-
na's. Pratyahara, withdrawal, without rasa, flavor, fervour. Breathing is
the body's violence, meditate your corpse, you have it, you are singing no
home, no home singing, you are singing no home singing, you are singing no
home singing no home singing, you are singing no home singing
http://www.asondheim.org/buddha.mp3

Bhaga

"Two lives there certainly are not; -- nevertheless an extra body is
visible, by reason of the Shadow-Sickness."

" Naga-tabi no
Oto wo shitaite
Mi futatsu ni
Naru wa onna no
Saru rikombyo. "

( Lafcadio Hearn )

What is foretold by gong is foreshadowed by memory of its telling.
True, but emergence she said.
She said true, but emergence.

http://www.asondheim.org/bhaga.mp3

notes on code:

study of huddling http://www.asondheim.org/huddled.mp4

Major modality:
Relationship between modeling and codework:
mapping within the subtext/substructure of the metric.
Visual modeling: Visual as thetic - modality of happenstance (i.e.
modeling becomes dependent on the physiology of visual bandwidth).
Aural modeling: Visual with similar field, different spatial modality.

How is the thetic (is that the correct word?) in relation to ideality?
Does political economy depend on visual/aural physiology?

Scanning as doubled text: coded software / parameterization of the real
tending towards results which are residue (separate the results from the
structure). But within the phenomenology of the real, the results and
structure are inextricably tangled.

Motion capture (mocap) - see scanning. In scanning, the static object is
standard; in motion capture, the dynamic object. Think perhaps of the
latter in terms of a second-order differential - doubled modeling of
changes (1. through mocap; 2. through 'accelerated modeling').

The results: the 'code carapace' or chiten - Barrier/revelation code.
(Older work: The relation of consciousness to structured systems: what are
the manifestations of those systems?) Code as armor.

Seeing and hearing seem 'tawdry,' unable to sustain the abstracted or
philosophical weight placed upon them. To see or hear text philosophically
churns on transparency; everything else stumbles. We turn to writing
because it gets away from us to the extent that it's also reflective of
deep abstraction, alien-code (all code is alien).

All code is alien because it calls from elsewhere - or rather, doesn't
call at all; it's as if someone created it, it's as if it wasn't created,
not a bit of it.

Which is the fundamental phenomenological status of code: some of it is
created, but some of it isn't.

What was here -

Second Life residue / theory, Sandy Baldwin, Alan Sondheim:
On avatars and avatar escapes, July 26 performance -
duplication eliminated -

[13:23] Gesture is missing from database.
Eifachfilm Vacirca Online
sandy Taifun [13:29] Taifun: My avatars! little people!
I have moved into the interior of avatars...
avatars speak with a thousand voices. Mon poupees.
DO WE NOT BREATHE AS ONE PERSON? ARE HUMAN?
murmur constantly, you can hear them just beneath surface, in my heart,
gasps air, dolls
[13:30] They run around everywhere, underfoot. will play song, aire,
jig or rondelay!
vectored human
define an avatar as organism which infinitely repairable
not
within and without semi-geodesic space paralleling
i'm becoming avatar-man dream-woman.
natyasatrotpatti: mythical origin work
You begin to understand that all are bots expert systems some symptoms
am
preksagrhalasksana: characteristicis playhouse its different parts
You: ==/222
Well, there's no more it, his writing discourse itself getting stale.
He's taken bend
trundles bundles towards future; we're there carrying than our share
avatar's, where there, so heard
Just like those pirouettes, if were body at center them. Her skirt kept
flying up, was nothing
SQUEAK forever now hold your peace; this life, do lease on any other,
left,
rangadevatapujana: worship deities connected stage
upangavidhana: gestures minor limbs such eyes eyballs eyebrows nose
cheeks lower lip chin mouth
fifty industrialized nations incincerated 250000 Iraqis ARMED POLITICS
ANNIHILIZATION science baby, camera absurd linkage VOLUPTUOUS SHOCK
VIGOR BODY FRAME "TREE" "SEA" "SKY" "I" GO AWAY red pepper boiling
vinegar teach marks PHILOSOPHY OF VIRTUAL BEDROOM AVATAR immortal
sacred heater language train pet
ritual-objects-insignia-power-substitute-spiritual-satellite-enchanted-l
ove-exposure-regulative-transaction-corruption-norm
acquire baody others - blood milk urine shit face value social
universal perversion contract law coordinate field
rudding odors sweat vaginal semen ova decompositions bacteria
vegetation hummingbirds sparrows flies mites "i detest her because i
know well" imitate her" curse felt"
OOH AHH YOU AAH YOUR YOURS ARMS criminalization society = transactions
portions feed decay protodocument libertinage rules for outcries
screams unnatural acts after-image liquefy vaporize crime shortcircuit
dissipate thickness passion trigger calculate
sinews muscles mecoming glands libs blotting out muscular enervations
loose wet chest become
semiotic comic witness extreme pleasure speech reduction crushed
conspiracy integral monsters torso split big brains
cipher OUTRAGE THE NORM ASSAULT SUCH EQUILIBRIUM BLAZE SCREAM solitude
essential limit stranger shout
metallize starched nurse uniform wanton hands liquify atmospheric
electricity markers lust muddies turgid light idols
vaseline-coated lens streets orchid limb thrust meter possessive
handgun GIMME SAY AM DYING remaining suspended fondly animal fur
feathers root dank hummus flake caress fabric come silk leather seesaw
horse hump transact mire ossify
slime
fluminescens
hardness bones rods collapse secretions belly giggling jelly swamps
fetishize solidify sweating gleaming belts boots powdered
male milk-sap LIFE FLUID EXCESS BLOOD PUMP fluid conduity neuter
identity self hunt economy dyad eat wife-force co-
[13:31] phallocratic mach bullshit rights WIT NONSENSE RICOCHET HEART
CLANDESTINE NIBBLES ocean illuminated plastic box motor, tiny
heels depilated legs job musculature buildt gym scar liquid hand
movement want man woman PEFORATED LOBES EARS HIS NOSTRILS TUSKS BEAKS
CLAWS PLUMES SHELLS PATHS FEAST
hillbill
monoculture
SURFACE! SEX! SHADOWS! ELEMENTS! PINK MUFFINS! COUCH EARTH! DUCK LIPS!
MANDRAKES!
small creature half-hidden seaweed brown drag undertow hermit crab
shell smelled moist ebb doorway
[13:32] corpse color remains when their unreality has been demonstrated
becomes eye longer stimulation retina world declares odorless song wind
trees
remediations, mediations, projectivities, introjectivities,
phenomenologies, histories, mechanics, Extruded intruded (upon) body:
cleansed bodies continuous middle-eastern 'war'
armored imaginary journeys (Rhine, England); sexualized bodies:
o avatar, rise midst maelstrom, sadness cobalt plutonium uranium radium
seriously, what covers pain completion, yours argon xenon neon, whirl
me through infinnnnitude drugs
file sex fuck suck cum avatar.
knife skin watch solo sexatar watch.
shades avatars-- precognition behavior collision transparent
interpenetration gave new Life Avatar Body moves would move had File
called God
attempting escape vectors result avatar-work led 15:47:47 There
constructed motion capture equipment 15:48:08 images laser scanning
check Love War, Avatar, Cyborg, Experimental conferences.
{avatars backed, back infinite space}.
digital sublime, space}
imitating real-life people right, imitatin avatars.
refuse moon-bay, moon-bay. avatars, (digital) sublime; backed
, well, these torn apart, By What May AsK?
sublime
backs against wall space; nowhere left go.
elsewhere
The disappearance branch hardened rock occasional artifacts.
itself, image-avatar, ghost. ghost travels anything course; coordinates
tacit knowledge electronic Every symbol ligament avatar; every referent
gesture; gesture procures body; speaking
spectre doll faerie wraithe hobgoblin troll tengu kappa presence
cloth stitch suture binding closing damming holding velvet cotton wool
"Consider next smearing thinking skin.\n";
Kamishibai, virtual idols, PlayKiss
Nikuko, Meat-Girl, (among others) 'emanation'
another dead ok you're hearing imitation 78 record created event very
low frequency
help. 16:04:35 explore 'body-avatar' issues
tobother less! 16:07:11 dancers live yes 29-Jan-2007 16:07:18 In fact
they something head pieces did while ago but excusable! went
somewhere, said something!
beginning transparency, wizard listening-posts MOOs example. Here we
are, becoming-virtual still.
Given danced-to-infinity motion-capture second=life quasi-avatar
tethered somewhat distanced
image 'break through' private barriers course consequence
"one by one, each line alone, typing Control-d done.\n";
$name calls forth $a[$gen1] $noun[$non], hungered, making things.
$prep[$pre] $a[$gen], $a[$diff], $[$gen], $str?
system("touch .trace; rev rope >> .trace"); system("rm
rope");
"Your inscription finished, thing.", "\n\n" 3 < $g;
fly it. takenpart apart llnhx 2.2.6.::attributions Devour Blue
Nattributions Brought Forth lntarn$l karnals, bhckats pf mpdhlas,
Attempt grapple ungrapple Death Star Galleon (s0): h boarding Flying
Dutchy (f0) Dutc
Sound wood wire: alpine zither:
wish home computer with.
avoid swords. swords make angry.
avatar-meat representation uncaptured remembering origins / scars
ancer ancer/avatar ancer/ancer ancer/igital igital ancer.
ancer{}igital{{}}avatar{}analog. igital{{}}avatar{}analog.
deconstructible
level deconstruction
engineering reverse "My leashed, logical thought, protocols thought;
it's wonder think al
One cannot reach farther one's reach, closer control release,
dissipation. Enter reality world, suffused sound.
Over Lord 1 Quon: tone war... Wings creak, sound beginning.
(Subtitle)
Haruka: "Why blue?" That's wondering. Ayato stops turns toward Har
MACHINE coursing trapped blood, flush spirit vaporized, substitute
bodypart another, apparatus obstinancy, prick
machine: undoes belt buckle him, finds right diagram support weight,
tongue, zone, other love
MOUTH LETS CHAINS SENTENCES, RAMPLES, GIGGLES, TONGUES SPREAD WET OUT
OVER LIPS, LEAKS, COLLAPSES, MELTS, FINGERS
[13:33] don't listen avatar-man. dream-woman contaminated. building
condemned.
transformed early version 'outt' blue construct-space outt-structure.
avatar-video avatar-performance content degree.
sukara, dakshinanila, nandiskandhardhara, dhurya, prakata,
pritvardhana, aparajita, sarvasattva, govinda, adhrita
prefer small, seeping, peripeheral, marginal, scattered words
sites, domains, emanations, emissions, interwoven sharing coagulated
ego/s, matrices, languages, bodies.
break down here, use me? absjure, abjure ... moments ?
words, drops say drizzle
everything moment you, mmmm... matrix, mother, maternal, announces edge
frame dialog, carried forth...
times smooth us, bits bytes, protocls lost smoothing functions traced
across peripheries, margins
coagulating limpets seas jellies
made, women, sounded, resonated, protocol, site open winds
you've before, over again, repetition goal delibery interval...
bring about semblance face, lineaments mouths, elsewhere, sides things
often lure seduction among here relates Lacanian objet a, deferal....
future Net, it attains state _seamless reality,_ melding real
disturbances way tending _psychosis,_ interweaving realities, respon-
sibilities claim
Avatars always disturbances, irruptions language, lang- uage portending
_the raveling existence essence
appear erasures also visible, letters disappearing reverse.
dark dreams, enough soft limbs, mine...
matrix saves ending, pureness salvaging spaces...
subject other/ near side screen
tangled avatar-sites/sights/citations. @create $thing begging.
clear speaker herself separate creations. Voices, voices!
Each participant occupies represents (virtual) constituted written
begging object number #75438.
margins, slippages, constitutions, constructs, emergences "depths"
software hardware, blockages flows
only taking account, well surface manifestations possible comprehend
subjectivity
These develop limits program, reveal substructures/protocols violate
dialogs
stick-like _anime_ figures work, distributed authorships anatomies.
consider _projection self_ appearance various applications
audiophiles app arounds bio blogs awk biomes tion tr
We look ruptures characters resonating interfering configuration files
exe everglades
empathetic encapsulations episteme extasis entropic extensivity fantasm
externality [13:34] package: knives. prims cut.
talks. inside he says. construction torsion edge-space. world.
anorectic
[13:35] =====/999
original
/www
/bbb
/qqq
eggs
placenta cloaca
3/333
[13:36] [13:37] [13:38] ====/ggg
[13:39] [13:40] [13:41] ====/;;;
/'''
/zzz
/xxx
oooo [13:42] [13:43] [13:44] [13:45] egg
[13:46] =======nous sont
nous sexdrive florescenece
font wack
centimes
centimez
=nous sens
hung eagle
news sense
[13:47] sonnet rect fluu
KJHKL
help send [13:48] buttons liquids
wiffle
()(*)
black rose thorn
ewwt hmmmmxxx
[13:49] stem baby cell
fine germanaachec
===if tyype won't be still during period fingers moving elsewhere.
/yyy
[13:50] pistol sucking fisted hair
given up how many lines ascii
==if type fight iraq thoughts [13:51] freedom else
return
lima lamina [13:52] ==/eee
/rrr
/tttt
[13:53] sputum war wrap arm =/kkk
[13:54] ==--=
[13:55] [13:56] god bod
[13:57] tv
Try closer. Can't sit same region you.
[13:59] =====/ddd
lick
yearn
[14:00] ()(
[14:02] [14:03] [14:04] clown
InnerT00b: aren't owner
[14:05] [14:06] ======/ggg
whole
Like slimy hole
[14:07] ==/666
[14:08] [14:09] =/iii
/[[[
j;ljssldj;d aaahhhhhhhh
=/mmm
[14:10] =/1111
gooo goooo goo meee cooo pooo
/z/zzz
9-=-09
[14:11] WEEE TUSY TUSKY WWOOOOSHY
margerine
massage cheep
jf
[14:12] myh horno
royal road
[14:13] flutter mu
outrage
bad go [14:14] crumbs fattties flat oybc py puncture
==== =/,,,
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wanted sole
d conditoin
[14:15] A REAL MAN WOULDNT'
cna't bew
REEALL WOMAN IN REEL HER BELLY AND HAIR
HAH HA HAHHAHAH
LAFF IMMOLATS
[14:16] dissection ham
da haoney
JLll oh [14:17] encounter
====/777
0000000
toy finger
[14:18] fluids
/nous bon jour
oui ii iii fffuucckkk
=when write one WHEN WRITE THIS NO CAN SEE ME
[14:19] WRITTEN COMES TO TELL OTHERWISE
listened wouldn't WHENIWRITETHISLIKEIN THISFASHIONIT WILLREMAINFOREVER
shudder came
YES YESYES YESYESYES NOUSSONT NOUSNOUSSONT
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effe [14:20] [14:21] sigh cage merge miniscus
[14:22] septum
why didn't happen
[14:23]

===

control

sections of control performed by sandy baldwin alan sondheim
in sl east of odyssey excerpted from 19-minute video in which
sound provides the motive and text provides the moment of
disappearance

http://www.asondheim.org/control.mp4

the full video would be around 200 megabytes highly compressed;
this is bad enough but sufficient and indicative of the sort of
psychodrama undergone by avatars in disregard of their human
creators who remain in the background while sky land and skin
turn blood

this is america and iraq this is gender this is all or none this
is gray code incremental

learn the art of gray code and you will never have error again

Uncanny Beauty

http://www.asondheim.org/denverstorm.jpg

shelf equation resulting

http://www.asondheim.org/shelf1.png
http://www.asondheim.org/shelf2.png
http://www.asondheim.org/shelf3.png
http://www.asondheim.org/shelf4.png

now coding process

http://www.asondheim.org/codingproces.png

Coding process consists of four arrows.

