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Memory of a Walk


I walked last Wednesday night from the Modern Culture and Media building
at Brown University to the train station downtown. I took the 6:16 to New
York. It arrived around 9:50 at Penn Station. On the way I remembered the
walk. I followed myself step by step, reconstructing as I went along. This
was six days ago. Now again I remember.

What did you think you were doing?

Memory and reconstruction worries me. I wanted to follow myself. I didn't
think of this at the time, that is the time of the walk itself, but only
later. I conductor asked if I were a philosopher; I think I appeared deep
in thought. I wanted to remember as much as possible. Later, several times
in the past six days, I thought I would try and remember again, try to
write everything down. But I thought this would take too much effort; it
wasn't until now, Tuesday, that I've had the energy to proceed.

What did you take with you?

I'm clearing my belongings out of Leslie Thornton's office. This trip I
took, in addition to what I brought up, a Cambodian bowed instrument, a
pair of slippers, some extra toiletries, a white towel. The towel and a
plastic bag were wrapped around the instrument and inserted into a cloth
bag. It was damp out. I added a polka-dotted umbrella as well, in case I
needed it.

Where did you go?

I went down the stairs and out the front door. Susan and Ellen were in the
office talking. I didn't say anything to them. I walked out the door and
turned right.

What did you do then?

I walked to the corner. I thought about going straight down as usual, but
instead crossed the street. I began walking up a slight hill to the Brown
Quadrangle. I passed two people as I turned into the Quadrangle. I took a
diagonal left, which would leave me out between two libraries.

Wait, I remember crossing the first intersection. I think there was little
or no traffic.

Then?

Then I walked diagonally through the cold mist, almost but not quite a
rain. I went through the gates to the top of the street. I didn't notice
the sculpture on the left; usually I look at it. I crossed the street. I
was surprised there was no traffic. I thought that usually there was
traffic. I began the descent of the hill. I passed the location of the old
Brown Music Department, where I had played several times; I thought about
that. I didn't think about the arts building that replaced it. I went
straight down the hill. I arrived at Benefit Street.

At Benefit Street you had several choices. What did you decide here?

I crossed Benefit street; I believe there was some traffic, but I'm not
sure. I continued going down the hill. I passed a corner building and
looked in a window. I wondered whether the window was where my studio at
Rhode Island School of Design used to be. I thought again about the
accusation I had stolen equipment and wondered how S. could possibly think
that since I had no place to take it but the school itself. I looked in
other windows on the way down; they were studios. I think they might have
been drawing studios; I'm not sure. I reached the bottom of the hill.

Now you're into the city itself, or at least the outskirts of the city, by
Providence River. What did you do?

I crossed the intersection here. This one I remember being easy. I arrived
at the bank of the river, the bank nearest the hill. I thought that the
time before I had crossed and taken the other bank. I found that the river
split, and that I was thrown off-course, that I ended up guiding myself by
the Statehouse dome. This time I felt tired, and stayed on the nearer
bank. I looked into the water as I walked towards the train station; I
couldn't see anything. I reached the next corner.

Then there was traffic?

There was a lot of traffic. I ran across the street; I was almost hit. I
continued on the other side.

Did you press the button for the traffic signal?

I remember a button, but it might have been farther on. I didn't press it,
I think. Perhaps I did.

And then?

Then I continued walking. I think it was either this block or the next,
possibly the end of this block, still by the river, that I heard foot-
steps. Or possibly saw someone ahead of me. But I think it began with the
footsteps. At the next intersection.

We're then at another heavily trafficked one?

Yes, the footsteps belonged to a woman, I think possibly a student, carry-
ing a backpack or small suitcase of some sort. I didn't see her full-on; I
couldn't identify her, but thought she might be blond.

What happened?

She had crossed the street and I crossed as well, somewhat behind her.
This was the second time I was almost hit; I wanted to make the light,
since the signals were long.

And then?

The road curved up ahead. Wait, there was a four-way stop intersection.
She continued up the curve on the left. I walked part of the way across
the bridge, crossing the Providence River. I stopped and looked down in
the water. I was looking for the herring or shad family fish I had seen
there before, in large schools. It was dark out; I looked for ripples in
the water. The week before I was guided by ripples. This time there were
none. I couldn't remember the name of the fish, something like mulhagen; I
still can't remember. I was frustrated, worried that I couldn't remember.