Class 0 and Class 4 interact, encode, decode, model transmission
through Interface 1: Interface 1 may be an encoder, decoder, channel,
none or all of these. But there are results and results.

However think through a second process.

Interface 6 and Interface 1 interact, transform the ontology of Class 7.
Thus Class 7 is virtual by dint of representation through the processes of
Interface 6 and Interface 1. Perhaps the full model is a ghost trap within
which the epistemological changes among Class 4 and Class 0 are iin
relation to the ontological change of Class 7, virtual. Then perhaps
Interface 6 and Interface 1 are in a continuous process of evanescence,
disappearance. These are the models of coding process.

moktak

moktak composition for plane, bird, lake, moktak

http://www.asondheim.org/moktak.mp4

"Mandala is the impression of the feet." (Hevajratantra)

"May I hear the three sounds, may I perceive the three forms."

"Having said this to witness I will have been reborn."

"Propitiation dies with the insurmountable corpse."

"Meditate upon the double entrance of the circle."

"The accountancy of rebirth is of no account at all (i.e. nothing)."

"All afflictions, all sufferings, extinguished by these words."

"The whole of existence, Clear Light and mirror."

"Ten directions and no sounds, two directions, semen and blood."

"Ten directions, no sounds, the (fierce) corpse is killed."

"May I perceive the word of the corpse."

"Death is a tautology."

"May I perceive the word of death."

on our earth, the killdeer

we are on earth for such a shorttime, we have no more than a picture.
the picture is what we think of when we say, 'the way things are.'
just yesterday or tomorrow, something new, perhaps a bee.
the bee pollinates a flower shortly after our death.
there is a storm somewhere.
just now, i am beginning to understand the alarm calls of the killdeer.
the ghost of a shorebird, the feint, the run, the back and forth.
everything, everyone, lives in a different world.
i can say this because the image is always a sad image, the image is in
mourning for our death.

http://www.asondheim.org/killdeeralarm.mp3

like neural signals, the killdeer calls are a mix of analog and digital
phenomenology - their frequency is very narrow, and the repetitions of
standard (most likely territorial or display) calls are easily comprehen-
ded - at least they appear to be (the cry of the killdeer is easily iden-
tified) - on the other hand, there are temporal processes, non-standard
pitch and repetition, which present information, in this case alarm based
on distance, degree of threat, etc. - as far as i can tell - which means
nothing at all - on the sample you hear both calls and responses and the
changes within individual calls as well.

===

_NOTES AND DIALOG ON CODE_ (7/31/07) (Sandy Baldwin and Alan Sondheim)

NOTES ON CODE (Alan Sondheim)

Major modality:
Relationship between modeling and codework:
mapping within the subtext/substructure of the metric.
Visual modeling: Visual as thetic - modality of happenstance (i.e.
modeling becomes dependent on the physiology of visual bandwidth).
Aural modeling: Visual with similar field, different spatial modality.

How is the thetic (is that the correct word?) in relation to ideality?
Does political economy depend on visual/aural physiology?

Scanning as doubled text: coded software / parameterization of the real
tending towards results which are residue (separate the results from the
structure). But within the phenomenology of the real, the results and
structure are inextricably tangled.

Motion capture (mocap) - see scanning. In scanning, the static object is
standard; in motion capture, the dynamic object. Think perhaps of the
latter in terms of a second-order differential - doubled modeling of
changes (1. through mocap; 2. through 'accelerated modeling').

The results: the 'code carapace' or chiten - Barrier/revelation code.
(Older work: The relation of consciousness to structured systems: what are
the manifestations of those systems?) Code as armor.

Seeing and hearing seem 'tawdry,' unable to sustain the abstracted or
philosophical weight placed upon them. To see or hear text philosophically
churns on transparency; everything else stumbles. We turn to writing
because it gets away from us to the extent that it's also reflective of
deep abstraction, alien-code (all code is alien).

All code is alien because it calls from elsewhere - or rather, doesn't
call at all; it's as if someone created it, it's as if it wasn't created,
not a bit of it. Which is the fundamental phenomenological status of code:
some of it is created, but some of it isn't.

DIALOG

Sandy Baldwin:

Thanks for these notes - always helpful. It would be interesting to
present them somehow with the video. I'm trying to think about your
question about the relation of the thetic to ideality. Now, the former
references taking a position (thesis) and signification (cf Kristeva); the
latter references Husserlian phenomenology and the constitutions of
objects. Are the second set of distinctions (political economy - visual /
aural physiology) parallel to the first two? Anyway, I wonder if you would
venture an answer to the question?

Alan Sondheim:

I'm not sure I understand all the modalities or connotations of the
thetic; online we have (among other things): 2. Presented dogmatically;
arbitrarily prescribed. and derived: Greek thetikos, from thetos, placed,
from tithenai, to put; see dh- in Indo-European roots

So I was thinking of the thetic as arbitrary proffering, gesturing; if
code might be construed from ideality, the thetic might be construed from
code.

The visual/aural/sensory modalities seem clearly arbitrary in the larger
scheme of things, if such exists; the electrical senses of fish obviously
map the world completely differently (not to mention magnetism in birds,
bees sensing of solar polarization etc.). So this is the thetic, the shown
and it's in relation to political economy, which is dependent on culture
and organism. The ideality - and this for me is where a kind of
neo-platonism comes into play - is a structure which underlies everything
- a structure which _might_ map through propositional logic or Wolfram's
cellular automata or etc.

The structure is alien to the extent that a rock is in-itself, ding an
such. It's possibly here that the uncanny of codework appears (and coding
in general, mathematics/mathesis in general) - that code, no matter how
written, always seems, in part, to come from somewhere else, to appear, to
have appearance, whatever the sensory modality.

Sandy:

Thanks for the elaboration of the thetic. Some thoughts: As to the
visual/aural modalities (you mention fish, for example), I wonder if
inter-species animal display such as "stotting" (sp?) or "organs to be
seen" and the like, apply here. Here the code of display, in the large
sense of code from Eco or elsewhere, implies a semiotics that can't simply
be understood in terms of a return to the individual or even the species,
that gestures towards a general not-political economy. I'm thinking that
we, insofar as we are just such animals in the world, are on display for
the other (substitutable in the sense Levinas talks of).

Alan:

Had to look up stotting! The sp. is right. But I'm not sure that it
doesn't imply a 'return to the individual' insofar as the communication is
a signal? This isn't the 'mutual orienting of cognitive domains' - it's
masquerade or camouflage in a sense? But the display has to be readable by
the other, in both cases, stotting or display for the other, and the
modalities are always limited; in fact, with stotting, the limitation is
absolutely necessary - for a signal to be a signal.

Sandy:

I take this substitutability I refer to above as the alien you refer to *
the alien that I am. The thetic (as arbitary positing and also as a
"thing" in the scopic field) is always ideological. I think this is where
I'm coming to your point about ideality, and when you mentioned
neo-platonic I thought of Barthes' on the photograph as a kind of
"emission" (in the sense of
Plotinus).

Alan:

Yes, I think we're in agreement here perhaps. The alien is the source
structuration of code; the propositional calculus can't be consumed...

Sandy:

Agreed. Obviously, I'm thinking, on the one hand, of Bataille or Lingis
and their insistence and foregrounding of economies of excess and
non-return; but then, thought is made to account for and come back to
itself. Now, this dialectical reason is inseparable from philosophy, yet
we know there are other philosophies and unreasonable ways of thinking. I
could see this as life within and against the human.

Alan:

Interesting... I agree with you but then there's the 'selfish gene' issue
- if the stotting is common and in various species, then it's not leaky at
all but highly efficient; certainly it would be evolutionarily (?)
determined more than other signals, since it's at the fulcrum of life and
death...

Sandy:

Here's a different but not unrelated question - returning to the alien as
"source structuration of code." I wonder about the following: it seems to
me the subject relation to the symbolic online, let's say to the ideality
of ascii, is like that of the subject of film. There's is something like
suture occuring, and so on; at the same time, there's a difference and
even a complete reversal. I think this has to do with time, but I'm not
sure? Any thoughts here - again, if it's too much, there's no need.

Alan:

I'm lucky to be online. A HUGE storm is coming, lightning etc. out here.
Anyway - the subject online is an actant of course; the suture is similar
but different in that the filmic subject is predetermined - and therein
lies it's power - I think it relates to a fundamental masochism. The
viewer is held in thrall by the film, and/or the actions of the viewer
change nothing about the film itself - which continues to unravel at its
own pace - but only about the diegesis, which is always in dialog. The
subject in relation to the online symbolic, I assume you're referencing
jectivity (projecting, introjecting) is in a sense too much in control, as
if that control were offered to us elsewhere, outside online being as
well. In that sense, time is 'supple' for the online subject - in film,
it's not linear, but shuttled, and that dialog is set into motion by the
obdurate quality of the film, which just unravels. Of course this obdurate
quality relates, I think, to the inert of the real as well. Then when one
brings dream, dream-screen, all these other aspects into it, the whole
situation becomes muddled? Perhaps hopelessly so?

Sandy:

Thanks, yes. I think in the suppleness of the online subject: ASCII gives
me life, I give ASCII life, but I also ask more of ASCII than it can give,
and it gives more than I can ASCII. (In the otherness of it.) Also,
interesting that there's no "apparatus theory" of the net, beyond your
internet text of course (which does explain all).

The World in Two Jokes

How many Passenger Pigeons does it take to change a light bulb?
None.

How many Tibetan Buddhists does it take to change a light bulb?
None.

2007-07-21T23:36:00.000-07:00

Yes, yes, of course.

I am God and when I die God is dead.

(There's little time left to speak to Me.)
(I'm not leaving a forwarding address.)
(Come to think of it.)
(Offerings don't count.)
(Pretty much anything you have to say.)
(Thank you for listening.)

Uselessness of Monoculture

I will call 'monoculture' anything before the advent of the Internet - in
particular artworks, literature, theater, dance, etc. etc. This culture is
characterized by the singular; even when dispersive anatomies are present,
they are always in opposition or subtext to traditional thought. The mono-
lith is always present and accounted-for. The monolith is either station-
ary or process- movement- oriented, always static or dynamic; its elements
cohere, separate, are born to die, to be reborn again. This is the culture
of the traditional university but it is also urban culture, street-corner
culture; it is the culture of history and historiography, of the encyclo-
pedia and the expert and think-tank. Monoculture resolves, whether towards
resolution or irresolution; it is possessed by narratological impulse, by
development and the compass. Monoculture is not necessarily unary; there
is multiplicity and the nomadic, beneath the stars, within it. Monoculture
blinds us to the world; it is the World that is all the case. It is the
culture of gas, liquid, solid, electrostatics, electrodynamics, special
and general relativity; it is the substance of quantum mechanics insofar
as action may be defined as action or verification at a distance. In sum,
it is our sum, our summation, our accountancy of the world and of our-
selves, and it is useless, as the result of an Internet that is neither
singular nor plural, neither present nor absent, neither coherent nor dis-
persed; I will call 'Internet' what has corrupted monoculture, tended
towards its demise. I am not implying that 'Internet' in fact or fiction
signifies anything, that the name means; it may, in fact or fiction, be
characterized imprecisely by insigification, spews, abjections, blurs,
avatars, nothing at all.

For the change that has come about within and without the tangled skein,
holarchy of networkings, is of the plasma or swarm; it is Wolfram's
science, not Hertz's. Thinking through social sites, collaborative facting
and fictioning, wikipediatry, avatars of avatars, bots and phishing, what
comes clear is lack of clarity, lack of clarity's epistemology. This is a
fundamental transform to the extent that anything is fundamental at this
point; it sweeps away, for example, plots and allegories, bureaucracies
and governments, minds and bodies. Think of pre-Internet novels - novels
of modernism or post-modernism, of constructed and conceptual weavings, of
characters or lack of them. And television, theater, cinema, follow suit;
one is locked into farther time, father time, to diegesis, to an unravel-
ing that characterizes experimental film as well. Neither film nor paint-
ing are linear, but both participate in a locking-down of perspective, no
matter what openings, contusions, are on the horizon.

Lacan, Gardner, even Bateson presaged multiplicities; in Wolfram the swarm
is simultaneously organized and disorganized. Lacan never went far enough;
there was that reliance on language, no matter how shifted. It comes down
to this: When I read a novel, I don't recognize myself, the 'times,' any-
thing. When I watch a show on television, there are actors, people, or
animated actors. They're moving through familiar antiquated monolithic
space, proscenium or deep space - it makes no difference; there's always a
perspective. Perspective invades novels, stories, the world of monolithic
writing - on the other hand, try assigning a vanishing-point to MySpace or
even Facebook. Even Second Life, which tends towards classical perspec-
tive, falls apart on the edges where the simulacrum of physics is turned,
churned upside-down. One doesn't recognize (oneself or others) in Second
Life because recognition is already a problem; everything moves within the
aegis of Bell's theorem.

Consider photographic apparatus: begin with camera obscura, that one-to-
one allegory of the real - through Daguerre, view cameras, stationary then
moving then Edgerton. Cameras dissolve into swarming components; now com-
ponents themselves disappear as cameras transform into light-sensitive
holarchies, networked or independent, under whose or what control? The
image ends up everywhere and nowhere at all; no longer is it allegory -
which has long since disappeared - but the stuttering of the fragment
which no longer is in need of suture or extension. You can watch family
trauma, physical and mental abuse, on the morning talk shows, but whose
families? whose abuse? whose perspective? It doesn't need to end up on
YouTube; YouTube provides its own violence, its own parameters of liter-
ally unfathomable streams. Videos are removed if found, if from copy-
righted material; everything gets through, leaks. But leaks from nothing -
the culture, non-monolithic, Internetted, leaks without transmitters,
receivers, leaks without channels, or leaks from traditional channels,
only to be churned back, lost in brackish protocol.