After looking in the water for a while?

I crossed the street. There was hardly any traffic. I looked up ahead to
see if the student was heading to the train station. I thought I saw her;
I couldn't be sure. I stopped on the other side of the street, which was
the other side of the bridge. I looked again down at the black water; I
was looking for the fish on the other side. Most of the time I had seen
them on this, the other side. This time again there was nothing, no
ripples, at least none visible. But wait.

Wait?

On the first, left-hand side of the bridge, I saw a leaf in the water; it
was large, and looked like one of the fish on its side; I wondered if it
was in fact one that was dying. When I looked on the other, right-hand
side of the bridge, I saw several more, and it was clear that they were
leaves, slowly going down the river.

Which way were they going?

I'm not sure; the river flowed slowly, but I believe from the right-hand
side to the left-hand side and beyond.

And then?

Then I began walking up the hill towards the train station. I had again to
go out into the street because the sidewalk was partly closed due to
construction. I walked past a number of parked cars on the right, in this
fashion. I noticed the construction was coming along, and remembered
hearing that apartments were to be built here. As I walked up the hill I
walked over a recently-asphalted entrance to the construction site, or
near the entrance. I wondered why the asphalt had been poured; it could
only be temporary and didn't seem to serve any purpose. I continued up the
sidewalk.

Did you see any birds?

No, often in the daytime, particularly in the spring, I had seen birds
around the site and in the trees directly to the left of the train
station. But this time there was nothing. I looked down into the huge
excavation beyond the immediate construction and noticed for the second
time, the train platform, I think it was the platform for the number 1 and
2 tracks, jutting out into it. The platform looked oddly spacious and
beautiful in the dark. I continued walking past the trees.

This was near the taxicab stand?

This went directly past the taxi stand. I saw a number of drivers standing
around; they were speaking a language I didn't understand. At first I
thought, this might be Pakistani, but then I thought Italian; I couldn't
hear well enough. The drivers all seemed to know one another. I wondered
what would happen if a new driver came along, who didn't speak the
language - would he or she be accepted in the group? Would the group, on
occasion, speak English to him or her? Would the driver be ignored? This
went on only for an instant. I reached the station doors and went in.

Just went in?

I remember looking at my cellphone on the way, at least twice, checking on
the time. I was early as usual; I think I arrived at 5:34, for the 6:16,
but I'm not sure. I was hungry.

How long did the walk take?

I think it took about twenty-one minutes, but I couldn't be sure. If I had
gone directly, it would have taken between seventeen and eighteen.

You were hungry? Were you hungry the whole time?

I was hungry the whole time; I had only breakfast at Louie's, a #1 with
orange juice extra, I think, beforehand. I was going to drink some Red
Bull to keep me going through the day, but had a large coffee with skim
milk instead; the Red Bull is still in the office.

So what did you do?

I went to the small cafe inside the train station. The man who served me
wasn't there; the woman was. I had often wondered about their relation-
ship; they seemed tight. I ordered, I think, something with apricot; I'm
not sure. I do remember eating it without getting sticky; I didn't have to
wash my hands afterwards.

And this whole time you were carrying both your camera bag with various
things you had brought with you, as well as the cloth bag contraption with
the Cambodian instrument and other things?

Yes. I believe I also took back a copy of The Structure of Reality with me
on this trip. I had a copy of Claire's demo DVD, since I'm writing a
recommendation for her. I remember I didn't change clothes; the clean ones
were still in the bag. I had some trail mix left over from the ride up. I
didn't want to order anything on the train.

And you were reading?

Yes, I had books with me, but I'm not sure I remember them. I definitely
had Jane Austen's Northanger Abbey, which I had read; now I wanted to
finish Sanditon which was in the same Penguin volume, which of course I
did. And I had a copy of David Hume's Enquiry with me as well; I had been
reading about miracles. But I think there might have been a third book.
The week before I had carried a relatively medieval history of the tantric
schools of Tibet, but I don't think I had it with me this time.

What else were you carrying?

Other than the usual identifications, I had a small Olympus solid-state
recorder for notes. I didn't use it - I had been hoping to. The camera bag
was somewhat heavy of course. Another item - a small power supply for the
phone.

Do you remember going down the stairs from the office?

Not very well. I do remember having to negotiate the stairs because of the
awkwardness of the instrument package. Once outside, things were easy. I
had been afraid of rain; the skies were threatening all day. But as I
said, there was none, or rather just a light misting, slightly, nothing
more.

Money?

I had taken sixty dollars with me, but had spent very little. I spent
nothing on the train on the way up, so I had all of that. I spent little
there, and little on the train. I had walked down to Wickenden or
Wickendon street to go to an antique shop; I was hoping to find some
useful books, but nothing seemed promising. So I had most of the money
with me of course. I also had four rolls of unused Tri-X and Plus-X (the
new Plus-X) 16mm movie film to shoot in the winter and spring. And on the
way up I had brought a mini-DV tape for transferring the second roll I had
shot, but the roll wasn't back and the tape stayed in the office.

Anything else?

Some recommendation forms from Claire; I had to fill these out. I was
afraid they would get bent. I put them between the pages of something else
I was carrying back - I don't remember, a pamphlet of some sort.

Were you tired when you walked down to the train station?

I was extremely tired; I had hardly slept the night before - I coughed a
lot, there were sounds around, etc. I should add I sleep in the office to
save money; there's a futon. So I was glad that the air was bracing. I
went down to the train platform itself - #1 as usual - at 6:04 - I
remember looking at the clock - because it was open to the air and would
wake me up. I walked down; I haven't taken the elevator for a long time. I
noticed that the construction inside the station was down for the first
time - there were new escalators installed, but the one for track #1 only
went up.

Anything else?

Only that I remembered, as I approached the station, that I would be too
tired, and it would be too late, to go to the Border's bookshop in the
nearby mall. When I went into the station, I wouldn't come out again, at
least until the train I boarded left, which it did, two minutes late.




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The Muralist


The muralist has one good idea, something he repeats over and over again.
The muralist is an expert portraitist, avatartist.
It has been said (of him), He paints the same woman again and again.
It has been said, It is the result of an unhappy love affair.
Of the muralist: His pallet is limited, his technique sure.
Of the name of the woman: Jennifer.
Of her surname: Unknown.
The one good idea of the muralist is transcendent.
It is said (of him), Everything is contained in these portraits.
It is said, As with Being, so with the Portrait of the muralist.
The muralist paints the eyes mysteriously, they follow you.
The muralist uses techniques found in primordial drawings and caves.
No one possesses the woman of the Portrait.
It is said, the woman of the Portrait is Woman, is infinite.
(It is suggested she is a woman of the sheaves.)
(It is suggested she contains others, who contain her.)
The muralist is considered mad, obsessed, compulsive.
It has been said (of him) that his skill comes from bewitchment.
It has been said that Jennifer paints the Portrait over and over again.
Of the muralist: That he is a woman, that he is Jennifer.
Of the muralist: That he has no skill, that he is doomed to repetition.
It has been said: Jennifer is the result of an unhappy love affair.
(It is suggested she is his daughter.)
(It is suggested she is a daughter who died at birth.)
(It is suggested she is the mother of a daughter who died.)
Of the muralist: That he understands women, he understands Jennifer.
Of the Portrait: That Jennifer speaks, that Jennifer speaks through him.
The muralist repeats herself (it is whispered).
She has had one good idea (it is whispered and whispered).
That she paints and paints (the result of an unhappy love affair).
(It is whispered. It is murmured. It is said.)