Code, programs, codes, protocols, reference one another, are increasingly
open-sourceless; scratch the surface and no one's there, nor beneath the
surface - all those dead-ending projects on SourceForge ending up maybe
somewhere else, maybe vaporware, the languor of the name. Languages embed
languages; soon they'll be without physical foundation for all intents and
purposes, perfectly floating signifiers shattering against subroutines and
useful or useless misuses. (The world doesn't end either with a bang or
with a whimper; there is no world to end.)

This confusion is on the ground as well - in some places, Harry Potter
really is a witch; children suffer as a result. It doesn't take electron-
ics; it takes nothing more than extinctions, overpopulation, global cli-
mate change, weapon distribution, religious fanaticisms, starvation,
desertification - the unsupportive world. Radiations swirl around the
farthest villages; there are unheard broadcasts, music, news, exhortations
to the perfect religious life, promises of vacated paradises. These places
or spaces are the future of the novel; language dissolves without signifi-
ers, without that place where the sememe holds, however tenuously. It's
here that home is found, in the bombing of the home, categorization of
flora and fauna, ethnic cleansing. Online real explosions transform into
hacking, thousands, millions, of MySpace friends, hundreds of millions of
blogs, billions of Wikipedia pages hardly ever under contestation. Yes,
it's all true. Yes, none of it is.

Monolithic culture prepared the battlefield inhabited only by the wounded.
Monolithic culture developed the technology of multiplicity and the plasma
- a multiplicity of multiplicities, never stationary enough for analysis,
never moving enough for a coherent dynamics to emerge. It's a memory to an
extent, to the extent that memory is encapsulated in fast-forward media
already forgetting what was loosened in the habitus.

This is all electronic, all colonial, all nanobot, this isn't your fath-
er's monoculture, your mother's multiplicity, your father's multiplicity,
your mother's monoculture. Capital seeps everywhere as do heat and water;
island nations are disappearing in the Pacific, Atlantic not far behind.
Think of this as the anxiety of diminishing power; surely, not only is the
world out of control, but control is as well. What happens to feedback in
chaotic domains? One likes to think fecundity, fractal, but in the real
this holds only so long before 'things' bottom out in rust and tumors.
Monoculture is always waiting in the wings; as networks decay and data-
bases turn useless, big iron will descend upon the world. But this is far
in the future, a future so defined that no one will see it, no one will
inhabit it. Instead of now, we are pre-sent, always in a state of arrival;
there are endless tracks, monorails, they go nowhere, sink in dust,
desiccation.

This is all electronic, and as technology miniaturizes, improves, perhaps
these skeins will continue, sheathed, to exist, transmit, transform, no
matter what. Then the scenario simply holds longer. Consider: There are no
species. There is no real life, no organic life, no artificial life, no
patented life, no constructed life. There is network life and one hopes
that the remnants of wilderness (which are not to be deconstructed) remain
that way, that enclaves succeed where management hasn't. Consider: There
are no persons; there are couplings, situations which grow increasingly
small and temporary, imminent decisions. Consider: Immanence has disap-
peared, if it were every anything more than mythos; it's replaced by the
Facebook contact, as enunciations are replaced and replicated by 'What I
am doing now.' Consider the usual: We are all audience; none of us are
watching; we are all watching; there is no 'we.' It's the latter Lacan has
missed; there is nothing to talk about. These essays themselves are thin
sheaves, interspersions; they carry the dim light of the dusk into the
dusk. 'Beyond' means absolutely nothing; time is indicated only by the
stoppage of death. What is a store if not a mouse-click or twitch? What is
a body if not blown to pieces by a car-bomb? On a certain undefined level,
these are identical. Perhaps an economic level. Perhaps in the poetics of
disappearance.

To be in pain, slaughtered, wounded, is two-fold, interior, exterior. The
former stops everything; it is unthinkable, unbearable. It is always other
even when ourselves. The color of time disappears without witness. But
exterior - this requires transmission, a receiver, political economy, some
means of noise control. The receiver must be receptive, must orient itself
towards the message; otherwise the message remains noise, death. The
receiver must have space place for reception, a moment off the network
which in the very real, idiotic inert real, may be what has brought her to
this moment. But the receiver is already dissolving and a hundred-thousand
new novels are being born, and they are not novels, nor histories, but
software biographies perhaps. Rather than monoculture, monolith, let us
say multlathe, uncontrolled or multiply-controlled lathes refashioning,
refiguring, configuring, what we are reading that was once literature.
There is great exhilaration, great promise; multilathing, in its bypassing
any and all absolutes, is always in process of permanent deconstruction.
Think of the school essay, modified, bought, sold, dated, outdated, online
and offline, assembled, reassembled, spell-checked, recreated, plagiar-
ized, written on demand, printed on demand, behind wikipediatry, related
to class, gender, sex, race, nation, religion, handedness, all or none.
Think of the essay reader, the recipient, following through with programs
designed to weed out the copy which is always already a copy, hacking his
way through the sememe looking for miscreants, passing results to and from
university and institutional databases, listening softly to the YouTube
song, exchange of draft letter on Gmail, or just listening to Ipod Itunes
with her Ii. The whole world is steganographic, embedded, uninterpretable,
piecemeal, exchanged.

So for better or worse monoculture is dead; it grew on foreign soil, is in
the process of recession. To what? To the corners of vulnerable data-bases
and technologies, conservationists, those disappearing from the present.
The future were there, pre-sent, and it's why novels and paintings and
just about anything before 1985, say - _not_ 1968 - is inconceivably
quaint, something for school credit, nothing more. We need an ethnography
of our own pasts presented as disappearing cultures or archaeologies
written in the unreadable, spoken in the unspeakable; it is here that our
bodies once reproduced and never reproduced in the continuing acceleration
of images - of someone or other or no one at all.

(I'm not good enough; I'm not smart enough: You may think this is tempora-
ry or not-me, not-I, that this is elsewhere, of an other, an other genera-
tion, place space, time, time before death. This is not the bicylist who
was injured on the corner of Fifth and Bergen three days ago, but this is
her/our interior, her/our political economy, what comes about in the midst
of architecture and physics. I want to talk about the pleasure of novel-
reading, Harry Potter and other accelerants, and their fan- and enclave-
existence. I want to talk about radiations and dusts and their dispersions
and what they carry from prions to nanogarbage to pollutions to sex to
early deaths from bullets and asthma. I want to talk about mash, I want to
perform djay vjay Vday vdday. I want to be you or someone. Rimbaud knew he
was splitting up. The last of the obscene has passed, the obscene is al-
ways passing: the ob-hack fractured and visible. The last of the discourse
too.)

2007-07-01T08:34:00.000-07:00

ravishing

her eyes fall through her eyes, a thing is lashed
you find yourself hysteric, is she watching me
or something else next to the shuddered prims
so gaze against her gaze, nothing is ever lost
and play within her plays, whatever might be found
this might seemed worried, her mouth is berthing wide
no matter what bleak hardness or good however grace
or where the neural networks might be stashed
her eyes, uncanny, swollen, gaze across a sea
you're always swollen, harboring her whims
is clearly thing your flesh has neatly tossed
sodden emptied, sallow, on unhallowed ground
you fear the world, there's no thing more inside
no more than eyes cut through the hollow face

http://www.asondheim.org/lookatme.mov

2007-06-27T09:07:00.000-07:00

Gnat swarming behavior

The following video was made about 100 meters from the Jordan River trail
in Salt Lake City (West Jordan / Midvale), Utah. The site is a pond per-
haps one or two acres across; there are numerous birds (swallows, swifts,
red-wing and yellow-head blackbirds, etc.) around. When I first saw the
gnats, near sundown, they swarmed in a typical ellipsoidal fashion, i.e.
similar to a free-falling water balloon in slow motion. I noticed several
columns forming; in a short while, they became vertical, long and narrow.
They swayed and held shape. In gnat swarms, males and females behave
differently; in one of the vertical columns, a roughly spherical 'head' is
visible to one side, and I wonder if there might be sexual differentiation
here. What is fascinating to me is the relationship of millions of gnats
to an over-arching geometry; this parallels slime mold behavior to some
extent. I've seen lots of gnat swarms before, but nothing like this. We're
leaving the Salt Lake City area today, so I have no time to investigate
this further at the moment (we're leaving today), but I'm interested in
any further input, images, videos, you might have.

http://www.asondheim.org/gnats.mp4

Radio

'Radio' - modified recording in the Mormon Tabernacle Choir building; note
the laptop in the foreground which controls and monitors the organ, light-
ing, recording, etc., as far as I can tell.

http://www.asondheim.org/radio.mp4

2007-06-24T07:18:00.000-07:00

(video w/ Foofwa d'Imobilite, church at Pringy, text w/ytalk)

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2007-06-15T00:55:00.000-07:00

Engine

It becomes an engine.
It masquerades the crankshaft.
It turns like an engine.
It transforms taps into pitch.
It hums and makes everything hum.
It turns and turns out that way.

http://www.asondheim.org/revvvv.wma
http://www.asondheim.org/revvvv.mp3
http://www.asondheim.org/revvv.wma
http://www.asondheim.org/revvv.mp3

wma smaller ; if you can't open, use mp3

2007-06-07T13:06:00.000-07:00

Virtual, not Real

Two modes of writing, most likely among others: Well, I demonstrate (x); well, I demonstrate (myself). The first compresses, contains, confuses the object; the second smears the object within or against the code/work of the text. To smear the object implies an onto-epistemological corruption or breakdown; it is abjection that determines the problematic relationship between self and object. To demonstrate (x) is to clarify an indexical mapping between symbol and object; to demonstrate (myself) is to dis-embody both object and self; the ontological breakdown is between organism and signifier; the epistemological breakdown implies that knowledge itself is problematized across the boundary. Of course there isn't any boundary; this is all non-sense - in other words, senseless, one can't make sense of these things, there's nothing in the sense of sense as direction - can you sense which way to go? The discussion itself leads to abjection; a w/hole body has no need of dis/splay, dis/comfort; it's there inhabited, sutured, one with inhabitation and self, powerful, commanding, desiring, desired. The body tending towards discussion is already embedded in a futile attempt to construct existence out of shifters, pronouns; the discussed body is already a crude form of empathetic magic, which never works but which constantly requires both sacrifice and repetition. Then one reads it, the same, the differentiated, as autobiography; what is being described adheres to, seems to adhere to, the events of the day, those contortions or fits (fitts) of the writer, and thus replete with projection; this holds as well for fictional characters, but everyone recognizes that avatars at least have no history. The avatar is intermediary/sluice between clarified object and smeared self; its skin labors skin in one very singular direction, that is, from an acceptable exterior distance - but its skin labors space within or close to within. Within what? The prims fall away, replaced by space which mirrors, maps external space, all the way to the ends of the game, game-space, or beyond; mirrors, by association, space itself in the real, which is already virtual, the closer one apporaches quantum or fundamental particle levels. In this very real sense it is the avatar which is real, and our selves, bodies, our organic existence, which is virtual, dependent among other things on an Aristotelian logic that holds only on _this_ level in the holarchy, among others. For the law of distribution, so important in the applica- tion of classical logic to the world, breaks down in favor of the gestural, once the logic is examined closely, once appearance and the reading of the world, such as it is, virtual-real, is foregrounded. We defend ourselves against this through a whole phenomenology of pain and suffering, as if death constitutes the undeniable presence of the material world. That this isn't the case is clear, not by considering death itself virtual, but by recognizing death as the termination of processes in the middle-zone, in the middle-way - and processes them- selves, are by virtual of the ineluctable ontology of time, virtual in their constituation.

In lieu, place, virtual or real, of this, I speak like a madman, like a hungry ghost, already a contradiction, since what would fulfill a ghost, hungry or not, except an internal transform among ghost-organs, ghost- perceptions, ghost-epistemologies? Madness always carries the tinge of the virtual with it, and thereupon the real, just as what one considers the real in everyday life, appears as a dream, false, masquerade, sham, facade, theater and theatrical performance, all of which is true, recognized in every movement or body-speech of an avatar, in one or another world, more real than virtual, as ours is more virtual than real. To write of an object: "Two modes: Well, I demonstrate (x); well, I demonstrate (myself). The first compresses, contains, confuses the object" - is to write of oneself writing of an object; this is elementary. And it is also elementary to realize that "writing of oneself writing of an object" is an aporia, useless, exhausting, falsely-recursive; one might as well stop there and recognize that the smear (stutter, cough, text, pause, punctuation, page or screen) is behind, within, inherent in, every utterance whatsoever. The psyhoanalytical loss of object or good object or bad object is founded on no object at all - none, but food in the eyes of the hungry ghost, or the hungry ghost in the eyes of its prey. Nothing is simple, everything melds within the hallucinatory, and rational action is the apparent ability to 'freeze' those moments, as if they endured beyond the momentary glance or description.

2007-05-21T16:56:00.000-07:00

Too distant, too many calls. I'm on Ning (Second Life Odyssey), Facebook (Brown University), Youtube (whatever), Myspace (horror but I wanted to contact someone); this blog, which is hardly read at all, why should it be? finds or follows last... which is a shame.

http://www.asondheim.org/hhhhh.mp4
http://www.asondheim.org/amidha.mp4
http://www.asondheim.org/railray.mp4
http://www.asondheim.org/amidha.mp4
http://www.asondheim.org/fallingout.wav
http://www.asondheim.org/fallingouter.wav ]
http://www.asondheim.org/parisfull.mp3 ]
http://www.asondheim.org/spectralparisecho.mp4

Some of the soundwork is duplicated in the video but easier to download. You find some of the work as well at Ning or Youtube. I think this is my best work in quite a while. But here's the rub - I can't add anything to the senseless political climate; one would be a fool to pay attention to my personal ramblings; I can't review cultural/poetics/etc. books with any degree of interest in this space (although they're sent periodically to a number of lists); and I'm beginning to think more and more that blogs are all too often personal embellishment, ornamentation, rhinestones without the glitter like an albatross around the neck of Leda's swan.

But I feel an obligation, keeping the date open...

2007-05-04T21:58:00.000-07:00

i'm on facebook i have no face:

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2007-04-19T23:27:00.000-07:00

My Lost Films

I made films from; most of them were carried by Canyon Cinema in
San Francisco. The films are all mast prints; I didn't copy them, but
showed the originals, since I wanted to use what little funds I had to
produce more. They were shown periodically at Millennium in New York, and
occasionally elsewhere, but they've never been part of the film community;
as a result, they've hardly been shown. Canyon Cinema returned them after
the board voted against handling masters, which could be damaged during a
screening of course. They were then placed at the Filmmakers Coop here in
NY, where they've remained on the shelf for fifteen years; I doubt anyone
has rented or seen them. I don't know their condition at this point; many
of the 16mm ones had mag stripe sound on them, which is susceptible to
print-through.