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unspeakable reality of the world. In this uncanny present, 's
In 's writings digitization is no historical process. Or if we are
process, shows that we find rupture and breakdown of the process
digital. The great importance of 's writings is to treat the
More specifically, writes the problematic of the analog and the
digital. There is a rhythm to 's writings on the subject. Even
the more in its absence or gap. 's writing is syncopated in all
Firstly, these writings are syncopated in the way thinks through
only in digital form. There are only analog-simulacra. 's
through the analog. takes a different route, gambling on a
these will not reduce the confusion. This is not to say that
The ``mathematical physicist'' addresses in ``Spike'' could help
some level. More simply, writes from a belief in the world. The
Secondly, 's writing is syncopated in the way it differentiates
by explaining that ``by digital I mean discrete,'' ties thinking
both ``relative and fundamental,'' explains . For example,
``intervention'' in everyday life. is clear that raster and
Every aphorism is latent in every other and 's writing remembers
communication. 's aphoristic writing is in the mode of Novalis or
Finally, bodily interruption syncopates 's writing. Of course, it
digital and analog. This is 's concern throughout, but it is most
's aphorisms is reprocessed and hashed and the embodied text stops
making sense. offers some clues or lures for the reader. Perhaps
super-ego, suggests, followed by the introduction of numbers and
libidinal. To say that 's writing exhausts the problematic of the
through.'' 's work on the analog and digital works on itself. What
's writings on the analog and digital are grounded in pragmatics.
technologies. explains the digital as the result of setting up a
possibility of accumulation. Finally, 's raster and protocol are
None of this is entirely new in 's work. The concern with the
back as early theoretical writings, such as The Structure of
allowed a theory of online writing as hysterical text, as
environment. For , the implication was subjectivity in relation to
If writes against the digital future described by Kittler and
On the one hand, saw the possibility of a future where REWRITE
If 's analog and digital writings do not foreground futurity in
digital orders. What is such an intervention? does not specify
a world of increasing digitization, demonstrates the entanglement
immense importance. The style and content of the work is radical.
dialogue with . The content ranges from theory to praxis, with
and virtual subjectivity. While interacting with 's ebook of
and thought itself has written: "These are the essays I
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Introduction: Codework

Weisses usually in Massachusetts. In contrast, the side of the
deep; I had felt close to the Weiss, not the , side of the family.
lives in another world, just like our own.
saw the world was his.
would listen to you speaking and would
listen to listening to you speaking.
knew that the world was doubled.
would watch it burst, but it would burst
was not joined at the horizon.
and then the world. would hardly hear
For my mother, Evelyn Weiss
: This is fascinating - I'm always curious how many of
:
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: But Im not in bold now -are you? There's no bold at
: Well, I've got the URL up - yes, it's difficult, you
: Why don't you start with questions and we'll see where
: It's odd because those seem like different operations
: Well, what gets rid of the "I self Me" - which is
: The protocols reference code and the breakdown of
: and it's between code and its breakdown that I'm
: which is partly interpretable in a classical sense
: She disappeared a while ago; I didn't want to write
: The space-between code - what underlies writing here
: I started calling this 'codework' which has taken on a
: So the subtext so to speak ruptures the text which
: As if the bones of the tomb of writing were made
: - as if the bones had some sort of presence in the
: So that the writing in a way is 'lurid' - cutting
: As in the 'Anita Berber' pieces that I've put up at
: Mistakes in print, and in the traditional Tanach, five
: There's the "skeleton" of a piece of writing - which
: which gives you a huge list of synonyms. The first
: Which is a kind of overflowing of synonyms, burying
: and there's a parallel with Berber's life here, at
: This isn't my 'best' tabla work, but I thought it
: I wonder what happened; I'm always afraid of clicking
: The first bit - the short bit - is a
: There are better tabla pieces here! I think something
: Think of the rest as both an expansion and a
: in so many directions that nothing
: It a strange interface with a mysterious life of its
: two bits in that sentence will get you a quarter (bad
: yes, but you might want to ask away here? When I enter
displayed the following
: There are so many terms - I mentioned 'codework'
: which just about close everything down in a classical
: If you think of say Lautreamont - what he was doing
: But if had to attent a conference on his own work,
: What I've put up here - and you do have to shuttle
: There's also a few code snippets (most of which I've
: I tend to write in Unix or Linux - I've been doing
: which allows me to use all sorts of sophisticated text
: Just briefly - the first is Normal, then 'Back" takes
: Punched Cards is another linux program that turns
: Eliminate which was written by Florian Cramer for me
: Elimx is one I wrote from Florian's that makes a mess
: Cramer made a program that eliminates duplicate
: The program is above. It counts different words for
: The "mathesis" program I love - Jim Reith wrote it for
: You can enter a mathematical function (the very first
: GoogleScrape - is just using the Google program (API
: It's just a more sophisticated way of using google
: Then there's the "Simple perl program results" - which
: Yes of course, that would be a lot better than this
: Yes to both, that was also a while ago. Shinto
: Not so much; I've been very moved by Red Pine's
: because I can't get myself "around it" - which is
: On the other hand, I could never 'submit' to Zen or to
: and am alienated by, say, Mishima, by whale-hunting,
: The one book that stays with me, now, is the Flower
: These are openings for me, and the sutra is
: By the way (while waiting) the Yipes! text is made
: And the "Using Chat" was made by recording one of
: Ah I see - for me in relation to D Turner's second
: about Youtube and so forth - the work skitters among
: I also work with dancers in Geneva, Switzerland, and
: Yes, the meaning shifts in each context, but the
: Edting in relation to suprlus - that depends on what
: but I prefer also to work on an idea, get through with
: Code and text interact for me; sometimes the structure
: When I'm working with software (I work at the Virtual
: to some sort of limit - seeing what happens at the
: Text-based work allows me to think the
: I write a great deal of theory, and it's so easy to
: Sometimes it matters, most of the time it doesn't - if
: whether or not one understands it fully. There are
: I did some work in visual basic (you can download the
: Exactly like lace, and just as
: It makes it seem as if the world is both obdurate,
: I think of Jacques Lacan in this regard - reading his
: There are also political concerns here - trying to
: Which effects in the films? And you should sometime
: There are avatars that are constructed from motion
: and images from laser scanning equipment (big
: I'm not sure which this is! I think that's the
: The Wolf piece - that's using motion capture and
: Yes, Bellmer fascinates me, but thenI worry - in my
: It's separate, it's faster than Max I think - the
: A lot of teen-age boys make 'ideal' girlfriends with
: I think my work walks an edge of being lurid and
: I do think at least in the US these images are the
: There was a book years ago which talked about Jewish
: culture as breaking down the 'etiquette' of middle or
: for example Freud scraping at the psyche, Marx at
: And these people were - again perhaps like codework
: partially-assimilated Jews, but not 'really'
: This is obviously a gross over-simplification but it
: You have the same thing, say, in the blues, with
: When I'm surprised by the result, it's a success, no
: when I know 'what I'm doing' - it may well be a
: I coined the term 'defuge' to reference those moments
: for example when you try to read a novel several
: The same thing happens with pornography, but that's
: - if pornography were 'ideal' - one image would do it
: In sports it's another related issue - one wants one's
: So there's a kind of disinvestment at work here, and
: I think it depends. I haven't been thrown out of
: I also cross-post a lot which bothers
: The sexual content of some of the work bothers
: And at my end I have little patience for what I think
: I don't know, some tame, some not tame - it depends on
: "don't I think" - I'm not sure where this typo was
: With my work? Just to be able to keep doing it. And
: I'm terrible at programming, okay with borrowing or
: I want to explore more 'body-avatar' issues in Second
: for me, at least the aesthetics of
: Well, she may return, but there are other things -
: I don't thin I need an editor but I might have
: In fact some of the work they do is imitating avatars
: When you getto something like the Wolf,
: I have no dance background, but I work with a dancer
: That's his choreography from the avatar tapes
: We tend to inspire each other. I can't do much
: I agree re: Butoh, I haven't, but would like to work
: Or I'm the material for the dancers; it's really back
: At times I'm not sure who is doing what with whom or
: I can stay for a few more minutes if there are any
: Oh someone asked why the webpage is a
: That's the simplest way I can present the materials;
: The Trace materials are different - they were done
: There are six left; before I leave, are there any
: I'll sign out then and thank you and thank you
: No problem; I'm about to sign out unless there's a
: I'll be on the discussion board later this
: Kate, please send the recording if you
: Thank you as well - I'm constantly worrying about the
, Written on some Body
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, lists, there is a certain consistency, there is a certain
ici, you are here, you are really here, trans. .
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I tell you, if it wasn't for , theory wouldn't exist! He sure
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: "Recording this session" "Listening to this session"
: I remember when I used to write into the void,
: And because the worlds were beyond worlds, because of this,
: They recorded only as echoes, they sounded only as echoes.
: That was the beginning of appearance, that was the ending
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Human modeling again (notes for a talk)


I think 4 aspects - psychoanalytics, avatar-skin, medical modeling, AI
communality/behavior/sociality - to be considered.