They were featured prominently in the 1992 Canyon Cinema catalog, just
before Canyon changed its mind about handling them. (I should add that my
videos have been available at times from places like Printed Matter or Art
Metropole, but these can be duplicated.) I'm saddened that they remain
unscreened - there are probably 15-24 hours worth. There are a large
number of them; for a while, when I was teaching at UCLA, I made a film
every week, mostly 16mm black and white sound, imitating the older silent
film production strategies and rates. For me the films broke a lot of new
ground - not least, in optical/magnetic soundtrack experimentation, but
they're quiet, moot on that point.

So I recently found a copy of the 1992 catalog and xeroxed the six pages
that describe my work. I am forced to think of the pages themselves as a
new film, made from the silence of the old; they read as a narrative of
concerns, experimentations, confusions, and theory-work changing over a
twenty-year period (although to be fair, most were made between 1980 and
1992). The image URLs are given below. Read the texts, imagine watching
the films, and maybe in some absurd future, they'll come to life again.

2007-04-15T19:39:00.000-07:00

,

I've been remiss; if you go to http://www.asondheim.org/
just look at the most recent work; it's made with Second Life avatars still/yet - using techniques of behavior collision - when bvh files are piled on bvh files to the extent that there seems to be an almost darwinian competition among actions. i've also been doing performance in Second Life. if you look at http:// www.asondheim.org/pa.txt and http://www.asondheim.org/pb.txt you'll find the recent text files that accompanied the work. there have also been personal struggles, friends in troubles, our usual situation of desperate lack of finance (a faculty member at Brown where I'm teaching a beginning course in filmmaking asked if I liked living poor), bad leaks in the loft, cop shot in the neighborhood, building in flames three blocks away, riot in the subway station we use, friend in the hospital, another friend outrageously let go from a job, and so forth. not to mention health issues - that 'low temperature' thing that gives me flu-like symptoms about a third of the time (i have it now, accompanied by a headache of close to migraine proportions), a bad knee that's made walking difficult, eyes going bad and just no money for new glasses, our cat becoming wobbly, a real scare that my almost 93-year-old father was in serious poor health (not true), the usual series of nightmares giving me maybe a couple of hours sleep a night, fears of death and mass destruction, moving closer to the edge of deep depression (pulling back then but tottering), difficulty getting my main manuscript published, the usual job turn-downs, and the Sony shortwave stumbles a bit about the 15 megahertz position with a degree of static coming from god knows where... not to mention some bizarre uploads here that I have to go and correct, goodbye

2007-03-27T01:18:00.000-07:00

rol everything, lesion-express, chora, brick of gold, dials and steerage across banned seas going nowhere, product of inconceivable geometries
everything began to follow apart in sorrow, second life was the refuge of the moment, i could cont

2007-03-12T01:20:00.000-07:00

http://www.asondheim.org/pas.mp4

liner notes for Crepuscule

sexual projections over dancers and without dancers and sexual
dances on the tentpoles ravens at the four corners of the world.
dancers are below. oh they want to jump on the bodies.
this is dance on deadly earth.
origin of dance
try to make sense of the dialog; they can't. The live dancers may be
are nude, exposed; the dance ends when they cum. They observe
two dancers -
audience and masturbating couple - the dancers sexually aroused - if nude
dance should move from position to position. Anita Berber.
The dancers are reeling, on edge, nervous, difficult, a problem, their
desires constrained by spectacle. The dancers are on exhibit, behavioral
codes thwarted or broken. If a dancer feels comfortable, he or she should
push further on.
sexuality, and horror, interpenetrate. For the dancers, everything is at
the body of the dancer is eternal
exists in relation to the sexuality of the body within the dance, within.
dance is the interiority of the metaphysical,
dance succeeds only by virtue of the interiority of the dancing, only by
the foundation of the world. the foundation of the world lies in dance,
The body of the dancer lies supine, breathless.
storing these things - in the dance itself there's an image of a woman
My Cluttered corner of the dance studio. Cloth, food items, all supine,
is choreography masteranwhile dancers having dancing day debris three.
liner notes for Anita Berber.
point of dance and sexuality dancing is indiscriminate fucking, display -
midnight phone-calls and invitations. one a dancer is pornographic, once
this splay / display, dance, photography, culture, art in general, is
invisible as semen on stage, spurted from dancer, welcomed and returned by
art, of dance, of the body; it is also the most unknown. draw a vector;
appurtenance-appearance; this is what the dancer, photographer, performer,
tensed in our tawdry space of the real. for if the dance-dancer emerge -
Sex dances for one to four people.
The dancers are nude. There are no props.
Male dances alone while masturbating. He dances until he cums.
Female dances alone while masturbating. She dances until she cums.
Tethered: Male dances with one hand holding himself erect.
Tethered: Female dances with one or more partners' fingers in her.
Variant Tethered: Male dances with one or more partners' fingers in him.
The dance ends when one or both have cum.
Variant Tethered: Female dances with one or more partners' fingers in
her. The dance ends as above. The dance ends when the dance cums. dancers.
So this is a dancer transformed. Role disappears from dance, dance is.
The advantage of a dancer: You'll have your body at the end of the day.
The disadvantage of a dancer: You'll have your body at the end of the
day. dance and culture brings Signs from Worlds eaten by light. Score
restraint, bounded three-dimensional space, against which such dancers
remain authorless in the midst of author/authority, danceless in the
presence of dancers/dancing, human within the post-human, flesh within
dance the doomed Case of doomed, doomed, a-void. Case of A world chaos,
sex, spoken sex, poetics of sex. I may work with dance and sex and
dance-video and sex. I will not work with images of sexual violence. I
dance. Or I'm the material for the dancers; it's really back.

-- sondheim

Crepuscule (Twilight) recorded / edited 2006 Geneve

body out of sight
http://www.asondheim.org/thirst.mp4
by this time alan dojoji is out of control dance has held him he moves
through landscape escapes the camera hides in rock runs behind viewers
moves at the speed of light or something else instantaneous i am here but
i disappear you can't catch me you can't snatch me you can't watch me you
can't scratch me you can't match me you can't stash me you can't crash me
you can't slash me you can't mash me you can't bash me you can't trash me
you can't cash me you can't dash me you can't patch me you can't patch me
body out of sight out of light out of might out of byte out in flight out
and right out and tight out and wight out at night out with might out in
plight.

olomphax

the laminixys olomphax, a scotohylact watching horrehomo the somatoroser.
the menadodus beneath the odigraculus, the lythrophyll of the vilipheno
salamyx - a form of glottography against which the histemoreades of the
notooecetes the medeicelomel nablajact; olomphax's palpebriosche begat
tittholup. now to ingest the duobusthamnus, phalectopist, list to the
phalerlall of the nullistymatic nostocarcinus; from gorgopteris to mega-
medusa (zizanilarus flying high above the prinopalpodynia of the olomphax)
- paniseptum in the cimoliscutellium, a form of serpophial beneath the
irriturano. olomphax and conicrio together drank from the serpophial, that
very same, to say, moliphet, the olomphax herself was sersect. salamyx
tells no lies ...

cimoliscutellium small white-clay dish sersect late-cut moliphet hardly-
speak serpophial creeping saucer tittholup nipple-pain conicrio dusty ram
irriturano useless heaven laminixys thin-loins, waist menadodus way of the
moon lythrophyll bloody leaf salamyx lustful slime odigraculus song of the
cormorant glottography tongue writing vilipheno vile purple-red notooece-
tes moist inhabitant nablajact harp-thrower palpebriosche drunken touching
of testicles scotohylact dark yelper medeicelomel genitals resembling the
cheeks olomphax an entire young girl histemoreades mountain-nymph tissue
horrehomo trembling-man duobusthamnus two-cow-shrub somatoroser body-gnaw-
er phalectopist shining-wanderer phalerlall coot babble nostocarcinus
returning-home-crab nullistymatic limp gorgopteris fiercefern megamedusa
great jellyfish zizanilarus weed-gull prinopalpodynia oak-feeling-pain
paniseptum fence-bread

sonnet

onedy twody threedy four
fivedy sixdy sevendy more
fourdy threedy twody one
sevendy sixdy fivedy done
ingirl outgirl upgirl down
outboy inboy downboy crown
pretty bonnie in the well
happy johnny pulled the bell
seventeen eighteen nineteen two
twenty and one makes bonnie blue
nineteen eighteen seventeen one
sixteen years makes bonnie glum
zero zero short and narrow
cut the bone and gnaw the marrow

http://www.asondheim.org/running.mov - performance at Exhibit A opening,
Second Life, Odyssey

http://www.asondheim.org/lessens.mp4 - motion capture choreography studies

before all this

'Ubeidiya culture - Israelo-Abbevillian v Israelo-Olduvan (Stekelis my
teacher) Israelo -> placeholder: deep hiatus in relation to identification
the figuring at Berekhat Ram - earliest reported piece of art 'Ubeidiya
was the first place/holder 1.4-1.7 million years ago, emigration from
Africa - Acheulian tools at the dawn of hominid culture - Berekhat Ram -
early figurine I walked the trenches at 'Ubeidiya, hand-axes everywhere
embedded in the dirt walls, sacks of them at the edge of the site - how
could so many be produced by so few? so Israelo- becomes the placeholder
at this moment, perhaps Palestino- earlier or later - our time here is
minimal in relation to the depth of the early pleistocene - synchronical-
ly, the median lies well within the Olduvan; diachronically, the demo-
graphics fall pretty much now - twentieth-twenty-first-century collusion
bringing pre/history to an end; elsewhere I've written about the 'uncanny'
in relation to the site - holding, figuring, tools last held by almost-
humans

now when voice comes to Second Life: who will speak for identification,
morphing or the granularity of the real making its appearance across the
wires, given as such, taken as such? we're at the threshold of what
appears beginning, here/now, of the virtual, 'pain has turned the thresh-
hold to stone,' of the post-pleistocene - of the post-hominid landscape
whose details still escape us

what is the relationship between the grain of the voice and
SL originary history - what is an original of the voice - who spoke
and with what 1.7 million years ago -

the genidentity of the voice - genitdentity of locus of human production
- the voice which is self-identical, the rootless voice, the voice without
substance, the body untied to the voice, voice untied to the body -
genidentity of the voice: analogic transforms from real to real - return
to stone, to the stones, to material culture continuously absentint
itself, taking everything with it

7-day weeks - Onedy, Twody, Threedy, Fourdy, Fivedy, Sixdy, Sevdy 4-week
months 3-month seasons ... Even with your studies, you need to meet
people. I know! ... 7-day weeks - Onedy, Twody, Threedy, Fourdy, Fivedy,
Sixdy, Sevdy 4-week months 3-month seasons ... Even with your studies, you
need to meet people. I know! ... 7-day weeks - Onedy, Twody, Threedy,
Fourdy, Fivedy, Sixdy, Sevdy 4-week months 3-month seasons ... Even with
your studies, you need to meet people. I know! ... 8 bit bullet list
marker is recognized. september ninth nineteen sixdy, ... paragraph this
is a mail message that i received one day. i didn't make it up ... The
preprocessor is actually a series of small consecutive functions, which
may be thought of as one long pipeline. Each function makes certain
assumptions ... Help others find this item. Make a Search Suggestion |
Manage your Search Suggestions. No-one has made a Search Suggestion for
this item yet. ... Konference se bude konat v prostor ch katedry filozofie
FF v Plzni stnosti ... www.kfi.zcu.cz/fivedy E-mail: schust@kfi.zcu.cz ...
jemu
v r mci chodu katedry jeho kolitelem, vedouc m katedry, tajemn ky ... v
jednotliv ch kurzech, p prav ~[ a organizaci ~Yij
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==

Pas.

From last night's Millennium screening greatly reduced

http://www.asondheim.org/pas.mp4
with Sandy Baldwin
and thanks to Ian Murray, Sugar Seville

11 short dance motion capture sequences in combination with walk/fly modes
in Second Life. Sound: Alan Sondheim (Ensoniq Mirage)

siting the edge of SL - at this particular point, SL/RL physics is trans-
formed into aberrant behavior; objects are literally deconstructed.

Think of these as collisions, speed-motion studies, the last digital ikon,
emptied signifiers, transformations of desire, metaphors for metonymy.

n : substituting the name of an attribute or feature for the
name of the thing itself (they counted heads)

2007-03-02T13:58:00.000-08:00

the form of fold catastrophes. images from the edge of Second Life

performance scripts from motion capture with missing sensors tending towards infinity; data is returned in

2007-02-26T09:22:00.000-08:00

during Chicago's Openport Festival from the Sear's Tower. punctured page of the flat landscape, circular oceanic horizon, phenomena at the edge of the world, crystal 115 77 97

performance performance

2007-02-20T01:24:00.000-08:00

d f
breakin through into another banned space through root avatar image displaced from object itself also see http://www.asondheim.org/breakin.mov thank you

2007-02-18T22:17:00.000-08:00

two dancers two dances two roses two worlds

2007-02-09T17:02:00.000-08:00

Here is the problem, as anyone following my work can attest - there's too much of it. I'll be at the Openport festival in Chicago the end of the month, doing a symposium, talk, two performances. So I'm attempting to organize files for the last, and it's difficult. I narrowed the video/audio work to 900 files - and these are edited from the mass of my video/audio work in general, running I think into the 1000s. I've placed the files in two folders, Performance 1 / 2. The names (titles) of the files convey nothing. I'm still naming from the film years when one produced "pieces" with such. So there are 900 names, and I forget what most of these things are. It's not even easy to tell by extension - there are sound files with .mp4 and the video files almost all end in .mov, even though some of them are modified .mp4 with H.264 compression that use up a lot of processor time.

Thumbnails won't do - they would be too difficult to manage, would clutter up the screen, wouldn't handle audio. I think of code - G for Geneva, D for dance, GG for Gruyere, GA for Aletsch glacier work - but then the individual pieces are still left behind. I've tried brief 2-3 word descriptions in the titles, but that doesn't seem to help. All of this has to be on the screen when I'm performing - that's the whole point of it - the ability to choose video/audio on the fly. I'm not sure where to take this, memorizing indices in my head, mnemonics ... The total number of still images that I work with (i.e. not family) is about 10000. The total audio, probably 1000; the total video, I imagine around 1500.

I swim in these. I need a directory structure for everything, coupled with a search engine; I need keywords and a way to delimit and present files during performance; I need a system which is easily understandable. I'm speaking of approximately 200 gigabytes of material here. Of course any suggestions greatly appreciated.

- Alan

2007-02-02T14:44:00.000-08:00

Last year there were more manatee deaths, almost all as a result of human callousness, than any other in history. The species will go extinct if we don't take action. Please consider donating or joing the Save the Manatee org.