Well: Avatar-skin: surface of being human which is always a fiction; there
is no exacting boundary where body ends and environment begins (think of
breath, other processes). So this is splines, Bezier curves, NURBs, early
polygon work, etc. now automated by Poser etc. Avatar-skin also applies to
audio (later touch, scent, taste, etc.) - everything perceived from one
human or other organism to another.

Well: AI communality/behavior/sociality: the internally-automated behavior
of the avatar-skin; think of this as diachronic avatar, and avatar-skin as
synchronic; each moves through the other. With AI, avatar is somewhat
spread across the social; communication and communality extend the opaque
body (metaphorically) into the translucent.
Fundamental rules of the 'game' tending towards description.

Well: Medical modeling: Both diachronic and synchronic, the projected/
introjected organs of the avatar-skin, always on the level of a model,
i.e. a beating heart is fabricated on a subtextual level again from poly-
gons, curves, splines, etc. The ontology is different as long as one
remains within the realm of computational modeling. (One might say that
_inscription_ in the real is paralleled by _fissure_ in the virtual.)
Medical modeling is fundamental description tending towards explanation.

Well: Psychoanalytics: Here is where the following have to be taken into
account:
1. The abject: epistemological/ontological/inscriptive 'smears' across
domains. Corrosive and irreducible to the other categories.
2. Introjection/projection ('jectivity') - formation of internalized
images from virtual to real.
3. Obscenity and interjections: Breakdowns of communication within
communication.
Psychoanalytics are not susceptible to mathesis beyond topology.
(Level of the metaphoric: No verification procedures.)

But of course all of this is rough, not exactly accurate; ontology and
epistemology, various branches and techniques of mathematics, can be
thrown around heedlessly. Still I'd want to begin from the four aspects
described here: body/surface, psychoanalytics/'mind', AI/habitus, and
medical/observation-experimentation. One would have to further consider
the role of apparatus, observation, observer, in all of this.

One final note - the concern - that, with formal and informal modeling
systems of organisms/physics/mathematics: How is consciousness in
relation? In other words, _what are the effects on the reader/programmer/
experimenter? How do these relate to abjection and jectivity if at all?





Notes from the Structure of Reality


In my Structure of Reality (which is under review), there are three funda-
mental layers to what I call the 'topology of intention'; these are of
interest since they critique any structuring, conscious or unconscious,
'like a language.' The layers are the real, interpretation, and language;
there is a 'zone' between the real and interpretation, and mappings all
across the layers. The real is knowable through interpretation which does
not presuppose language (syntactics, sememe); the mappings are tight, how-
ever, between interpretation and language. One might think of this as a
pre-linguistic representation without the thwarting embodiment of lan-
guage. You can see this at work when the 'unnamed' of the real skews into
anomaly - in other words, when anomaly appears without the aegis of lang-
uage. Consider for example something falling without the presence of an
ostensible object; the 'something falling' might be construed as such by a
thud or less-interpretable sound. Repeat this enough and a name is gener-
ated; if it remains on the level of a singularity or the anecdote, it
might be quickly forgotten - except for the possibility of a marker of
some sort, for example, a recording.

Heinz von Foerster: "Since nothing in the environment corresponds to
negation, negation as well as all other 'logical particles' (inclusion,
alternation, implication, etc.) must arise within the organism as a
consequence of perceiving the relation of itself with respect to its
environment." (From "Thoughts and Notes on Cognition.") SoR p. 69

Cyclical chains sailing past O and I - maybe modeling through the tangent
function. Is the repetition assumed to be 'complete'? A cyclical chain is
a loop with any number of nodes; think of one as nul, O, and another or
the same as universal, I. Then circle. What happens? One moves from 0
through infinity perhaps then back again. The simplest equation here:
tangent. Each revolution is marked perhaps by sliding along the x-axis:
equivalent but not identical graphs. And so we're there. We can visit as
many times as we like.

Does distributivity really fail w gesture? (The old Land experiments in
color vision as well as a structural analysis of gesture seem to imply
that distributivity in Aristotelian logic fails in daily life - which
further implies the potential for superimposition as the basis for a logic
of gesture.)

The thinness of language - ontologically existing on the level of the
sheave - language carries no weight at all. From within the avatar, the
sheaves, surfaces, have zero-width, one-pixel width, nul-width, as 2d
mathematical manifolds embedded within 3d space; they've all got the same
measure as the continuum, but zero volume in the embedding space - like-
wise language has zero volume.

Language, speaking, is always frustrated, flustered. It can't get around
things. Meaning: One can't get around things through language, not even
through performatives (which indicate real-material embodiment elsewhere).

Meditation medication goes nowhere.

Aristotle's Problems - sexual problems related to fluidity, abjection, in
part iv - numbers pp 327-328, Loeb edition. The beginning of the fifteenth
book is of great interest - he describes number systems with different
bases which is fascinating given the apparent absence of zero.

Conservancy of the Problems, Bacon of all people working through them
almost two thousand years later; not that much had changed. The Problems
are on the level of the anecdote - curiosity cabinet, wonders - same as
any fundamentalist text - wonder upon wonder without internalized
structure or subtext - everything is new, raw, unrelated. Or causality is
pushed back into categories which are taken for granted, even though, like
heat or air, they're composite.

What is meant by modeling? Think of a 'world-particle' W whose scope is
anything, process, etc.: W( ... ). what does that tell us? What are the
processes of narrowing the scope, increasing the information - in other
words filtering?

Along these lines, modeling is always a filtering.

Four negations: annihilation, -x s.t. --x > x; 'chain negation' s.t. -x >
y; -y > z or whatever; combinations of these; negative of the 'set-aside'
- form of retrievable absence.

States and nodes of graphs represented/mapped into states and nodes of
graphs - this includes the possibility of 'foreign' graphs which are
disruptive. The whole becomes an excursion into description rather than
explanation, which is seen as a subset.

There should be limited copies of the Structure of Reality online/offline
- dates from 1977, I wasn't a child.





SL - theoretical approaches


Second Life behaviors come as animations which may eventually go down to
the frame, but are packages in any case. There is a relation with older
silent film and melodrama patterns - what have been dubbed histrionic
gestures. A good text here is Bharata's Natyasastra, which discusses,
among other things, rasa and pattern presentations. Patterns are used as
generators of audience psychological response. The text not only considers
patterns independently, but as group structures.

Second Life bodies touch on the abject, but don't 'enter' within it; there
are issues of purity and corruption. Buddhaghosa's Visuddhimagga, Path to
Purity, is extremely important in this regard, especially in relation to
illusion and suffering. There are also kasinas which are may be related to
landscape 'focal points' in SL. A second important text is the Hevajra-
tantra with its multiple bodies; it might be worth looking at the works of
Tsong Ka-Pa in this regard as well. (Again, Kristeva's Powers of Horror,
Lingis, Mary Douglas, all come to mind.)

In terms of ontology, Nagarjuna's Mulamadhyamakakarika, The Fundamental
Wisdom of the Middle Way, is critical, given its analysis of dependent
(co)-origination ad emptiness. This correlates almost too neatly with the
ontology and epistemology of protocols on one hand and the abject body on
the other. Dependent (co)-origination can also be related to Indra's Net
and the relation of the Net to the Internet as a collocation of nodes, at
least on an epistemological level.

One might ask what is the ontology of SL from _within_ protocols - and
whether such a question makes any sense at all.

To self-active an SL avatar - use the screen itself as vision, motion-
detection across the image - feed this into AI neural networks - output
back into SL through encoded behaviors. Note the ontological and epis-
temological shifts involved: from digital readout through analog screen
(2D) interpretation.