Thanks, Alan

2007-01-31T01:26:00.001-08:00

Date: Wed, 31 Jan 2007 04:18:12 -0500

Reduced De Montfort University Creative Writing and New Media guest
lecture chat

This is fascinating - I'm always curious how many of
the old IRC commands are retranslated or reinterpreted in these newer
chats 14:52:20
No problem - let me knowwhen to start 29-Jan-2007
14:52:29
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music... 14:53:22

music

14:53:52 hello 14:53:57 where are we now? 14:54:13 here we are then...
14:54:39 now we are one 14:54:45 one 14:55:11 going out and coming back in
- 14:55:28 left the session 14:55:34 joined the session 14:55:46 left the
session 14:55:51 joined the session 14:57:21 displayed the following URL:
http://www.asondheim.org/net1.txt 14:57:45 Alan 14:57:48 Some of them are
working! I've been playing around with html tags and couldn't get out of
bold! 14:58:10 But Im not in bold now -are you? There's no bold at this
end? 14:58:26 This is wonderfully strange... 14:58:42 - you're bold?
14:58:48 Hi everyone! 14:58:52 Must be the diluted blood... 14:59:16 Well,
I've got the URL up - yes, it's difficult, you have to use the slider.
15:00:12 I'll try and be spare. 15:00:17 Wow! Stumbling over Brooklyn -
15:00:35 Ok I'm ready whenever anyone else is - 29-Jan-2007 15:01:20 Can
you scroll the text I've put up? 29-Jan-2007 15:01:34 It's just the first
file in the Internet Text, which I've been writing for fourteen years;
I'll switch to an 'examples' text in a bit 15:02:01 Ok, thanks 15:02:05
Why don't you start with questions and we'll see where it goes - 15:02:26
Hi - 15:02:41 Yes of course 15:02:53 It's odd because those seem like
different operations - I'd say something close to obsessive compulsive
behavior combined with a real wonder about the world 15:03:24 I can't not
work 15:03:43 Too much neurosis on this end - which then becomes part of
the content - 15:04:18 Well, what gets rid of the "I self Me" - which is
narcissism - is the world itself - 15:04:36 the protocols etc. - 15:04:43
I'm not sure - I do all my writing online - possibly 5 hours a day -
15:05:00 god no 15:05:05 the protocols - coding - 15:05:24 I'm not
struggling with that. 15:05:31 It's a hideous anti-semitic tract -
29-Jan-2007 15:05:49 The protocols reference code and the breakdown of
code 15:06:04 it's amazing I could stop there - 15:06:20 and it's between
code and its breakdown that I'm interested in - that 'liminal' space
15:06:40 which is partly interpretable in a classical sense (hermeneutics)
and partly not 15:06:58 She disappeared a while ago; I didn't want to
write into the character any more. I felt I had done all I could - and
with Julu, Jennifer, Travis, Alan, etc. 15:07:28 The space-between code -
what underlies writing here and the surface itself. 15:07:59 I started
calling this 'codework' which has taken on a life of its own. 15:08:17 So
the subtext so to speak ruptures the text which collapses the subtext etc.
15:08:34 As if the bones of the tomb of writing were made visible.
15:08:52 - as if the bones had some sort of presence in the world without
the flesh of writing (which in a way is a kind of etiquette) 15:09:14 So
that the writing in a way is 'lurid' - cutting through in other ways.
15:09:37 As in the 'Anita Berber' pieces that I've put up at the blog -
15:09:57 Mistakes in print, and in the traditional Tanach, five books, all
those misplaced letters, etc. 15:10:18 displayed the following URL:
http://nikuko.blogspot.com 15:10:32 There's the "skeleton" of a piece of
writing - which started with a short piece paralleling Berber's and
Droste's own writing,and then expanded it using the 'dict' command -
29-Jan-2007 15:11:20 which gives you a huge list of synonyms. The first
entry is the skeleton - the entry immediately following is the piece
itself. 15:11:46 Which is a kind of overflowing of synonyms, burying the
original text - 15:12:04 and there's a parallel with Berber's life here,
at least for me, and also a sense of over-accumulation, "surplus" 15:12:33
- a surplus which goes nowhere. 15:12:41 If you click on the link you
might get the .mp3 file which is made from tabla playing heavily filtered
- a kind of stuttering/heartbeat that again parallels the text 29-Jan-2007
15:13:43 How so? 15:13:46 This isn't my 'best' tabla work, but I thought
it interesting to put up - 15:14:28 I wonder what happened; I'm always
afraid of clicking on links here - at one point everything closed down.
29-Jan-2007 15:15:01 No problem 15:15:04 The first bit - the short bit -
is a poem... 15:15:30 There are better tabla pieces here! I think
something called metrical.mp3 is one of them at the same site -
29-Jan-2007 15:15:53 Think of the rest as both an expansion and a
suffocation of meaning - meaning flying off 15:16:11 in so many directions
that nothing coheres... 15:16:20 It a strange interface with a mysterious
life of its own. When I was using html tagsa bit ago, everything was going
a bit awry - 15:16:57 two bits in that sentence will get you a quarter
(bad pun) 15:17:13 yes, but you might want to ask away here? When I enter
a URL then the box closes - 15:18:06 displayed the following URL:
http://www.asondheim.org/examples.txt 15:18:20 You ask about code poetry?
15:18:38 There are so many terms - I mentioned 'codework' because it seems
the most genearl; for me, the rest - e-poetry for example, electronic
poetry, new media poetry, etc. - all create genres/canons 15:19:14 which
just about close everything down in a classical form/at - in other words,
the usual politics and decisions make themselves felt. 15:19:39 If you
think of say Lautreamont - what he was doing hadn't been done before
(think ofthe space - again liminal) between Poesis and Maldoror and how
that operates) - and that is fantastic! 15:20:16 But if had to attent a
conference on his own work, that would have been something else...
15:20:33 What I've put up here - and you do have to shuttle back and forth
- is an example of a 'standard paragraph' - the "Normal" - and then
various manipulations ranging from simple to complex... 15:21:16 There's
also a few code snippets (most of which I've asked other people to write,
or found elsewhere etc.) 29-Jan-2007 15:21:36 I tend to write in Unix or
Linux - I've been doing that for a dozen years now - 15:21:54 which allows
me to use all sorts of sophisticated text manipulation tools and script
languages 15:22:13 Just briefly - the first is Normal, then 'Back" takes
each line and reverses the words, not the letters... 29-Jan-2007 15:22:43
Rev reverses everything 15:22:55 Tac reverses the line order 15:23:08 tr
A-Z a-z just gets rid of the capitals 29-Jan-2007 15:23:20 transposition
does group substitutions 29-Jan-2007 15:23:33 substitution is simpler but
similar 29-Jan-2007 15:23:43 Pig-Latin is a program that comes w/ linux
and turns everything into pig-latin! 15:24:03 Punched Cards is another
linux program that turns phrases into imitation punch-cards which were
used in the 50s and 60s 15:24:32 Eliminate which was written by Florian
Cramer for me just eliminaes any duplicate works in a piece 15:24:55 so
that "the dog and the cat" becomes "the dog and cat" for example. 15:25:12
Elimx is one I wrote from Florian's that makes a mess of "eliminate" and
creates a kind of poetry out of it which reminds me of John Giorno or
William Carlos Wiliams 15:25:53 Cramer made a program that eliminates
duplicate words. 15:26:09 The program is above. It counts different words
for example as "cat" and "cat," - the comma makes it another word.
15:26:40 The "mathesis" program I love - Jim Reith wrote it for me - and
it creates a "filter" for a text - 15:27:08 like a photoshop filter.
15:27:14 You can enter a mathematical function (the very first line) and
it pulls out words from an "array" that match points of the function. The
details don't matter here; the results, though, are something that would
be very difficult to get otherwise 29-Jan-2007 15:28:00 GoogleScrape - is
just using the Google program (API and WSDL - forget what the
abbreviations stand for) to create files which can be "scraped" - turned
into texts. I think this is what the flarf group does - 15:29:15 It's just
a more sophisticated way of using google results as a basis for literature
- 15:29:33 Then there's the "Simple perl program results" - which is based
on a program I wrote years ago that's interactive and allows me to 'write
into' it - it then rearranges things in somewhat technical ways - 15:30:23
Yes of course, that would be a lot better than this blithering on my part!
15:30:33 Yes to both, that was also a while ago. Shinto fascinated me and
still does to some extent - a kind of animism and heavy mythology that
exists coherently with high technology. And the language (I can't read it
in the original) is so arcane - 29-Jan-2007 15:32:13 Not so much; I've
been very moved by Red Pine's translations of Chinese poets, mostly of
Zen/Taoist outlook like Cold Mountain (Han Shan) - the spaces that these
poems create - and the kind of language used by, say, Dogen in Japanese
Zen 29-Jan-2007 15:33:02 because I can't get myself "around it" - which is
wonderful. 15:33:15 On the other hand, I could never 'submit' to Zen or to
that sort of discipline - I'd be interested in wild Zen, wild Buddhism,
without training, kind of yamabushi stuff without the community 15:34:02
Well, that's complex. I don't have a traditional relationship to Shinto or
to Japanese culture - 15:34:29 and am alienated by, say, Mishima, by
whale-hunting, by what happened at Nanking, etc., all of which relates (I
think) to State Shinto. but that's really another topic... If this is the
Mu you are speaking of then yes, I do (for some reason I started thnking
of 'the continent of Mu" 15:35:37 The one book that stays with me, now, is
the Flower Sutra, possibly the full translation of the Tibetan Book of the
Dead as well. 15:36:18 These are openings for me, and the sutra is
incredible. 15:36:29 By the way (while waiting) the Yipes! text is made
from some of the rules above. 15:37:13 And the "Using Chat" was made by
recording one of thesesessions by myself. 15:37:30 ok 15:37:32 Ok - but
they're not appearing here - 29-Jan-2007 15:38:10 One second 15:38:24 Ah I
see - for me in relation to D Turner's second question - 15:38:55 about
Youtube and so forth - the work skitters among all of these. I do laptop
performance and actually musical performance in rl (the latter I'm dubious
about) and video/audio/dance/image are all part of this; 15:39:31 I also
work with dancers in Geneva, Switzerland, and this has gone back and forth
with my other work. 15:39:51 Yes, the meaning shifts in each context, but
the concerns are pretty consistent. 15:40:05 Edting in relation to suprlus
- that depends on what I'm working on; with vidoe I tend to pare things
down greatly, especially for the web - 15:40:36 but I prefer also to work
on an idea, get through with it, and move on, rather than finesse it; the
latter in a way is too easy, I know where things are going, so does the
audience - 15:41:06 Code and text interact for me; sometimes the structure
is evident, sometimes it isn't. 15:41:46 When I'm working with software (I
work at the Virtual Environments Lab at West Virginia University at
times), I try to take the software 15:42:16 to some sort of limit - seeing
what happens at the edge. I did a piece in Second Life where the
character/s try to escape and keep coming up against artificial barriers
of the edge of the mapping 15:42:49 I work in both darknet and a/v - the
presentation in some ways 'fills out the form' - whatever is available...
29-Jan-2007 15:43:20 Text-based work allows me to think the
hardest/clearest in a way - it's unforgiving 15:43:55 I write a great deal
of theory, and it's so easy to slide into nonsense... 15:44:10 Sometimes
it matters, most of the time it doesn't - if the code is present, one can
usually get some idea of the structure in it 15:44:33 whether or not one
understands it fully. There are times I don't understand it fully.
15:44:49 I did some work in visual basic (you can download the exe.tar and
open it on a PC - they'reexecutables) - and I can't tell you where the
effects are from. 15:45:22 Exactly like lace, and just as ephemeral...
15:45:33 It makes it seem as if the world is both obdurate, inert, and
interpretable, transparent. 15:46:09 I think of Jacques Lacan in this
regard - reading his text is a kind of psychoanalytical working-through
itself 29-Jan-2007 15:46:34 But of course I may be fooling myself.
29-Jan-2007 15:46:47 There are also political concerns here - trying to
scrape away at etiquette - I relate this to the usual obfuscation in our
government's policies. 15:47:27 Which effects in the films? And you should
sometime see the originals - the compression makes a mess out of them -
15:47:47 There are avatars that are constructed from motion capture
equipment 15:48:08 and images from laser scanning equipment (big lasers)
15:48:23 I'm not sure which this is! I think that's the laser. 15:48:34
The Wolf piece - that's using motion capture and feeding it into Poser,
which models figures - then distorting the files so the figures literally
break down. 15:49:02 The bones of the wolf come through. 29-Jan-2007
15:49:18 Poser is a 3d mannequin modeling program. 29-Jan-2007 15:49:28
Yes, Bellmer fascinates me, but thenI worry - in my own work as well -
about the gender implicatons of al of this - 15:49:53 It's separate, it's
faster than Max I think - the mannequins are already formed to be
manipulated. 15:50:18 A lot of teen-age boys make 'ideal' girlfriends with
the stuff. 15:50:33 I think my work walks an edge of being lurid and
almost violent almost overtly sexual, but not quite (this is the video
work, not the writing or sound pieces) 15:51:28 I do think at least in the
US these images are the kind of imaginary one lives within 15:51:50 There
was a book years ago which talked about Jewish (and one can apply this to
any minority that feels beleagured) 15:52:25 culture as breaking down the
'etiquette' of middle or upper class Anglo-American culture - 15:52:48 for
example Freud scraping at the psyche, Marx at classical economics,
Witgenstein at language itself, etc. 29-Jan-2007 15:53:20 Thank you!
15:53:28 And these people were - again perhaps like codework - 15:53:39
partially-assimilated Jews, but not 'really' assimilated - so they existed
- again - in the liminal space which they recreated for themselves.
15:54:06 Einstein as well. 15:54:10 This is obviously a gross
over-simplification but it started me thinking... 15:54:27 You have the
same thing, say, in the blues, with people like Patton 'between' African
and 'white' rhythmic/tonal structures. 15:55:07 Ok - 15:55:12 Whew. I'm
not sure 9something else opened up here, sorry).. 15:55:55 When I'm
surprised by the result, it's a success, no matter how awkward. 15:56:10
when I know 'what I'm doing' - it may well be a failure. 15:56:21 I coined
the term 'defuge' to reference those moments which are akin to disgust
15:56:43 for example when you try to read a novel several times 15:56:56
and the writing itself becomes distasteful, 'decathected,' unworkable.
15:57:14 The same thing happens with pornography, but that's another
issue. 15:57:28 - if pornography were 'ideal' - one image would do it all
- but that's not the case. instead, the industry is fueled by continued
transmission. The same thing of course in the entertainment industry, etc.
15:58:04 In sports it's another related issue - one wants one's team to
win, but if it's a massacre all the time, the 'sport' disappears. 15:58:34
So there's a kind of disinvestment at work here, and that also occurs in
my writing I think when I'm too sure of myself, 'filling out that form'
again. 15:59:04 Such as what? 15:59:28 Yes, lots of time. 15:59:52 times
16:00:00 I think it depends. I haven't been thrown out of anything at all.
But there's controversy definitely - the worst was probably on nettime-l
which went on for an entire month. I left the list but came back later.
16:01:00 I also cross-post a lot which bothers people. 16:01:07 The sexual
content of some of the work bothers people. 16:01:19 And at my end I have
little patience for what I think of as the right-wing which gets me into
trouble; I just start blustering. 16:01:41 I don't know, some tame, some
not tame - it depends on how it's defined... I don't mean to offend
anyone, but most people don't I think. 16:02:19 AI? It's only a matter of
time... 16:02:53 "don't I think" - I'm not sure where this typo was
going... 16:03:19 No problem - 16:03:24 I'll be on the board, except for
Tuesday/Wednesday, when I'll be on but not that much (traveling). 16:03:55
With my work? Just to be able to keep doing it. And with technical things
like music (trying to learn to play the erhu now) - just doing a better
job 16:04:17 I'm terrible at programming, okay with borrowing or asking
for help. 16:04:35 I want to explore more 'body-avatar' issues in Second
Life, but I'm not sure i'll get to that... 16:04:55 I feel exactly the
same way- 16:05:23 for me, at least the aesthetics of coding... 16:05:50
Well, she may return, but there are other things - working with live
dancers (who are fairly extreme and we shot in the Alps and so forth) has
been wonderful 16:06:32 The 'parables' (they're in the book .echo)
29-Jan-2007 16:06:57 I don't thin I need an editor but I might have
tobother people less! 16:07:11 The dancers are like live avatars yes -
29-Jan-2007 16:07:18 In fact some of the work they do is imitating avatars
exactly as much as possible - 16:07:32 When you getto something like the
Wolf, it'sdifficult. 16:07:43 How to who feel about? 16:07:53 - 16:08:32
We tend to inspire each other. I can't do much physical (except music) and
the dancers are incredibly athletic. 16:08:58 I agree re: Butoh, I
haven't, but would like to work with Butoh dancers of course 16:09:17 The
Cunningham technique is very complex, so I can explore pretty much what I
want... 16:09:51 Or I'm the material for the dancers; it's really back and
forth. 16:10:09 At times I'm not sure who is doing what with whom or
whether it's ultimately real or virtual 16:10:25 I'll be on Joanna. -
16:10:34 I can stay for a few more minutes if there are any questions -
16:10:53 Oh someone asked why the webpage is a directory? 16:11:03 That's
the simplest way I can present the materials; I'm not good at design; when
I send out texts, they usually include URLs. 16:11:27 The Trace materials
are different - they were done with Simon Mills and are fully
interfaced... 16:11:51 Good night! - 16:11:56 Take care - 16:12:05 There
are six left; before I leave, are there any other questions? I'll check
the discussion board later 29-Jan-2007 16:12:26 down to two! 16:12:34
board with more 16:12:41 Yes 16:12:56 No problem; I'm about to sign out
unless there's a question - we're really down to you and Christine who
might have left... 16:13:27 I'll be on the discussion board later this
afternoon. 16:13:59 , please send the recording if you can! 16:14:08 Well,
if there's anything else... 16:14:17 Oh, good 16:14:32 Thanks - 16:14:40
Thank you as well - I'm constantly worrying about the quality of these
answers... 16:14:56 - bye - 16:14:59 left the session 16:15:08 joined the
session 16:15:17 left the session 16:15:19

2007-01-28T19:16:00.000-08:00

skeleton Anita Berber

murder.
morphine.
mucous.
murmured. voices.
mayhem. vortex.
misery. blood.
murder.
muck. fuck. naked.
murder.

2 pico zz 3 dict murder 4 dict murder | more 5 pico zz 6 dict morphine 7
fg 8 dict mucous 9 dict mucous |more 10 fg 11 dict murmur 12 fg 13 dict
voice | more 14 fg 15 dict mayhem 16 dict mayhem | more 17 fg 18 dict
vortex 19 fg 20 dict misery | more 21 fg 22 dict blood 23 dict blood |
more 24 fg 25 dict muck 26 fg 27 dict fuck 28 dict fuck | more 29 dict
fuck | more 30 fg 31 dict naked 32 dict naked | more 33 fg 34 sort zz > yy
35 pico yy 37 sed 's/ //g' yy > zz 38 pico zz 39 sort -k 4.3 zz > yy 41
pico yy 43 sort -k 3.2 yy > zz; pico zz 44 perl a/eliminate.pl <> yy;
pico yy 45 sed 's/[\.,;{}]//g' yy > zz 46 pico zz 50 new zz; cat oz.txt zz
> ding; mv ding oz.txt; m

http://www.asondheim.org/anitaberber.mp3

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2007-01-28T18:53:00.001-08:00

throat Anita Berber

murder.
mucous.
murmured. voices.
mayhem. vortex.
morphine.
misery. blood.
murder.
muck. fuck. naked.
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descent Amytal Amytal pill Demerol Dolophine H Luminal adherence
Rh-type Rhesus factor acute leukemia affiliation agnate carnage
commit a gaffe cool decapitate decimation Letterer-Siwe bed have
go at it bang get it on away Schmerz ache aches and pains
aching heart adversity rub out ruin mandrake admiration agency
agent air allophone alto alveolar crow affliction agony agony of
mind angst anguish anxiety bale agnation alliance ancestry anemia
angiohemophilia anima undressed color common come out with comic
bass communicate consonant hum stringy lubricous as mucous
substance abate abolish sadness sordidness animal kingdom animating
force antibody antigen apico-dental approbation approval aria
singer speak incoherently annihilate asphyxiate assassinate
assassination air grievance aspiration assert assimilation atone
spiral spout spurt stew stir blunder blunder away into on upon
purging put patricide play havoc polish off purge extermination
Australian ballot Hare system Heldentenor Meistersinger attune aye
baritenor baritone basso basso buffo aspirate bark bated breath
bawl articulate articulation undraped drone emit endorsement
enfranchisement enunciate continuo ostinato profundo gangrene
garbage glop boulevardier bassus bilabial blessing blues bourdon
breathe aristocracy aristocraticalness bitterness bleeding broken
biorhythm birth blade blood bank muttering outcry pant pipe blue
devil heaven bloodmobile bloodshed bloodstream blood litter loiter
boggle botch bumble bump bumping-off bungle butcher blubber boom
bray bankruptcy breakage breakdown chaos collapse commotion lie
with brand breath life breed exhalation flute fret fret brood
brotherhood brothership buck cast caste category muck up counting
voice buzz buzzing cackle chant collateral collateral relative
velvet calmative chloral hydrate codeine chest chime cacuminal
canary cantatrice canto cantor underbreath undercurrent burden
calamity care group grouping picture vote cerebral chance chanter
chantress check goofball hard stuff continuant chirp clamor
complain complaining complaint coo crab circulation clan clansman
claret malcontent melancholia blunt clarified clear Tuinal Tuinal
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chord chorus coloratura coloratura soprano organic fertilizer
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codeine cough syrup depressant depressor dolly downer muddle
consanguinity cousinhood cousinship coxcomb cyclic heads crooner
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curlicue mumble mumbling murmuration murmuring crushing curse
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damage destruction aplastic apparentation decision declare deep
deliver dental descant diphthong ordeal dampener damper dejection
depression depth misery caroler casting Hand-Schuller-Christian
disease disaster discomfort discontent native buff disclosed
discovered distilled evident exposed dilapidation disablement
dismember inroad loss maiming mischief dissimilation diva division
dramatic drone exposed to view disturbance dizzy round ebullience
ebullition eddy Cassandra displeasure distress dolor beef bellow
bellyache bitch blare blat count donor donor center contralto
convey electrocute eliminate elimination destroy do in dust drift
droppings dung dust exterminate eradicate eradication execute
effervescence embroilment evolute exhaust feery-fary ferment
enrichener entangle excrement open outcropping overt explosive
express expression syndrome Rh Rh-negative Rh-positive bring
bare-ass bared fagot falsetto favor favorable figured faux pas
finish flounder foul play fratricide extinguish flap flurry
fluster flutter barefaced beholdable blank blatant beverage
biological clock formulate forum franchise give give glottal
dressing fumble garrote genocide get rid of guillotine hang fume
fuss gabble gasp wet blanket woe wretchedness hardship fussiness
gulf gurge gyre helix tongue utterance glide disclose flagrant
free glaring gymnosophical fermentation fidgetiness fit involute
extremity gloom gloomy Gus grief grimness grouch grump goo gook
goop grime grind grub feculence filth fool heartache heartfelt
heartgrief heavy gibber gossip grapevine gripe groan grouse
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hearsay hiss holler howl encroachment fracas harm havoc hobbling
bracket braining branch everyone in her dorm" "Adam knew Eve" "Were
you ever fling heroin hop horse hypnotic junk kink maelstrom
pell-mell rainbow red hubbub hullabaloo hurly-burly hurry
hurry-scurry liquidate ice infanticide kill killing knock lay low
impairment incapacitation infringement injury unassisted unblended
stage whisper still small yellow yellow jacket jeremiad keen kick
lament lilt little rat race reel joylessness killjoy lamentation
languishment malaise cantus cantus laid lodge low maffle maunder
moan mouth despondency destitution louse manure mess mess around
beau liquidation lumber lynch mangle manslaughter mar massacre
matter furfur privation prophet doom prostration barbiturate
meperidine methadone morphia narcotic nightcap melancholy
mirthlessness misfortune detriment devastation mire mope mosey
dandruff debris decay dirt dirty dirty mucker mucky mucus mud
muddy murk matricide miscue bloody murder blot be all thumbs behead
pressure relation muff murdering mutilate parricide liable
manifest naturistic neat nonimmune noticeable nude scag
neutropenia nudist observable obvious open as day all slimy ropy
or opiate opium pacifier pain killer paregoric pen yan
phenobarbital ringlet roll ruffle scramble pain pang passion
penury pessimist pining poverty toil trash palpable patent peeled
hanging evidence full mussitate mutter phenobarbital poppy purple
quietener Seconal Seconal dandy dealing death deme denomination
figuratus planus canvass canvassing twist unquiet uproar perplex
phosphate plod pus putrid suffering suicidal despair perturbation
pirouette pother desolation desperation plain pure purified raw
recognizable countercurrent counterflow plaint planctus purr
knockout drops laudanum liquor lotus lullaby untinged untrimmed
down regicide removal remove root refluence reflux regurgitation
restlessness raise register relationship M Mickey Finn Nembutal
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Brummel Christmas secobarbital sedative shit sleep-bringer humming
jabber intercourse serum substitute bloodletting bloodline scurf
scuz sewage guano gum gumbo gunk idle linger shriek sibilate
sigh acceptance accompaniment active active scrag slaughter slay
slaying slip smother analgesic sleep-inducer sleep-producer sleeper
sleeping draught slab slave slime slob slog slop slosh sludge
slum class clinical rumor scold scream screech scuttlebutt smudge
smut snarl snot soot plain sight puris snort sob soft sough
unmixed unobstructed unornamented night soil nitrate nitrogen
obscenity offal ooze ordure snuff sororicide spoil strangle
stumble thuggee thuggery screw scroll spasm spin ravel rot
rubbish screw scum sorrowing sourpuss spoilsport squalor stitch
apico-alveolar splutter sputter squall squawk squeal disorder
disrepair showing simple stark carking catastrophe cheerlessness
sorrow stark-naked straight stripped susceptible seen flutteriness
susurrate susurration susurrus slush smirch smoke smooch stream
surge sweat swirl sordes splosh squash stroll superphosphate
swill tangle sex know do be intimate naturalibus the
altogether insight smack sodium thiopental somnifacient soother
breathy waste waste time absolute apparent au naturel bald bare
cry dolorous tirade drawl droning exclaim character chronic throe
trial tribulation trouble ruinousness sabotage scathe to-do tumult
turbulence turmoil turn twirl perceivable perceptible trumpet
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unadulterated unaided unalloyed unarrayed hurt hurting unclad
unclassified unclogged unclosed unclothed unclouded uncolored
uncombined uncomplicated uncompounded unconcealed uncorrupted
uncovered undecked humorlessness indigence infelicity infestivity
undecorated undeniable undiluted undisguised unembellished
unfortified unfurbished ungarnished twinge uncheerfulness
unhappiness unjoyfulness unmirthfulness unhidden unleavened
unmingled unmistakable unmitigated sing snap unprotected
unrestricted unsheathed unsophisticated unstopped thuggism trip
uproot uxoricide wipe wiping sickening spoiling violence vapor
volute volution wake wash soothing soporific tar glottalization
graveyard ground guttural cell undertone wail wail warble swallow
take talk thunder epenthetic vowel esteem yeastiness whimper whine
whispering whistle yap yawp yell tranquilizer turps white
anesthetic anodyne barb barbiturate off screw jazz eff
hump rectified revealed seeable sheer hay love arterial atman
bane bathmism beating countenance countertenor make out love
sleep

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2007-01-28T11:27:00.000-08:00

I'm not sure how to approach this blog for someone coming to it for the first time. One thing - I'd suggest going to the examples text below - you'd have to scroll down of course. There's also a philosophy text further down. You might also want to connect directly to http://www.asondheim.org/
and look about; since the URL leads to a directory, you should be able to find the most recent posts (on my computers I just click twice on 'date modified'). The .txt files are of two types - those from the 'internet text' which I've been continuously writing - for the most part these are of the form ??.txt (for example ob.txt) or, some of the earlier ones - Net??.txt - and those which are stand-alone files such as nature.txt or cancer.txt. Most of the latter have been published elsewhere.

The graphics are almost all jpgs and easy to view; the video is mostly .mp4 which uses the latest H 264 compression; you might need to update your Quicktime to view it. I've also noticed that some Mac people find the .mp4 files only appear as characters on the screen; if this is the case, download them, save them as .mp4, and drag to Quicktime. I believe there are ways to set the permissions to have this done automatically in Safari. The audio files are almost all .mp3 and recently I've been saving them with less compression, less artifacts. There's an exe.tar which contains visual basic executables; you have to untar the file to get at them.

One way to proceed would be to use ftp and download, say, all the text files with the .txt extension. If you download the entire site, it's about 1.2 gigabytes, which actually isn't terrible and has all my writing from the past 14 years, a great deal of my earlier articles, some books, and audio/video/photo representative of the past 14 years as well. If you have questions, contact me at sondheim@panix.com .

2007-01-27T19:54:00.000-08:00

you may have seen this already - it's signature -
for an online discussion tomorrow - alan

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v2Z7o1K3utg
WolfTC shortened vesion
http://www.asondheim.org/wolf.mov
still shortened but mp4 and clearer

2007-01-24T20:50:00.000-08:00

Ground zero (second and almost complete version - comments welcome)

Zero is ground down; the ground has no depth; the ground is flattened;
ground is always already charnel-hus; ground is always killing-field;
ground is replete, fecund, historic; history is flattened; ground is
characterized by the _trail_; the trail crosses the ground; the ground is
obdurate, inert, among and within the trail. The ground trails the trail;
the trail trails the ground.