Finally there are the old MOOs - MUDs-object-oriented, where MUDs stood
for multi-user-dungeon (or some such - out of the old D&D gaming). MOOs
are text-only virtual realities, somewhat similar to SL. One of the
biggest differences: MOOs are open-source and can easily be set up on any
linux/unix box. Now MOOs (like SL) have a system of unique identification
tags for every object, player, etc., and this is hierarchical (much like
unix itself, with the root / ). Explore the earliest numbers (which re-
flect the sysadmins, wizards, MOO structure as a whole. Remap through
dependent (co)-origination. (It should be noted that the Sharp Zaurus,
which runs on embedded but easily terminal-accessible linux, has a file
structure which 'resonates' with itself - one can literally go in circles
through it. How can one think through these dependencies, proxies, etc.?)
This might be a way of clarifying the philosophical issues - for example,
one might think of both absolute and relative ontologies (much like URLs)
- and then how the former maps onto the latter, or how all of this dis-
appears. (Just as things disappear, mathematical objects appear to appear.
So problems related to SL and avatars: the mapping of protocols, networks
in relation to the visual; to mathesis and abstract ontologies; and to
hardware implementations: static (ROM or storage where configuration is
mapped thing that is read as virtual thing), and dynamic (where transmis-
sion dynamics, ontologies, and economies are paramount).




i'm sick of swallowing


in my own adulterated view, defuge is connected with the hunt as well,
with the ravishment and devouring of the other, with propitiation.

oh i'm so tired having taken you and reduced you to nothing, oh such tired
and you're nothing to me, not even flesh, not even a smear on the carpet,
once ravished, you're all over, what the fuck

i hunt and one of you is not enough; my cock hunts you down. lucky me i
got a gun. lucky me you don't.

kill me, i'm bored.

interest in, and may hunt at his pleasure; where besides the pleasure in
and as I hunt the world of storm, I fear for your safety and my own. In
in my own adulterated view, defuge is connected with the hunt as well,
through the message bases, in the form of a hunt or retrieval: recupera-
that it produced language, just as the hunt did. That the repetitive bab-
then i hunt for something stronger than pills
from the hunt and the preparation of ancient flesh.
constituted, constructed, as the humans on the hunt - no more or less. i
kill all priest. worry lama. hunt rabbi. kill shaman. kill all grand
my own adulterated view, defuge is connected with the hunt as well, (and
the man on the hunt for the rabbit. The man-dog is preyer; the rabbit is
while there's no stopping humans from the hunt -
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practice. i hunt on the internet. i shape ride on the internet. i speak
You can hunt anywhere, you can hunt online. Ghosts are here, their images

you can't smash them. i want to sleep. kill me, i'm bored.

identity self hunt economy dyad eat wife-force co-

o god ravish me isn't the same as oh god ravish me. i can't tell the
difference. eating flesh helps for a while. fuck you i'll code your flesh
i'll stamp it out. there's this odd calm after the hunt but then it turns
to slaughter. breathing heavy it's a sign. don't wait to breathe heavy.

To code is not to produce codework; it is to produce code on the level of
the code or interface. Bridged code, embedded code, is not codework; the
irreversible spew of cellular automata is codework, all the better if the
rules are noisy. The cultural production of codework abjures
intensifications, strange attractors, descriptions such as this (which is
the oldest game in the book). The hunt and reception of short-wave number
codes is codework. Writers on the edge are circumscribed by codework,
malfunctioned psychoanalytics, scatologies endlessly coded and decoded;
the codes are dissolute, partial, always already incomplete: the differend
is codework.


If I were a different species
I'd be me
I'd still be me

If I were a smelly goose-pickle
I'd be me
I'd still be me

If I were a protein shop
I'd be me
I'd still be me

If I were a blue kasina
I'd be me
I'd still be me

I'm am me
I'm still am me



I photographed these flying saucers (there seem to be two types??) over
Clarksburg, West Virginia, in the north-central sector of the state. A
slight amount of detail is visible. Clarksburg is known as the hometown of
Gray Barker, who was first visited by "the men in black" - he was also the
first to write about this top-secret government organization. The saucers
were silent, propelled by a new kind of drives which relies on elements
and physical principles unknown to modern science.

I photographed these wooden and plaster models (there were two types) as
they were thrown vertically in Clarksburg, West Virginia. These were made
by Barker himself and were a prototype for many of the flying saucer ima-
ges from the 1950s-60s. Barker created the concept of "the men in black,"
as well as secret letters purported to originate with the US government,
which encouraged the saucerian movement.