Ground is space, now this is space, now this is time, this was time;
ground is, this is time now, this is space there.

Ground zero is the ground of the wild, the trail of the wild, its call or
calling, kill or culling. Ground zero is the table-tabulation of the
ground, part-objects of plants, animals, organic debris; ground is always
already debris. The ground does not suffer: the suffering of the ground is
our suffering: the ground is contaminated with our suffering.

Our suffering is the suffering of the ground - which is not the suffering
of the ground - which does not suffer - our suffering is the table-
tabulation, the unknown, unaccounted, unaccountable, unaccounted-for basis
of data, the blurring of data: all this construct of the human upon
absolutely nothing.

It is here that the wild parts the Wild, that the Wild decomposes - not on
the technological, on the subsequent extinctions, on the devolving of
extinctions - but on ground zero, on table-tabulations - from the begin-
ning an established fact.

From here the strategy is the move to the tabled, the move which is a
history of the process of tabling: the recognition, not of the Wild, but
of its loss inherent within the Wild. Which isn't to say a foregone
conclusion, but a technology gone wild, infected, infecting.

Now what remains: ground zero already charnel-hus, slaughtered animals,
what shall one do now? The question parallels standard 'what is to be
done?' - to which there is no answer. Ground zero - not the Ground Zero of
9/11 - but the ground zero of the trail, the trace - must be absolutely
understood and understood absolutely: that the Wild has always been
sundered to the extent that human languaging and culture have operated
through the _trajectory of the hand-ax_ - from stone through reification
to ax, from ax through exchange to ax. The trajectory refers to the
_skittering_ of the trail across ground zero. The skittering is scythe and
dominion, the distinction that makes a distinction: live and dead, hunter
and prey, herd and cull, grain and territory.

Once there is travel, tool, reification, ground zero is both relinquish-
ment and harboring. The violence of writing is here within table-
tabulation, the sintering of ground zero, the remeasurement of trail, the
contestation of trail and table.

Why is any of this a matter of concern? Because the Wild continues to be
romanticized, farmed-out, mystified; the sublime itself is the Wild placed
beyond reach, the distance of a troubling absolute. I believe one must
begin otherwise - with Holocaust, with disappearance. This needs more than
text or voice, more than lip service. It's useless to pretend that the
issue is "management" or "wildlife corridor" or "dark matter" or "natural
selection" or even "selection" given the fold-catastrophic (re: Thom)
nature of extinction. The horror inheres to flattening, to trail. It is
not an addition, not techne, not technology. As population increases, it
is simply coming into greater view. The issue is a fundamental geopolit-
ical one. The only solutions may well be enclaves, data-bases, DNA banks,
regions within hunting or poaching are punishable by death. This is far
too little too late. It is the best chance there is. It does not address
the future collapse of culture world-wide as pollution and climate rampage
- these will happen. It does address the the end of things (end of the
Wild, end of megafauna, end of variety, end of coastal culture), and that
is all we can hope for.

ii

It is not a question of apocalypse; it has always been a question of
apocalypse; humans have read the trails, walked and traced them, from the
beginning, from the beginning of organism. Every organism has culture. The
question becomes "how are we with apocalypse"; "how are we among the
apocalyptic." For this condition, this state-of-affairs, this desire,
looms closer, as if the apocalyptic announced itself.

I read far too often that humans have cried apocalyptic far too often - but
for a moment, put yourself in the position of a polar bear, or black
rhino, or bonobo: Consider these, as well, crying apocalyptic, until the
last of the them disappears.

It is not, again, "what is to be done," but "what is the doing." And it is
insufficient to abjure the doing, as in the notion there can be no lyric
poetry, perhaps no poetry, after the Holocaust, that other holocaust that
continues in yet other forms. This bypasses, not only doing, but thinking
that may yet reveal another dawn in the midst of dusk. One might say in
return, all dawns are ruptured. The day is ruptured by the night. What
remains, what is never ruptured: ground zero - one might say the substance
of ground zero, but here there is no divisibility; one fails and falters
with the other.

iii

Ground zero is the ground of debris, spew, emission - the ground that
erases traces, derails trails. It is never so simple as inscription, but a
confluence of inscriptions, spatio-temporal strata, cross-purposeless. The
fossil record is the miniscule surface of the world appearing as depth.
But there is enough present to indicate that today something is wrong,
incoherent - an environment that changes faster than adaptation, fit only
for generalists - species, themselves, that might be in trouble later on.

The artificial (zoo, museum, housing development) requires energy and
continuous maintenance. It is a strange attractor of finance; without
money, the budget of organism falls apart. It is susceptible to world
politics, to a world with rapidly decreasing resources. The Wild must be
seen against this background. The Wild and its species have disappeared -
which means the cultures of these species have disappeared - which means,
further, that we are dealing with organisms divested of spatial and
temporal history. There are no neighborhoods, no learned behaviors, that
are not contaminated by humans - both within the artificial, and in the
remnant parks and "wildernesses" on a planet experience an information
implosion, population explosion.

Think of the artificial as organism banking, and continuous maintenance as
the lineage of organisms translated to the lineage of human beings, in the
future perhaps other technologies. The point is this: these lineages are
disrupted as well, are broken - and a single break results in permanent
loss. Kill the zoo, kill the species. Develop a plot of land harboring an
irreplaceable biome, and the biome is gone forever. It's a no-win situation
- environmentalists hold out with man/woman-years, and the biome seems
safe - but one victory of development, and everything is lost. This is an
example of the "fragility of good things" in catastrophe theory - if
everything goes right, good things happen - but there are many more -
astronomically many more - things that can "go wrong" - and any of them
permanently eliminate the catastrophic peak of "goodness." In this sense
"goodness" might be defined as _any_ desired state-of-affairs; there's no
ethos implied.

A "world of generalists" will never be the end of the story, as generalist
species compete with one another, construct new strategies, fill new
ecological niches. Competition continues on a planet of rapidly depleting
resources. There _is_ an end in sight, as variety ultimately decreases
exponentially.

Culture suffers as well. Projects disappear as coastlines are inundated,
fresh water and fossil fuels are at a premium, and replacement fuels
create vast changes in biomes themselves. Gasoline replacement comes at a
price - again, of ecological niches, cultures, even an acceptable air
quality level. Couple this with population pressure (we're not yet at the
9-10 billion peak expected), and one has a world in which criminal
activity is necessary for survival. Poaching will be long gone - there
will be nothing left to poach (I think of the denuded hills around Ciudad
Juarez already as an example). What we still consider, ever more tenu-
ously, the "safe" internet, will exist locally at best, most probably used
for gang/terror networking. The simplicity and spread of nuclear arms only
adds to the mess.

Here is the ground zero of debris, detritus, effluvia: when there is no
return to and from the Wild, when the "natural" becomes a literally mean-
ingless term, when histories are absorbed and annihilated.

It is at this point that one must start, politically, ecologically, phen-
omenologically, if there is any hope - not of transformation - but of
functional enclaving. The world has become a mobius-strip Auschwitz,
encompassing everything - where we are inmates and guards, where there is
no outside. The image itself - the reality of this metaphor - is still
only on the horizon, but the reality of its referent is upon us.

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2007-01-24T20:47:00.000-08:00

WHAT we're doing now on Wed Jan 24 23:43:56 EST 2007

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-zsh -tcsh -zsh /usr/local/bin/pine -ksh93 -zsh pine (pine-4.64) -tcsh
/usr/local/bin/pine -ksh

2007-01-20T21:44:00.000-08:00

The field recording dedicated to Michael Snow

http://www.asondheim.org/fieldrecording.mp3

This is dedicated to Michael Snow, who taught me everything
an original field recording. The instrument is unusual.
Here for you is a new and different field recording
remove '/net/u/6/s/sondheim/.procmail/log'? y
k1% tail -20 oz.txt
Here for you is a new and different field recording
who is singing in a new and unusual way. If that is the case,
I had to know about field recordings. Field recordings
who made them come alive for me and I owe him gratitude.
You know, field recordings are both easy and difficult.
Without field recordings, past civilizations and tribes
to do. One might for example come across a very old person
and tuned unusually. I have not come across this before,
with the mysteries of humans and their various ways of life
are the very stuff of human culture and its explorations.
This is an amazing opportunity to hear
and make something that others may hear and sing and make,
a glory all their own, since they are replete, fecund,
of an older person playing an unusual instrument.
I love the field recordings and it was Michael Snow.
It should also be said that field recordings have
since the person can sing into the field recording
a kind of wooden stringed lute I had not come across before,
might never have found the light of technological day.
A field recording proves useful and exciting

2007-01-14T21:36:00.000-08:00

VirtualBody

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kbapIr8K_Ls

This is the final solution of the virtual body, the solution down to the
bone where the flesh is irrelevant, the muscular body of atrophied
muscles, the wired body switched off, the wired body switched on - this is
the perfect perfected pure virtual body, the aerial body of antenna and
ground

this is the shattered body, body shattered against itself, body of songs
and delights, unspeaking and unspeakable body

it might be said that sex, for me, was only a detour, that this body has
been the construct-construction of years - the rendering of these few
moments left (of the shattered body, the final solution) taking only a
matter of twenty hours or twelve-hundred minutes for perfect production,
frame by frame, image by image, the coalescence of nature-culture like
none other, the immanent shattered by the imminent

only the necessity of knowing the absence of sex and all desire, the
useless remnant of violence crawling out of our civilization - only this
necessity is a reminder of the interior of pollution incohering, stripped
from life and limb, corpuscule and tissue

nothing is in favor of the light 'here,' nothing is 'here' nor was nor
would have been (nothing exemplary anyway)

The Text of the Procurer:

:lives always has fuzzy boundaries where the limited exigencies of life
are:landscape of death. Hannibal's elephants haunt the Alps. Where
nothing:Every organism is an organism of and by slaughter, every
landscape, a:have robbed the experience of another. Memories always teeter
on the verge:to, almost a denial that only Rilke was capable of. Actually
climbing to:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kbapIr8K_Ls

Devour the bluff, the church, the grave, seems an impossible memory now,
as if I Brought Forth through lives always has fuzzy boundaries where the
limited exigencies of life are!

landscape of death.
nothing
the haunted. of landscape, the landscape of death.
where nothing of the landscape of death.
where nothing lives and nothing is the landscape of death.

The Recognition.
slaughter.verge.
the saturation. the dead-sex link with death and pain.
the dead linkage.

2007-01-14T16:58:00.001-08:00

(This is for a discussion group and may be of interest otherwise as well.)
(Thanks to Florian Cramer and Jim Reith and others who helped with programming.)

Text Manipulation Examples

trAce http://tracearchive.ntu.ac.uk/writers/sondheim/
-- scroll through texts
trAce Lost Project http://tracearchive.ntu.ac.uk/lost/

Normal

Every organism is an organism of and by slaughter, every landscape, a
landscape of death. Hannibal's elephants haunt the Alps. Where nothing
lives always has fuzzy boundaries where the limited exigencies of life are
contested. I think of the unholy matri-patrimony of aM and what it has led
to, almost a denial that only Rilke was capable of. Actually climbing to
the bluff, the church, the grave, seems an impossible memory now, as if I
have robbed the experience of another. Memories always teeter on the verge
of recognition.

Back through awk
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of recognition.
have robbed the experience of another. Memories always teeter on the verge
the bluff, the church, the grave, seems an impossible memory now, as if I
to, almost a denial that only Rilke was capable of. Actually climbing to
contested. I think of the unholy matri-patrimony of aM and what it has led
lives always has fuzzy boundaries where the limited exigencies of life are
landscape of death. Hannibal's elephants haunt the Alps. Where nothing
Every organism is an organism of and by slaughter, every landscape, a

tr A-Z a-z

every organism is an organism of and by slaughter, every landscape, a
landscape of death. hannibal's elephants haunt the alps. where nothing
lives always has fuzzy boundaries where the limited exigencies of life are
contested. i think of the unholy matri-patrimony of am and what it has led
to, almost a denial that only rilke was capable of. actually climbing to
the bluff, the church, the grave, seems an impossible memory now, as if i
have robbed the experience of another. memories always teeter on the verge
of recognition.

tr transposition

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2007-01-13T21:19:00.000-08:00

Moving Her Body in Second Life

oday I revisited Second Life and gave new Life to my Avatar and now Her
Body moves just like I would move if I had a File called God.

God makes Dojoji move and God infuses Her with Life new-born, glorious
Life, lovely in Conception and Deed. I cannot say enough about Her
Appearance, but it will remain with me until the Rapture, when she will
lead the Procession of Salvation, Holiest among the Holy, Saved among the
Saved, New-Born among the New-Born.

http://www.asondheim.org/flop.mov

Yes, and Delicious with the Sweetness of the Nectar of the Lord. I would
love Her Strong, were it not for my Love of God; I would worship Her, were
it not for Strong Salvation. She shall Ascend to the Holy of Holies; She
will draw me up; I will not be far behind. For She accords me the Grace of
Creation, just as I accord her the Wager of Sin.

Together we shudder at the very Sight of the Eternal, We Love each Other
so very much!

2007-01-08T02:48:00.000-08:00

big loss sutra

i make over people, i move, make each touchable. other. i touch. all sutra
resistance. resistance. they are other. refuse moon-bay, moon-bay.
avatars, (digital) within the sublime; the digital is sublime, infinite
there {avatars are backed, at the back of infinite space}.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k6ZHEw2mKX0

[apologies, deleted http://www.asondheim.org/riverswanted.mp4
i needed the space.]

the cutting, the flesh, the sound. This trauma has stayed with me my
loved the feel and the sound and... I wrote like crazy this year, it was
in music/soundwork.
planes above us - the _sound_ of it?). I envied their clear and evident
this slow piece... maud gone / asunder, foofwa distraught, exultant,
untouchables all over again
i make my people move all over each other. i make my people touchable.
this sutra a sutra of resistance. they refuse the other. moon-bay.
{avatars back at it; within the (digital) sublime, there is infinite
space. or so they thought. until the other.}

the sound. cutting, This flesh, has sound. trauma has stayed cutting, with
the flesh, I feel like a crazy sound, and... I
was written, loved like the crazy feel and sound - it was
in music/soundwork.

planes above it? I - envied _sound_ clear of and evident - envied above us
clear and evident, a slow _sound,_ a maud piece... a gone maud / gone
asunder, / foofwa asunder, distraught, foofwa exultant, distraught, this
exultant, slow untouchables all over again

i make over people, i move, make each touchable. other. i touch. all sutra
resistance. resistance. they are other. refuse moon-bay, moon-bay.
avatars, (digital) within the sublime; the digital is sublime, infinite
there {avatars are backed, at the back of infinite space}.

erhu

the digital is sublime, infinite {avatars are backed, at the back of
infinite space}

digital {0,1} constitutes a spectrum degree zero; if one is below, 0
is above; if 0 is below, 1 is above. since nothing exists between one
and the other, nothing from one is attainable by the other; one and
the other are mutually sublime. the backs of avatars are against the
wall of digital space; there's nowhere left to go.

understand this and you understand the phenomenology of the digital-
in-relation, the analog-in-relation.

http://www.asondheim.org/erhu.wav chinese erhu with echo and filtering
beautiful music

http://www.asondheim.org/godandnumbers.mp3 shortwave numbers station
colliding with religious preaching, filtered transmission
beautiful sound

Foofwa - This is an open letter of sorts. I've been working with materials
from Geneva for over two months now, not including the third trip itself.
In the irreality of the image - an image the opposite of the punctum, an
image surrounded by an imaginary gnawing at the surface content - I've
lost myself, almost become sick. Distance in time and distance in space
are both inherently obdurate, unbreachable; there are no jump cuts in the
real, and if I've made an error in video for example, it remains an error,
cut off from the source. It's not only the affaire-Maud (aM forthwith),
but the very notion that such affaires now, are at a distance; they are a
constancy. The Alps, the Aletsch glacier, retreat into the format of a
picture book, and with every step of that retreat, something is lost
within the haptic; touch has disappeared, replaced by "communication"
which already foreshadows the permanency of distance.

There is something else, however, which is the defuge or decathecting,
which began with aM but continued as time advanced. Every video I made
with the Geneva or Alps material involved a yanking-back; I couldn't
return to the measure of the real, for example, that the four of us most
likely felt in the grange. This relates to memory in general - in this
case, differentiated (in the sense of a formal operation upon internal
time consciousness) and exacerbated; to crawl back would be to be torn to
shreds upon the spikes of events, words, adjectives, vowels. Yet it has
been a long time since I've been so close to the bone with a subject, in
particular one so close itself to the sublime.

I'm tired of naked bodies and after aM, they become a kind of litter
reminiscent of war. And all the movements such bodies might made, from
falling and failing to flying and fleeing - spanning the continuum from
suicide to death - just so - not tiredness, no, certainly not arousal, not
disinterest - perhaps the flight of something which never really
approached. Day after day I've looked through image after image, tape
after tape, as if some secret would arise through special effects of even
juxtaposition; what occurred instead was an internal mapping of every step
all of us took physically and psychologically through that, and every
other, landscape.

Every organism is an organism of and by slaughter, every landscape, a
landscape of death. Hannibal's elephants haunt the Alps. Where nothing
lives always has fuzzy boundaries where the limited exigencies of life are
contested. I think of the unholy matri-patrimony of aM and what it has led
to, almost a denial that only Rilke was capable of. Actually climbing to
the bluff, the church, the grave, seems an impossible memory now, as if I
have robbed the experience of another. Memories always teeter on the verge
of recognition.

So this is to say, and not to say, that the work from Geneva and the Alps
has entered a period of dormancy, one with an almost-consciousness of
waiting. The rocks still gnaw at me; I think of the possibility of climb-
ing between the twin peaks near La Gruyere. That would be an _episode._

So the work continues, wide-awake, and has entered a period of illustra-
tion, as time distances and we become increasingly disinvested of psycho-
logical trauma, if not of psycho-history itself. I manipulate images of a
woman I don't know, have never known, among motions and images of the rest
of us. That this would lead back to Aletsch, through Blatten to Belalp, is
both a dream and an obsession. And we would be there in this false spring,
when the world supports clear skies and a kind of moody warmth that
appears after great exertion. And that one or another would be furiously
creating. And that that, would be that.

M-D

Sometimes supreme happiness comes my way as a fold or potential field
opening up vast possibilities and new horizons. All these languages that
grace my shelves! Fijian, Tahitian, Tibetan, Pali, Sanskrit, Romansch -
the world blooms with new grammars, new structures for organizing the
universe acoustically! Now I also play the erhu, some simple north-
Saharan-like repetitive trance-songs - and harmonicas (I just read a poem
which included a "mouth-organ" in The Ladies' Home Journal Treasury from
1956 - I've mentioned this book before, there's even a reproduction of a
cover by Sargent! And the harmonic minor (C minor) harp from Lee Oskar is
fantastic! I walk down the street making up Yiddish tunes as I go. And
speaking of which - yes, on the short-wave, or upper middle-wave, around
1700, there's Rebs galore, what seems to be a Chassidic station in Yiddish
and Hebrew - and the tunes are fantastic. I just installed a very old
version of Final Cut Pro on my Mac Powerbook, and here it is, burning
madly away, a new piece - it can take it's time, I have other machines,
I'm rattling away on this new laptop which I need for my also new class in
Beginning Filmmaking at Brown! This was through Leslie Thornton - the
class emphasizes digital everything except the camera - in a way it's the
phenomenology of film itself that's at stake! Here's a frame - what do
you want to do with it? The Flower Ornament Sutra keeps my busy at night -
and there are so many wonderful books here - Roberto Harrison's writings
are nothing short of incredible, intense, abstracted, neuro-psychological,
what does that mean?, slightly conceptualized, veering, always fascinating
- and one can always go back to Kristeva's Language, The Unknown - how
young she was then! - which reminds me of my continuous mourning-the-Alps
and that never to be reproduced / revisited trip which produced probably
fifteen or twenty hours of brilliant dance, video, soundwork, even just
pacing the middle of the European continent, such as it is. And then that
unforeseen trip to Rilke's grave in Raron - and the Duino, the Orpheus,
the letters to Merline, and now Erich Heller's The Disinherited Mind,
which I can always recommend as an old friend - here I am on the chapter
about Nietzsche and Rilke! Not really a small world - I've been look for
commentary - it just came along! Just as the wonderful O'Reilly book on
Unicode - I mean really really wonderful! arrived after Sandy told me
about it - I ordered a review copy - it's just the thing of course for
codeworkers or anyone wanting to understand the potential of the graphemic
universe transformed into universals given this-and-that tolerance class
and an always already limited digital space! It's sitting right next to
another review copy - this is PC Music, the easy guide, 3rd edition - and
here I am on the Mac, making new video and audio, and on an old Mac! But
this is what I found for the PC - something called the Taksi Desktop Video
Recorder at Source Forge which promises great things, translating window
into usable footage - as if video were still "footage" - one can imagine
of course that 24 frames a second really implies these rectangles moving
by us one by one - this is far from the truth now. It's all internal, it
can be any way one wants! Unlike Badiou - and I have so much Badiou - and
it reads like stringent iron, that truth that binds just about everything
and then of course veers off into poetry and art - the French are like
that - I think Kristeva's one of the best, not to mention M. Derrida. More
and more I've been listening to disembodied voices on the shortwave - not
the Net - which is so flat, so predictable - shortwave space - radio space
- is deep space, the deepest space - you might or might not hear a signal
- signals and stations come and go - static of all sorts intervenes -
static itself is interesting - and listen to this! I picked up a numbers
station a couple of nights ago - the same comforting female voice, Spanish
numbers - even around the same place on the dial - about 6800 Mhz - that
seems to be like a singles bar for spies - anyone can join in - the code's
unbreakable of course, which just goes to show what one-to-one encryption
can do - I mean both ends have the same code book - there's no structure,
no rhyme or reason - you can't break a structureless code unless you've
got the book or massive processing - and if the book's unique, even that -
the processing - produces nothing. So you're listening to clear imperv-
iousness. The other night, our cat got really sick - for the first time we
sprayed for the larger cockroaches - I hate killing, but they were begin-
ning to swarm - when they were injured, we put them outside, praying for
their revival, karma, just elsewhere - anyway I think the cat caught
something or other - not sure - but she became lethargic, drinking a lot -
there was vomit and diarrhea - she's recovered well now and again purrs
constantly which keeps us going; there are odd words in Sanskrit that
relate to English words like 'middle' or 'calculator' - some languages
from our parochial viewpoint just seem to meander - meanwhile that first
video I did tonight - it was horrifying! apocalyptic! - as if sex and
violence and death and suicide were all entangled in the television image
- and this in less than a minute and a half - I don't dare show it! It's
far too graphic, too disturbing! At least for me - something like the
avatar head pieces I did a while ago - but those were excusable! They went
somewhere, said something! - This is just a dead-end piece; I found Waite
and Dion Fortune on the Kabbalah - ok, I've read the real thing, the
Zohar, know some Hebrew, used to know a bit about the Sephirot and for
that matter used to know some Kabbalists - I mean people who really
studied this stuff, obviously in the original, reminds me of Dogen -
anyway - the Waite and Fortune are something else entirely - it's that
weird British thing that sent ladies to ashrams - maybe the thing Koestler
objected to in The Lotus and the Robot - just checked - the new video came
out amazing - by which I mean that I've never seen anything like it -
that's what keeps me going - when a world opens up like that - so I've
been trading off books, paring them down - unfortunately there's more
equipment around - I can't help that - without money, with all this stuff,
we'll still starve - but the image will be ok. I'm one of those people
with "irons in the fire"! I'm a "hot potato"! I've got "something on my
mind"! I'm forever planning, forever Amber! I've been using the linux
Zaurus 5600 again - it's fairly old as these things go now - small computer
looking like a PDA - but with linux, one can do anything! Speed means
something completely different in linux! Anyway I'm playing scrabble games
and wondering if they somehow do increase neural connectivities - I sure
hope so! PJ O'Rourke was on television today, a three-hour interview - it
was fantastic, memories of Hunter Thompson - they were close - said that
Hunter never figured it out - what to do after 50 - and collapsed - anyway
didn't that whole period collapse? I saw Bobby Seale talking as well and
got Soul on Ice again - just the force of language then - it's already
going to read like history, flattened into non-existence - look at Marx's
Capital or the theses or manifesto or whatever - it all reads like a
whisper - that's happening to the Situationists - culture speeds - the way
we're working now - all this distributivity - it's impossible to relate to
modernism, I mean the telephone, old-time baseball, network television,
the structure of Shakespeare or Hemingway. You can feel the canons passing
in the night! When the caissons go rolling along! It's true what they say
- it's all over before it began - this species - our own - is in full
bloom - I mean in the technical sense - we're the red tide of the planet
itself! Look at the deaths we leave in our wake! Look at the wakes we
don't have for our dead! Who has the time! Hundreds of thousands dead in
Iraq - no time - it's the killing fields - American men and women - the
remnants of the anthem - I hope I can trade some of my cassettes to Steve
Tobin who produced my latest CD - I'm remembering things like the Factory
stuff or Sleep Chamber - just like Ayler but maybe fifteen or twenty years
later than Ayler - there's some kind of absolute there - it's gone now -
you'd think when things reach some sort of climax - Daniel Buren say -
stuff's all over - but the truth is, people like to look at stuff and
listen to stuff and it doesn't really matter whether it's been done before
or not - it's the wonder of the world that's coming through to them, just
like with the shortwave, and with all of the noise of the shortwave as
well. I'm trying to place Grotowski - his poor theater in all senses of
the word ended up at Irvine where he's world-famous - why not? That
Artaud-like anguish seems to have vanished in favor of memory, but what do
I know - I never knew in the first place. People are afraid of sexual work
- it remains some kind of taint - what the three of us did at the Grutli
set up disturbances a couple of magnitudes greater - how to release the
tape - Crepuscule (Twilight) or some such - I can never remember plurals -
for example it's Gruyeres for the area, but it's La Gruyere for the town -
the cheese is incredible; they use robots similar to the new library ones
but in the cheese factory they turn over I think seventy-five pound disks
of the stuff for perfect aging. And it does age perfectly! Gruyere cheese
or raclet cheese are amazing! I'm sure my spelling's a mess again. I never
listen to cultural-political writers unless they're in power. All that
energy in a posteriori analysis. I need someone to say - the bomb's going
off in maybe an hour from now, here's the address, the people that did it,
the reasons why, etc. etc. - and really have this down - not someone from
the group itself - although that would be interesting - yes, maybe that -
all this sudden speculation on/about Islam - our country isn't even pub-
escent - there's not that much sex! - We're like infants with guns! - You
know what a mess that is - even our speech is brutal - we're so drunk with
brutality we don't recognize it - it's not in front of us, or what we
swallow - it's our essence, it's our core, our primatology - and for that
matter everyone else's - but the power and the waste is here. I've got to
get the small Afghani rebab strung up - try ukelele strings? - one of the
catgut broke - if my hearing were better in terms of native pitch, the
erhu would be a piece of cake - it's not, but the rebab at least has three
frets - not much to go on, but something. The ceiling crack in our loft
has been widening; the beams might be broken and among other nightmares I
imagine the whole thing collapsing. We've got a metering device on them.

2007-01-05T10:32:00.000-08:00

Hell, 1930

http://www.asondheim.org/hell.mov documents what happens when two dancers
complete the "octopus dance" - long a traditional Switzerland favorite -
dangerously close to a cliff edge overlooking the famed Aletsch Glacier.
Oh they dance, fine enough, but what would happen if the bluff gave way,
the mesa shifted, cliff collapsed? Buried under tons of rubble, jammed
into crevice after crevice, Swiss culture would be the poorer. Let us give
these stellar performers their due, their magnificent bodies carrying the
hallmarks of their trade. Dance is close to prostitution, but since the
Swiss government lavishly spends on the country's cultural heritage, these
two have been rescued from a life of unbelievable perdition. Appalause for
these dancers, who continued in spite of all the obstacles life's thorny
path has thrown into their way. Too bad the woman has left the profession,
such as it is, departed for parts unknown, to start a new life far from
Alpine pastures. Here, then, the remarkable, almost aerial, duets from two
of the most remarkable dancer in recent memory!

2006-12-30T21:38:00.000-08:00

It's a drag to keep uploading to youtube and finding a mess results, no matter what the compression etc. Either I'm doing something wrong or working too hard on the image itself which always seems to appear damaged. In the meantime I've been adding to the autobiography again; this is an ill-formed habit, and the results are probably far too spiked. In any case, you can check that out at http://www.asondheim.org/biog.txt - it's still as honest as I can make it, useless for all that....

2006-12-26T19:08:00.000-08:00

2006-12-26T18:56:00.000-08:00

Rilke's Death from development, of angels, welkin reminders, of what might have been, here, among other valleys' roots like magma, poured spirit one and then another; furious angels! invisible, whose arms illuminate the night harrowed from animals wounded, animals dying; among all orders, a command. With what might one counter the thin edge of the Real?; with what countenance?; with what countenance will Any listen? Multiples move, among multitudes; crossed by elk, by deer, by wolves, kestrel-binding holding fields (these wait for No One)

What hovers, soars (these move for No One)